My Cheeky Alexander...

He almost always makes me smile.. coz he is so funny and comical! he is a happy boy eventhough we discipline him and teach him the hard way... He is still the happy boy in the house..

Going to bring him for a swim soon! it's so much fun going swimming with him. I hope to bring him up to be active and healthy kid! love the great outdoors and willing to put in some hard work on something worth while doing..

Home made beef nuggets :P

Just the other day my fren Nic was saying that any nuggets sold at fast food restaurants or at supermarkets are not quality chicken/beef meat.. Could be some part of the meat but not the good stuffs.. so grateful that I do try to mix my son home made nuggets :P i think it's not too bad for him lar.. ahehehe...

see.. he likes it.. ahahah.. showing me the 'good' sign.. :P

Here are some of the pictures I took while making it...

i added some celery into the beef so my son can have some veggie in his diet also.. without him knowing it.. ahehehe..

Here are the celeries and other veggies too..

used a bit of this as oil..

Looks nice ler... hmmm...

Added some cheese also.. since there is no salt.. i add cheese for some flavour..

When it is all mixed up.. ahehehe..

To make it stick together better.. i added some bread crumbs.. not a lot lar.. just a table spoon like tt.. i think.?

Not so even LOL.. 'Chin Chai' lar hor..

When it is on the frying pan.. hmm.. smells good!~~~

Then I decided to make some scramble egg for him.. one egg enough ler..

nice or not?

Then i roll it up so it looks nice and tidy..

Here's the prepared meal for my son! i also took some bite LOL..

Love being a home maker ;)

I know many ppl will find it hard to understand why I would really want to be a home maker when I have an out going personality, love to work (for the money) and good at what I do... Furthermore, from my back ground, I would be the last person who wants to risk myself just for the family or for the hubby... but I made a promise with hubby, either one of us work, the other must stay home and take care of our children.. and I think.. now is the time for him to move in his business/career and that I keep my promise..

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Besides that, I've prayed and talked to my mentor about the struggles I have with this matter.. being a stay at home mom is REALLY not easy! Feeling insecure will always creep in because the money is now earned from hubby.

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Furthermore I see my friends managing well by sending their children to childcare everyday.. but inside me I knew I should stay home and be with my children is the right thing to do.. (I am not judging mother's who have to work and send their children to childcare.. don't get me wrong.. my mother was a full time working mom and I was sent to be taken cared by someone too and I respect my mother to the max!)

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I didn't know how God will ans my prayer.. I just need His assurance that what I did was the right thing to do for my family.. Then I read some books (talks about raising positive children and First Born), and the author specifically said that 'one of the parents should stay home to take care of their kids.' God is really awesome! He ans my concerns and clear my doubts.. I'm so thankful now that I am more focus and more certain on what to do..

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Finance will be an issue, but I thank God that we can live without a lot of things.. that part, I need to learn more.. :P since I love to shop and travel, it is really like a long term fasting akakaka.. fast from shopping and travelling.. but i know it will be worth it.. I'll need to learn to spend less and maximize what ever we have... and we are so thankful for family and friends who gives and gives and gives.. It is such a blessing..

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And.. one of the greatest thing about being a Home Maker is this...

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...getting to see my little babies (Alexander and Melissa) grow everyday..

Life is not fair..

Yup, life in this world is never going to be fair.. I should accept that.. but that doesn't mean I would be willing to just stand on the side and let it be! I want to make my voice heard! My have the right.. at least to express myself for my disappointments and frustrations!.. but the question is.. Should I express it publicly? direct to those involve? or only to God? who is my only refuge.

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I always believe that if we do not express ourselves, others will get an excuse to say that they didn't know about it and don't know what to do, so cannot blame them... but even if I express my thoughts, would they have the ans? Would they sacrifice what I have sacrificed? Or do what I've asked them to do? No lor.. nothing can be forced.. especially to an adult. (now a days, add young ppl to the list..)

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Love does not forces itself into a person, it MUST be kind and gentle. It's hard to be kind and gentle when we are disappointed and frustrated ya know!? but... that is what Jesus ask of us.. I don't blame anybody, use to pin it on God coz if He really wants things to happen, He is the only one who can make it happen.. but unless other ppl take His love and love Him back.. He can't do anything coz he will not force His love on others either.. so, I really don't blame anyone for the mishap. no matter how good a thing could be, there are bound to have some disappointments..

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Even though I may be disappointed and discouraged again, let down and beat up. I will still keep on going even when it is tough, even when it is hard, even when it hurts. Because God ask me to pray, not to move the mountains, moving mountains is His job ;) I'm just there to push and give my best, and let God do the rest!

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I have come to terms with myself on this matter and now I'm in peace. so EVERYONE, don't worry about me :) i'm fine.. I will always find my way because I have an awesome God to rely on and a good mentor that listen, and friends that encouraged me all the way.. And this is not about family matters.. it is about God's work which I'm not really good at sometimes.. Thank you for those friends who wrote to me on FB and showing their concerns..

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Above all, thank you God for reminding me that what ever I did, do or will do matters to Him.. I love you Jesus.. Coz you know me so well...

What do you do when someone is inconsiderate?

What do you do when someone YOU DON'T KNOW is not being considerate or being uncivilized? I would understand if they cannot read. I can understand it if everyone else does not follow the rules. I can stand it if it happened somewhere in the 'kampung'.. but this is KL? Don't tell me you cannot read this simple rule! (see below pic)

Written so big some more.. let say you cannot read lar.. fine...it's ok.. but look at all the other children and PARENTS, they took off their shoe! Don't you think you allowing your child to go in and play with her shoes on is very rude and inconsiderate? and you also didn't take off your shoes when you walked in either?

I'm sorry if I seem to judge you coz i don't really know you, but based on this issue I see that you are not considerate in this matter (not any other matter, just on this matter.. allowing ur dirty shoe inside the area.. ) It could be dirty already lar.. but try to understand tt this is a public area... everyone is using it and even though it is not super clean, your child needs to take off her shoe if she wants to play there.. right or not?

Do I sound critical? I'm sorry if i've disturb your peace.. I just cannot stand it when people are being unfair, inconsiderate or unreasonable.. especially in public places.. come on lar.. be civic minded a bit can ah? People cut queue also another issue.. I am not rude but if you are not an elderly, i will ask you to go to the back and queue coz everyone here is queuing up..

Well, I didn't want to be rude tt day when this happened coz I was already very up set so if I were to go over there and speak to you, you may get angry.. not just up set.. so I decided to take a photo of the 'example' you showed.. but i guess you saw me taking your photo? coz after you took your child away and came back a few min laterwithout her wearing her shoes anymore..

That doesn't mean you are off the hook.. you are suppose to teach your child to obey the rules.. not break them.. who ever says "rules are to be broken" is an idiot! coz when the rules are broken and it hurts someone you love.. then you'll know rules are important.. some rules are harmless, like this one.. but our children starts to learn to obey from these simple and harmless rules right?

i know perhaps poshing the photo with your face in it would be unethical.. so I only posh this one where your face was blocked by your child.. when you quickly grab your child out of there.. so I don't think anyone will know who you are.. only my close family and friends really reads my blog anyway.. the rest are just here to say hi..

Salad for my fren Han Then.. LOL

Colourful ler... :) I really love salad... salad salad salad~~~~ This is a container of freash fruits and veggies for our fren Han Then.. I can't eat it all and if i keep it, it will not be fresh anymore.. so it is good to share.. kan? ;D

我還是我 I AM WHO I AM by Namewee 黃明志好好野專輯主打

I don't know why.. but listening to this song made my cry.. is it sad? is it frustration? is it hope? is it loneliness? is it despair? I don't know..

I do not like his use of foul language but I think his view is very relevant.. His method could be too direct and offensive but we got to admit tt he got a point! I will not be surprise that one day he could be one of our political leaders.. if he learns to tone down his swearing and curshing, have more self-control, more ppl will think he is mature enough to voice for the people... especially the younger generation.. I wished that he would know God, know Jesus... and perhaps he will know how to approach these matters and issues more wisely.. Coz he got the guts to!!

ON another note...

"I am who I am".. :) Like how God tell Mosses how to introduce God to His ppl ler.. ahahaha in the old testi when God appeared to Mosses.. (Exodus 3:14).. I'm not saying he is God, i'm just saying the title of his song sounds like wht the Bible says..

"I am not I AM, but I know who is I AM.."-- heard it from a preacher :D make sense???

What's for lunch?

I do try to cook when ever i'm at home :) simple dishes lar.. I'm not a very good cook.. baleh makan lar.. ahahaha.. i do try to cook more veriety of dish but hubby dun like my trial cooking dishes.. he always sticks to one or 2 dishes tt he really likes.. make tt 3 which is Curry chicken, Potato Chicken and fried food.. haih.. all also not healthy one :P So how?? So he decided to reduce those food intake and drink herbalife again ahehehe.. and will try to bring Alexander down to the play ground every week to sweat it out..

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Here my cramble egg!!! ok lar.. it's not much to shout about akekeke.. looks sad i know.. but eadible and nice.. my son loves egg...

soup of the day! ABC soup... yummy...

My hubby's fav... Curry chicken... I told him may be I can use pork coz his fav meat should be fish and pork... but then he dun wan wor... i wonder how it would taste like if it's pork curry.. hmmm???

Here is our whole meal! For two ppl.. ok lar.. we cannot finish it in one meal also.. coz I dun eat a lot..

I do encourage anyone who can find the time to learn how to cook.. becuase it is such a blessing to be able to cook for your family and love ones.. and i love having frens over for meals.. (hope they dun mind if the food is either too salty or no taste akakakakakaka...)

Quote of the day...

"Whenever someone writes to say they're thinking about taking their own life, I wish I could sit down with them & do everything I possibly could to encourage them & persuade them not to take that final, drastic step. No matter how hard life has gotten, I know that with God there is hope." - Billy Graham

Melissa... Just hanging around... ahahaha...

Isn't she cute?? I know it's a bit too early to start her on a walker but she really enjoys sitting there.. and we could actually keep her entertain for at least half and hour on the walker as she explore the games on the walker and her surroundings.. Her feet could actually touch the floor and she can start moving a bit.. but of course she does not have any sense of directions yet.. she move not by choice.. ahehehe.. she is sooooo adorable... She really is.. She always gets ppl's attention even when we go out shopping.. she is really a head turner.. and ppl actually come up to me and asked me about her.. (May be is her bold head tt attracts the ppl :P who knows? ahahaha) but if they saw her smiles... I'm sure they will be drawn to her.. she has the sweetest smile ever.. she will just melt your heart right there and then.. Here's to my adorable Melissa..

Buka Puasa session with (Christ) family...

Not really Buka Puasa lar.. we did not puasa also.. (shame shame.. :P) We bought food from the Pasar Ramadan and eat at my place only ler.. but we really had fun! we played some games and eat our heart out :D aheheheh.. it was a wonderful night to remember.. I love having frens over..

The best comment on the day was when Sharon ask Logan to go and said, " You never studied Chinese book.." (in Mandarin) LOL.. means that he never learn mandarin and dunno how to be courteous as it was late d... but the way she said it was sooo funny.. akekeke...

Food food food!!! wonderful food!!! Sharon and Han Then did not eat much :P I as usual took quite a lot akekekeke... I love air bandung.. hhhmm... so refreshing..

Doesn't look like a lot but we can't even finish the whole thing...

Here we are getting ready to EAT!!!.. Daisy and Minie are also waiting :D

lemang oh lemang..

My fav Food!!! Ayam Percik!!!! super delicious!!! can only get this during Pasar Ramadan.. Ayamas ones are not as tasty.. eventhough Nigel seems to like it..

Hey Soul Sister!!!

So who is your soul sister!!!??? =D have you found him/her yet? ahahah.. I wanted to know what's the meaning of the song.. I do not want to encourage anything I don't agree upon.. Here is one listener's comment on the meaning of the song..

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As to the meaning, I think he is just being happy because he found someone just like him. Someone who he can be himself around and someone who makes him feel good about the way he is :) it's love

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It's really a fun song that I can dance to :D with my Nigel.. ahahaha.. everytime we hear it on the radio.. He will turned em on louder.. so we can both enjoy the song..

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I hope we all would get to know a bit more about a song before we say we like it and keep listening to it.. becuase if it is not edifying better to not listen to it too often.. Listen to the lyrics and if you don't get it.. do some research.. :) It will benefit you greatly to know the song(s) better.. like now.. I can really enjoy and say.. I like this song very much!!!~~

My fav Pic in the month of August... .

Was taking Melissa's photos while her bro came and wanted to see the photos that i've taken.. He was so curious and amazed at the images.. ahaha.. but after that.. he continue to play with his toys.. nearer to Melissa..

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Melissa was very focus on Alexander.. I think she was also curious on what her brother was doing.. playing his toys in front of her as if he wanted her to play along with him :P

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Alexander is a loving brother.. sometimes when Melissa is crying in her bed and I was too busy.. Alexander would bring his toys and drop it into her bed :P (of course it did not stop her from crying.. but it was a really good try.. at least he was trying to comfort her.. :)

It's Raya!!!! Yea!!!!

You know wht i like about Raya? besides the food... the opportunity for the Malays to ask for forgiveness...

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Many take this for granted i'm afraid and after asking for forgiveness, many still continue on with their wrong doings because there's always next year to ask for forgiveness.. but nevertheless, it is a good practice and forgiveness should always be continuous...

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So what about we Christians?? When do we have the opportunity to ask for forgiveness? from our parents, our siblings, our spouse, our children, our friends etc? I was thinking about this as I was thinking about what to share this coming Sunday on Pastor's vision for the church... We are a family based church where we want to build healthy Christlike families.. and I think it is not a coincidence that I was put to share during this time of Raya to share about this vision God have about forgiveness in our church...

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Our church focus on family and community work.. to be relevant and compassionate to the ppl around us.. We want to show and shine God's love to others and to help them from misery through God's unfailing love.. But before acceptance can enter a person's heart or soul... forgiveness must come in first.. Don't you agree? Forgiving ourselves and forgiving others who have done us wrong.. those whom have hurt us.. even asking for forgiveness from those we hurt.. (they forgive you or not is entirely up to them but we must ask for forgiveness so we can move on...)

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Asking for forgiveness is one of the most humbling thing... it is not what any human can do.. Many people have told me that they cannot do it.. and I believe them (and I don't blame them nor judge them). But Jesus can! God can help us to forgive.. how you may ask? Ahahaa.. I cannot tell you how because only He knows how.. especially for you that is.. there is no real formula for forgiveness or how it will happen.. but one thing is for sure if WE want forgiveness to happen.. We first must want to forgive, or decides to forgive.. (it's not mind over matter; it's not psycho yourselves into forgiveness.. no... those things wouldn't work.. coz forgiveness is truly hard...) Once your spirit, heart, mind and soul decides that you need forgiveness, that is when God can help you.. That is when God's loving spirit could nuture your soul into letting go..

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How does it fit into our church vision? :) as a family unit.. we need to constantly forgive each other.. because sometimes, or most of the time, the people we hurt most are the ones we loved the most..

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Jesus can help us to forgive and move on.. allow Him to do it with you?

My breakfast!!!! :D happy happy happy!!!~~~

I get to wake up and make myself a nice breakfast few days ago :D I'm so happy!!! Coz my fav meal of the day is breakfast!! yummy!!~~~ I love to enjoy my breakfast but after taking a full time, 24/7 job as a homemaker.. it's not tt easy waking up all energized and ready to take on the world... (Coz sometimes in the middle of the night.. I need to wake and entertain my little 'world' if u know wht i mean...ahehehe..)

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So!! you should know how happy I can be when I get to wake up fresh in the morning to prepare myself some breakfast :D so Tadah!!! My nice sandwiches.!! I didn't have any Mayo then so I did not add any :P but it was still superliciously yummy!!!

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Care for a bite?? :D

I love salads!!!!

ah... wht a blessed day to enjoy a bowl of home made salad... Looking online for Salad recipe too :D wahahahaa... i need to get Italian-style dressing and red wine vinegar... I already have apple cider so that's one dressing down :D

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I had this bowl of fruit salad Saturday for lunch :D got banana, celery, strawberry, apple and raisins... hmmm... yummy... i add Mayo for this fruity dish :D not too bad lar.. but the banana n raisins are so sweet while the strawberry is sour :P

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Some salads has nuts in em... hmm.. i think i should add some to my salad... perhaps I can prepare some this coming week :D aehehe... salad week here I come!!! yea!!
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This bowl below i had it on Sunday morning for breakfast and for tea :D i love fresh veggies with potatoes, tomatoes and corns... yummy~~~ warm and cold veggies mix together in Thousand island dressing.. This time i add some celery ahehehe... since i got a lot still from Saturday's fruit salad..
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The only person I know that would appreciate the same love for salad with me would be Han Then.. I think if she is my neighbour... we'll have salad almost everyday!!! of course some salad have grill chicken or other meat geh so we could really try out all kinds of salads...

Corbis~~~

When I took this photo in Corbis one evening.. it seems like i knew one day I'm going to use it to blog about the last day of Corbis.. The very famous Christmas tree near the pantry and the setting of the evening sun on this picture shows a little beauty and sadness in the air.. Even though it feels sad.. there is still a sense of hope... from the star on the tree :) It really stands out.. feeling nostalgic... and it's a good feeling..

Home made chicken nuggets for Alexander :D

Alexander loves nuggets but eating manufactured nuggets every time is not very healthy.. further more no veggie in them... so.. I have decided to make some for him with some veggie in it :D no salt.. just mince chicken, cheese and green veggies... pan fried it with a little oil.. may be next time i can do without oil? aheheh

So does he like it? oh yes he does ahehehe.... i like it too... Here is the nuggets while it is still in the frying pan... hmmm... sizzling hot... nice.. smells good too..

Tadah!~~ here it is on Alexander's plate :) nicely cut so he would not waste it...

I enjoy cooking for my love ones... do u??

Alexander and the doggies :D

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They are best pals!!! Minie (the black and white dog) is our home mobile food vacuum cleaner.. she would follow Alexander when ever he got food in his hands.. because Alexander sometimes drop his food on the floor..
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The other day we found them playing catch LOL... when Alexander was running away from Minie while she was chasing him around our coffee table.. Alexander was laughing hilariously and screaming with excitement.. While Daisy (the doggie in white) is the big sister.. she would give Alexander a sniff (a kiss) on the cheek once a while.. Daisy dun play with Alexander tt much, but would show affection when ever we come home..
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I know some of you must be freaking out coz they sleep so close to each other.. the fur and all.. I just find it cute so I took this picture to remind Alexander next time tt his doggies loves to hv afternoon naps with him..
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And btw, the doggies went on the couch on their own :P

Frustration explosion!!!

I was going through my blog and see anything was written half way and was not being posted.. and I came across this post that i left unfinished in June.. I suppose I was feeling really up set but now Thanks to God and my mentor who encourage me to continue praying.. I got the ans that i needed.. and things are going so well since then... :) but just to share that i am only human.. here was my thoughts when I was in that trap of depression..

"What would you do when you are sooo up set that you feel you are about to explode!!!??

Some of us will just bla it out; while some will write it out in their blog or facebook; Some will call someone and complain about it and seek advice (may be?); some would just keep it to themselves etc...

I have come to a point where when I'm frustrated, I'll keep it to myself.. I hope I'll keep it for a while and then deal with it coz if I keep it too long.. it will be too much for me to handle if it happens again.. I will explode! (cool cool!~~~ breath breath~~)

I would normally pray (most of the time perhaps talking to myself.. not praying.. just thinking out loud..) but sometimes I don't an ans for the things that troubles me.. and that would make me continue to wonder what should I do.. then I'll continue to pray and hope to find an ans.. to confront, to keep quiet, to say my mind, to just seek other's advise..wht? haih..

I'm just so tired.. to even want to think of what should I do now.. physically tired.. It is now that I should realize how much I need God's strength.. again... to pull me through.. so much to do, so much to think about, so much to sort out.. My Lord Jesus.. lend me Your ear, so that I may be heard.. am I suppose to take up this burden all by myself? am I all alone in this?...."

I hope when you do feel what i was feeling then, I encourage you to also pray to God consistently and seek His word and assurance.. seek His guidance and wisdom.. Jesus loves you a lot to want to help you.. and He can :) I am grateful for the peace He has bestow upon me.. Thank you Jesus..

Let's be fair... so wht does a guy looks for lar??

According to Blaine...

1) Devotion (a REAL man will chase a girl who chases after God. Devoted to Christ and the plans He has for her.)

2) Wisdom (young women who has the ability to discern and make good decisions.)

3) Encouragement (a women who believes in him and will be a regular source of strength and encouragement.)

Do I fit the bill, honey?? :P