Having another baby...

Being pregnant for the second time is not an easy task.. especially when you have one older kid which is still, in a lot of ways... a baby... to take care of.. tiring!!!

So i hope my post will be short and sweet from now on.. except when I have much emotions or thoughts I would like to express.. (wai.. no time..) ahahaha..

Check up today... here are some.. erm... baby photos? :P See if you can see my little baby's head, hands and feet...

This is a 3D scan... I think? Still look a little.. erm.. alien? :P still growing and forming mar..

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My children cannot be too serious lar.. must take life sometimes (sometimes) with a pinch of salt.. Serious when needs to be serious.. and still able to laugh at ourselves at times..
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Can you see baby's head, hands and feet?

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Ei? EDD is 26 May 2010.. ahahaha no more 23rd May? :P Could be early like Alexander and it will be 23rd May 2010.. ahahaha..

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You may ask if I would like to have the same birthday as my baby... i will tell you.. No. I want her to have her own special day.. no need to share with anyone from the family.. :D but even if it is on the same day, then we'll make it special for the both of us..

Confinement dishes Nigel cooked...

Nigel cooked for me for the past few days before my mom could make it. Share with you some of the photos i took on his master piece.. aheeheehee...

Nice ler... but a bit too much for me ler.. i only eat a little bit now...

I still look a bit fat.. so may need to call for the Malay Urut lady this week... lost some weight d lar but still not as nice as i would like it to be... :P

Btw, i got a slight fever right now ... haih.. i hope to get well by tonight so Alexander, Nigel and My mom would not be infected..

After Delivery... due to a demand... show u photos instead lar.. :)

Nigel's first touch with Alexander...

My first hug with Alexander...

Alexander's First Ang Pau...

His first Visitors was Ben and Kat.. ( Sorry, didn't take photo on tt coz too tired on the day..)

And My bro Kenn, wife Irene and Nephew Edward with uncle Con..

And then Pastor Jeff and Jaecie...

Some CPY youth came as well along with Nic for a short visit...

All went to the Hospital to see Mommy, Daddy and most importantly Baby Alexander...

The first day Alexander lay down on his bed...

Sweet Alexander asleep...

Alexander with his toy 'fren' Bed Bug... :D

For more pics.. you may go to:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/24390265@N07/3022826535/

And my facebook account... thanks...

During Delivery.....

During delivery......

At about 7 pm i was feeling the real pain of contractions + dilation but i was not ready for delivery yet. It was very difficult to breath and the pain is sometimes unbearable but you know what? As we (Nigel n I) need to wait for another 4 hours for my doctor to come back to check on me, I see visions of Jesus being with us in the delivery room all those 4-5 hours as i was in much pain.. I was taking "the laughing gas" to ease the pain even though it does not look like it helped but it did helped me to relax and regain my energy for the next contraction and the vision comforted me as i knew i was not alone and I can do this.

Many have prayed for me and have encourage me by telling me that God is with us.. and it holds true to us.. God was there and is still here with us right now.. As time past and it was about 9pm, the first midwife have to go back and a staff nurse came in to help and she ask if i needed epidural, a stronger pain killer, as I was in so much pain. I was still thinking wan or not but Nigel was the one asking for it coz i think he was worried for me also.. I love it when he put me first above everything else... I was very glad to have him there with me and i told him that during the time at one point.. (Thank God i was not in a bad mood...)

BUT, we can;t get the doctor until almost one hour for my doctor to come in for the delivery only she was able to make it, she meaning the doctor who would inject the epidural for me. I was about to say no because i have already gone through almost the whole delivery without it.. so i was thinking.. might as well dun take lar... but Nigel convince me to take it as he fear i cannot contain the pain and starts to move too much which may injure my back bone.. so... in the end i said ok..

Even when the doctor came and put the epidural into my back bone i was still in pain but a while later my doctor came and suggested that i try to push to get the baby out.. "let's give 3 test push." he said... i said ok.. then i started to push!!!!

As i was pushing, the nurses cannot find my baby's heart beat!!! i was so so worried!!! in that spilt seconds i prayed and said this will be my last push as i want to see ny baby out safe and sound... so on the fifth contraction.. i think... i push a few times i was so determined and so worried at the same time that i pushed my baby out!!! Of course with a lot of help from my good doctor Prof. Paul from HUKM. He is really experienced as according to Nigel he was very fast and was very precise. He helped the baby out by vacuuming it out and of course 'cut' a bit more for room..

Then i think baby cried but i couldn't really hear it as i was really tired.. then they put baby on top of me as they were sucking some liquid from baby... i was trying to notice signs of life as i wanted to know if my baby was ok... when he started to move.. i was relieved..

.. to be continued on part 3...

What an experience.... before the delivery...

Giving birth naturally is not as scary as many people pictured it or described it. Yes, we'll go through some form of pain but to some none at all...

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I met so many people who gave birth without any pain killer and with only being in the labour room for less than an hour their beautiful baby is already welcomed to the world. Even though my delivery was about 8 hours long in the labour room, i still believe some of you out there will have an easy delivery :D you just need to believe that there is a chance for you to have that miracle..

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I prayed for short, safe and painless naturally birth... I believe it has come true in a way.. it was not short in terms of hours but it was when the REAL Contraction + Dilation starts to kick in (about 5 hours), it was painful only during the time of 5 hours, it was a safe delivery (even though we couldn't find the heart beat for a while) and it was natural delivery.. (with some help from a Vacuum.) Not perfect but it was wht I have asked for... in a way...

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I had contractions on Tuesday night and it continued until the next morning but it was not painful and it continued until my Doc suggested that i induce my delivery so it will not stress the baby out. So we listen to our Doctor and was admitted on 31st Oct and i thought that i would have a Halloween Baby as i was sent to the labour room at about 3pm ++.

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The sleepless night just waiting for the Real thing to come is agonizing.. Dunnno when and dunno how.. but i have to go and do a check up every day from Wed till Friday.. On thursday i did twice.. i went to the clinic twice to check on my dilation.. it was a bit scary experience as they need to check the.. hmmm... "opening"... and there was blood after every check up... (sorry for being too graphic... but it's not too bad..)

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..to be continued....

Fake or real contractions???

I was having some contractions last week but irregular ones... which is the fake contractions or Braxton Hicks Contractions...

Last night from 11pm.. it started to get more and more regular and steady... but no pain!! So wonderful!!! and of course a bit "dunno what to expect" kinda feeling.

I thank God as I prayed tt it will be no pain as some contractions is painful to some ppl... and contractions can last very very long... so I am very grateful that mine is not... but there is a catch lar.. you dunno is it a contraction or not lor and you wouldn't know when would be the right time to go hospital lor... At least to me i dunno lar..

If painful, you would surely go hospital already by now, but i can still try to go and sleep it out.. it's uncomfortable but can still sleep for a couple of hours before the uncomfortable feeling starts to wake you up...

I look up the Internet to get more idea on when to go to the hospital and it mentioned that within and hour should i feel there is 4 time contraction i should be heading to the hospital already... My contractions.. is about a few min a part.. aheehee... and until now it is still a few min a part... consistently but I dun have the feeling of pushing yet... just feeling the tightening of the muscle at the abdomen area etc. Sometimes feels like wavy feeling and slight pain (very very mild).

I wonder how soon will I give birth.. will it be a fause alarm? As there is no pain and no pushing feeling yet? haha... will let you all know once i am out from the hospital later lar :P I am still feeling blurr...

I though water retention only make you look fat... but actually.. sometimes it hurts.. :(

When my feet got the first sign of water retention, it hurts very badly.. funny thing is that it happened suddenly!! Like suddenly my feet grew in to Incredible Hulk's feet..

Show u how it looks like

when i press or massage my feet, its really painful... like it's going to explode!!! i feel so heavy and clumsy. i laugh about it lar.. coz it;s really funny looking.. my feet i mean.. it looks like someone else's feet!!!! look at it!!!! man it's so fat!!

then after a few weeks... my hand pulak starts to have water retention.. and the worst thing is tt i feel numb all the time! it is not big but it's pretty painful as i can't really feel with the extra cushion (water) surrounding my hand and fingers. The experience was a bit scary.. first it was the middle finger top digit, then the second finger first digit, then the two fingers with 3 digits, then all the fingers then the whole hand can feel numb!!! i though i was having some weird disease.. Thank God it's just the water retention.. Cannot see any diff mar.. how i know it;'s the water retention wor.. but it is as i noticed my fingers a bit bit fat lar.. :D

He yanked my bolster from me!!!!

My lovely and adorable hubby YANKED my bolster from me last night.. Literally yanked it over to his side and hugged the thing while it was placed BEHIND my back (Since i sleep in an up right position as it feels more comfy).. Apelar...

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So can you imagine what i may be experiencing during the time? EArth quake!!! Typhoon8!!!

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I called his name but he didn't realized it as he was very much asleep.. i looked at him and he didn't even move an inch!!? alamak... i though to myself... his own bolster was with him all this while and he want to high-jack mine? Aiyo.. i think he must have been dreaming and tt was an act of mild "sleep-walking"

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Come to think about it... it's quite funny!! ahahahaah... I was like all alone in the dark trying to figure out what just happened and no one.. not even my dog felt anything... in the still of the night some more... so I decided to just go abckt o sleep.. but took me a while to do so..

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In the early morning, i think hubby realized that he took my bolster so he let go of it and i dunno how i realized it as well and took it back and place it back where it belongs... then went back to sleep again.. ahaha.. so last night, it was not BB who woke me up.. but Nigel... aheeheehee...

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I think we should turn off the air-con to prevent hubby and my dogs to 'take-over" my side of the bed.. Coz i noticed that whenever we have the air-con on, they tend to sqeeeezzzeeeee to myside.. (may be i'm warmer or what but i dunno lar..) but even my dogs likes to sleep on my side of the bed... could be my side got space lar.. dunno.. :P

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but i need the cool air also.. since i am producing much heat and contributing to the "room-warming". Well until next time... sleep well everyone....

Up dates on my pregnancy??

I am now 69.1Kg!!! and BB is 2Kg at the moment :D good weight actually..

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Went for check up today but didn't get the MC coz i 1) i forgot to ask for one 2) before i can ask for one my doctor left d :P So since it's still early and i feel great and full of energy.. i decided i come to work lar. ahahah..

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Everything is fine with me and my bb.. I am still calling our bb, bb... coz i still cannot decide on 2 names for him.. so i am still prayer for the right one... Once i can decide on his chinese name i will start calling him d lar..

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i can sleep better now but i am sleeping seating up.. i mean.. like when you want to read a book in bed, you put pillow behind your back and read your book?? like tt lar.. so i sleep like tt and if i were to turn.. the position doesn't really change much :D Coz every time i move, bb will move more aggressively. He will actually start kicking!!!..

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Someone told me i should not sleep like tt coz may squeeze my internal organs.. but i feel most comfortable sleeping like tt wor.. how?? any idea how should i sleep?? Some ask me to put lots of pillow... but put where??? i got 2 pillow, another small one and a boaster? not enough ke?? i even exchange Nigel's boaster with mine coz mine not as soft as his one.. akakaka...

7 weeks to go...

Another 7 weeks to go? So fast ler.. I dunno what to expect or should I say when to expect :D coz we can only estimate the date of birth but the real deal would be in the hands of Our Lord.. so I wonder when will our first born child’s birth date be.

I think I have figure out the name for our son. Aheehee… Thank you for your voting but God’s choice is the right one for our son. And the name is…. Nah… not telling yet ahahaha… let’s see if I can keep it a secrete until… some one actually heard me calling our son with his name :P

I am glad to find some support or even encouragement for our decision on using more traditional way of dealing with our son. It is a bit inconvenient and more hard work needed but we think it is for the best.

Yes, having children in our lives takes a lot of commitments and a lot of work. Should one is not ready then one should wait a while till God touches their heart. Sometimes people ask “Why don’t want to get pregnant already? Married a few years d what? Should plan for a kid d.” Even though it's nothing wrong with this concern question, but I think it’s better just to wait for people to tell us that they are expecting rather then asking them and stressing them to have a kid when may be they want to but can’t or they are waiting for the right time or even they are not really ready for tt kind of commitment. I mean I’m sure they have their reasons and when they do tell that they are expecting, isn’t it more exciting, surprise and joyful rather then asking them all the time and expecting a difference answer?

I need to remind myself that also.. coz now tt I am expecting, I may have tt tendency to ask others “So when is your turn?” no good no good…

Vote for our son's name??? :D

卓义恩--- TohYi Ern--------- Justice/Righteousness, Grace
卓圣恩--- Toh Sheng Ern---- Esteem Character and Wisdom, Grace
卓佳圣--- Toh Jia Sheng----- Goodness, Esteem Character and Wisdom
卓君圣--- Toh Jun Sheng---- King/Gentlemen, Esteem Character and Wisdom
卓君豪--- Toh Jun Hao------ King/Gentlemen, with great Talent
卓荣恩--- Toh Roong Ern---- Glory, Grace
卓聪恩--- Toh Chong Ern-----Intelligence, Grace
卓荣圣--- Toh Roong Sheng-- Glory, Esteem Character and Wisdom

How I choose these names? By God’s character and His will for our son… With some prayer and hard work, I went through the Chinese dictionary as well. Ahaha…

Nigel is still searching for baby’s name in English and I am almost there with his Chinese name. I carry these names in my wallet and consistently praying for the right one. Some say the first name that comes into your mind would be the one.. I wonder is it true? :D

Why dun you give me your vote for the names above and I’ll tell you God’s choice for our son?

Have fun…

P/s: Doesn't mean we are to choose the highest vote ya? Nor be influence by it :D just wanna know which name you like... aheeheehee...

How i look now that i am soooo pregnant!!! ahahaha...

Thank you for your gifts!!!!

baby is so so blessed!!! Many mommy and daddy's fren send you gifts even before you were born... :)

Here are your thoughful gifts from Auntie Joanna and Uncle Nic..

Here are your thoughful gifts from Auntie Violet and Uncle Darren..

Baby boy

It's a great and wonderful feeling,
having the honor to bring forth life;
Having baby moving insdie my tummy,
and feeling his movement from side to side.

Nigel have not choosen a name yet,
As Natheneal seems to be too long for comfort;
So i will choose the chinese name for baby,
and let you know once we've decided.

baby is moving oh ever so often,
when i tap on my tummy he tap back in return;
It's exciting and sweet as this experience are real,
for me and baby is bonding ever so fun.

I love others to feel baby moving,
sharing the joy of having and excitment as i am going;
i feel 'geli' and even uncomfortable at times,
but it's a great feeling altogether as it is worth wild.

Free sample...

I went online to search for some Baby products and came across some baby milk products..

While reading through it... i found out that i can get free sample.. so i register and got some free samples! heeheehee...

Anmum is actually given by a clinic in Damansara.. and this month August.. one of the magazine was also promoting this milk powder.. forgot which one d.. Not bad the taste.. i quite like it! I like the Vanila compared to Chocolate one..

I tried one pack of this.. Dumex brand... but got a lot of lumps after pouring hot water... a bit yuks lar..

Dun really like the texture... like it does not dissolve properly... i will try the other pack later... but may be MUCH later..

Haven't try this out yet though... I will try later tonight.. and up date it as soon as I got the taste of it aheehehheee...

This is MeadJohnson brand...

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The funny thing is that when i get all these free sample.. someone will call me to verify me and then send the sample over so one of the personnel called me and ask me how old is my child.. :D

I told her that "he" will be due in Nov this year! ahahah... means not out yet lar.. and i told her i hope it's alright to try the milk out first.. since i plan to breast feed my baby... she was nice and said she will still be sending over the sample, no worries.. :D

Anyone knows how to get free disposable diapers samples? I got it once from Drypers.. which i'm not sure how i got them :p

Baby is well and healthy...

Went for a check up last Friday... monitoring the water level of my womb.. it has increased a bit and now Baby is about 1.2kg... If i'm not mistaken lar.. so baby is growing well and water level have increased is a good thing..

This week we, CPY, is having our encounter weekend and I'll be in charged of 2 sessions.. i hope i can tahan as i get very tired and sleepy a lot now a days... Haih... i pray that i will have more energy and strength so i can still do the things i need to do.. i have cut down on a lot of outdoor activities and have been resting at home.. but i get bored very easily so is till do something at home.. :P like cleaning, playing with Daisy and Minie, been praying for family and friends too..

I think through this time of resting i may not be able to spent more quality time with others as much as i would like to but i get to pray for them and God have been good during my quite times.. I may have been weak physically but i know God is in control and all things is in His will..

I am enjoying my first pregnancy.. and I know baby is too :D I always laugh at his movements at times.. especially if it amazes my frens coz they have not seen it before.... ahahaha...

Will try to upload baby's 3D picture later and see if you can recognize the face of my baby aheehee.. till then... take care ya'll!!!

How I look now with my big tummy???

This was taken... last 2 weeks ago.. tummy a bit bit bigger.. a bit bit only lar..

have to take the photo myself.. Nigel malas wanna layan me :P

But my mirror not a full frame mirror so my look a bit cut off at some points...

Even Minie also wanna be in the picture, manja.. :P

may be next time i can take a photo with Nigel.. then we can compare tummy :D

Till next time!!!!

BB movement.... The Movie...

Can you see the wave movement? Not the up and down movement as that is my breathing ahahaha... when u see a small wave moving to the right side of the screen.. means bb is moving towards tt direction.. aheeheehee... interesting hor...

Little hand and little feet is now about 900g d.. bigger lar... :D

Hope you all enjoyed the clip...

Scary experience... Stomach pain!!!

Had a terrible stomach ache on Saturday night.. whole night i can;t really sleep because of the pain.. I dun even know what caused it.. it feels like gastric but i have eaten something wor and it's not just on a spot like normal gastric. The pain is like all over my tummy... was a bit worrying..

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But bb inside of me seems to be doing fine.. still swimming and kicking hard... so I knew he is alright.. as though he doesn't feel a thing.. Thank God!!!

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Anyway, i was a bit worried so I prayed a little prayer and msg my doctor.. so the doctor ask do i feel the contraction or not.. I was thinking.. "what is that?? how does that feel??"" hahahaha i dun even know!!! Then Nigel gave me a very frank reply... "Like you want to 'pang sai' like tt lar.." akakaka... " oh Ok...." But i tried to 'pang' nothing also?Some more like forcing it so it;s not really natural.. It's not tt kind of pain i was experiencing.. it's just painful and I dunno the caused of it...

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So doctor ask me to just monitor the bb movement unless i feel the "pang sai" feeling then perhaps will need to go emergency room for a check up... so i monitor lar the whole night until half way i feel asleep and woke up feeling tired. But bb is well... as i wake up and ask him how is he feeling.. he wil kick to indicate he is alright.. :D but still a bit pain and was tired from the monitoring... but felt much better... seriously dunno what had happened.. Praise God for His protection though..

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Jaecie (my church mentor) woke up and had a burden to pray for me and bb even before i told her i got this problem yesterday.. haiya... Scary.. would it be a serious case should we have not prayed?? Really appreciate those that have been praying for me.. those that I know of... Kat, Sharon, Rebecca and others... This pregnancy have taught me to rely on God pretty much everything, as i have totally no control over it! The water level lar.. the bleeding lar.. i have been trying to stay rested and discontinue many outdoor activities also cannot help much.. forcing myself to drink milk (yukksss) and take supplements regularly... i think i have done all that i humanly can to take care of myself..

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In the end, it's all in God's hand.No matter how much i do, God is the one truly in Control! Thank God! If my friends have not been praying for my baby, Nigel and even for myself.. I can't imagine what we would have been going through right now.. panic attack? fear? no peace? anxiety? I can't imagine the chaos!

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Constant prayer keeps my mind at peace, knowing God is sovereign and wise. He knows what to do...

Music for bb...

WHat a day right??? 888 (8th August 2008).. since some of me frens are boycotting the Olympics... i show u how i let my bb listen to Morzart music then ahahahah...

I dun use my hand to keep the ear phone steady now... i use rubber bands :D tt go around my back from left to right ear phone. It's pretty neat and it's very steady!...

Now my bb is into his first week of the 7th month pregnancy.. means 28th weeks lar...Dunno my tummy is big or small... but bb is at the right size :)