Big Daddy and Alexander..

This was taken during our reunion dinner.. We came a bit late so we didn't get to sit with other relatives.. we sit together as the whole family of 6.5 of us.. :D..

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Alexander's outfit was given by Grandma Betty... cute ler... ahahaha.. Lion is also a type of CAT which is also from the Tiger family.. so it really is a suitable occasion to wear it tt night since it is the year of the Tiger now..

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Alexander was very well behaved that night.. (only that night..) as he was entertained by many stage shows, ppl singing, dancers and magic tricks etc..

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The dish was wonderful and nice.. I love the "Lou Yee Sang"... i didn't eat the raw fish though.. but love the sweetness of the rest of the dish... hmm... yummy...

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OOohhh... btw.. will up load our family photo later.. The Toh Family portrait, which I was wishing to take few days ago.. lol.. didn't know alst min we can go back to Seremban again and took the opportunity to have dinner again with my in law and took a family potriat.. LOL.. What a wish come true ei?? :D happy happy..

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Will have to up load it later coz copying videos right now and it's taking really long time to load these videos into the hard drive...

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Time really flies when we are having a good time... haih.. today is my last CNY holiday and i'm resting at home.. cleaning up and planning for Worship practice, CPY CNY Visitation and tomorrow work lar!!..

CNY...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Wished we had taken a family photo this year.. haih.. I think we have been too rush for everything that we missed out doing tt :(

This year my sister in law, Madeline and hubby, Ernie are back from Boston for CNY.. Haih.. really wished that we have taken a family pic.. perhaps one day soon lar..

We had a good reunion dinner with much entertainments and good food.. Thank you to Uncle Beng Hong.. (Nigel's uncle).. Also for all the ang pau for Alexander.. Thank you so much for all family members who have bless Alexander with a Red Blessing..

My experience with online purchase...

I'm so glad to have received 1/3 of my online order on Tuesday night :D Seems like ages ago.. ahahahaha..

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This is the first time i order products online and it was a pleasant experience I suppose..

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Especially now a days many ppl tend to purchase products online, I think I should try out buying some stuffs online too.. Eventually.. I may also start to sell online like Nigel.. :D That's my plan lar.. Unless Corbis have more opportunities for me :P (My managers reads my blog btw.. ahahahha... and I'm always honest about my thoughts I suppose... Being honest is not the best policy.. It's the ONLY policy! Again.. Being honest doesn't mean we say everything tt comes into our mind.. wisdom is also needed..)

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Share with you the things i got on my first parcel received..

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I'm reading this at this moment as well as "The power of a praying wife" and this book about "Leading" is really easy and straight forward.. John C. Maxwell are well known for his books on leadership so I really would like to suggest to some of my frens out there who wants to be a good leader.. not just in a ministry (as this one speaks of leading in a youth group) but also in everything else.. the principle are some what similar.. :)

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Obviously, this book is for my son, Alexander :D I let him flip the book as I tried to read to him.. ahahaha but he was flipping it too fast I didn't not manage to finish reading the stories so end up just talking to him about the pictures as he continues to flip...

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Max Lucado!! Another good writter that I admire becuase his writting skills are very personal and very close to heart... He could write the heart and voice of Jesus so tengibly that when you are reading his work, you are actually in it and experiencing it youself.. I wonder who's the blessed soul whom I will give this too.. lol..

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This is the most expensive item in my first order... not just this parcel.. it includes the items in my next parcel also.. and among the items i ordered.. this one the most expensive one... and I really liked it.. Ahahaha.. And before I've decided to invest into this, I've already thought of someone to give it too.. :D Do you know who??~~~

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I thought this was a book... mana tau this is a DVD ahahaha.. good also lar.. then I can go though it with Nigel ke :P since he dun really read and loves to watch TV... this would be very suitable for the both of us.. akekekeke.. (Right honey??)

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Hard cover ler... and it's really nice... but i haven't started reading it yet.. so.. i will share with you all should 1) i have read it 2) i got the time to blog about it :D thanks for understanding!!! lol

My childhood CNY..

Come to remember my childhood CNY... I remembered some really good times where I spent it at Tawau where my grandparents were and many of my mom's siblings went back to celebrate the new year there together.. I was really younger then..

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When I was older.. becuase we were very poor.. we basically avoided celebrating CNY with other ppl.. which means we dun get to go visits to receive ang pau, so my mom need not give any either.. When I mean poor.. I mean poor.. where food has always been a problem and my mother struggle to meet ends meat every month and even weeks..

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My mom had to work a few jobs a day just to get by and I as forced to stay home alone.. locked up everyday after school... Thank God I have been kept safe with no major incidents..

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Every CNY, my mom would go to this supermarket where we would buy some CNY food stuff and for me it was something really luxurious... and every year i see many ppl buying loads of goodies where we could only afford some can food, dried persimmons (my fav!!! still love em'), some fruits and may be some crackers.. that's it.. Then, I had a wish... :) I still remembered and it was a small prayer in my heart.. that one day, we'll have a basket FULL of things!! a trolley full of goodies and food to bring home.. FULL!!! I thought it was silly then.. ahehehe.. what I dream I thought, but smiled when I thought about this silly dream of mine..

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But now.. remembering back.. I'm living my dream, trolley full of goodies and food for my family.. I'm so fortunate, I'm so blessed.. God heard my prayer then.. my little small voice reached His heart and He made it possible...

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CNY is near... and I can't wait to bless others with hope.. I could only afford to give that much but believe me... God has more than The God of prosperity or even Santa Clause :D

1 year ago today...

I thought I would loose myself to this madness... I thought I would never recover..
I thought I would be a different person all together..

I thought the pain will kill me slowly.. I thought the lost would left me wounded for life..
I thought the hurt will never end till the day I die..

I thought wrong...

I'm not as strong as I thought I could be.. that's why I found that Jesus is always with me..
I'm not that logic when it comes to emotional pain.. that's why God's love surrounded me then..
I'm not that good at pretending everything is well.. that's why God's people always there still..
I'm not alone.. I know.. because God almighty are always there as He said, "Peace, be still."

A year ago today, my mother took her last breath, as I lay next to her bed and saw her slowly drifted away... She was in much pain, she was in much agony, but I know now that she is with the Lord Almighty..

I sometimes still cries when ever I think of her... especially before I go to sleep or even in the shower.. it is the only time perhaps that's what I think.. that I could cry and let my tear drip...

I miss her dearly, so much so to have her handphone number still in my address book.. I still wonder when will I have the courage to press the delete button... No, I'm not crazy and I'm not going to call.. Just having the number there.. reminds me of her good soul... I will eventually delete it perhaps when I do I will show my children too.. How I miss their grandmother and hope they will too.. They may not know her, but I'm sure she would love to.. may be one day when we are all 'Home" again.. we'll have a loads of time to make amends...

I miss you mom...

Waiting for my baby girl...

As we are waiting for bb girl to grow (growing well as she is kicking and moving quite a bit).. I can't help but to get some new clothes for her :D

She of course will share some of her brother's clothes but every child of mine deserve something new.. not everything but some.. even something we could keep for them till they get much much older and have children of their own :)

I got this set of clothing from my trip to Bangkok Last year with Khai Sing :D didn't realized that it will be given to my baby.. ahahaha.. plan to give to my other frens but well, in the end it's for my little one lar.. :D

Got this from Tesco.. Bought bu my in-laws :D as we were doing some shopping together the other day..

Got this from Mont Kiara pasar mlm... :D along with Jane.. I was looking for something similar to Alexander's blankey and there it was.. :D just that it's not pink.. :P

Isn't this cute!!!!! ahahaha got the green one for Alexander b4... but after letting him try it at home.. noticed that it's for a girl :P so now its for 'mei mei' lar ;D

I know i know.. why i would want to get 2 the same clothing right??

Cos it's so cute!!! and it's 50% off fpr this one :D i got 2 sizes.. one for 0-6 and the other 6-12 months.. ahahaha..

The pattern is too cute... HHmmm...

MYR 10 per set for these two.. got it also from Mont Kiara Pasar Mlm.. :)

I think tt's all for shopping this month for bb girl lar.. LOL.. next month coming real soon.. akekekeke..

Just want to sen out a special thanks to Kevin and Elaine Lai as well.. (even though they may not read this blog of mine..) coz they presented us with 3 bags of diapers for bb girl.. (too small for Alexander :D not 'ngam' Kristy Lai even.. LOL)

Praying...

Here is the book i was talking about in church! That I bought it last year and starting to read it this year.. :)

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I got this book because I want to pray for my Nigel and bless him. He deserves my time and attention in prayer even if he doesn't know what and when I prayed for him.. The book shares with me the heart of a praying wife and it is always a submissive one. Submit to God that is and allowing God to take over your hubby's situation. Guide him, help him and strengthens him..

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I am now at chp of Integrity and before this was Trials.. We will always have to go through trials, it is a way where one learns to count on God.. and I didn't want to over protect Nigel because trials are God's will but rather pray that God will guide and encourage him during these hard times.. Knowing that God will never forsake him and will always strengthens him..

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God is good.. even though I failed many times in being patience in many situations, Nigel seems to be more forgiving.. may be he is so use to it :P LOL... Still, I'm sure he knows that I am trying and we have come a long way.. Since the moment we known each other until now.. both of us have become a better and happier person for God and for each other..

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Indeed we have come a long way...

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Wanna encourage married couples out there to hang on and look up when things go wrong.. Our source of hope, joy and comfort is in the Lord.. Always do wht is right in His eyes and your prayer may not fall on deaf ears..