Old Love put into action..

.. and i'm not talking about and Ex-boyfriend or an old falme ok.. duh!! I'm talking about doing something i actually love :D

I love making crafts and I love stationeries (papers, notebooks, writting pads, notepads, books, pens etc..).. Was my hobby to collect these things and even make things out of things.. LOL..

Now I can put my hobby to good use :D becuase I'm good at pickiung up good, cute, sweet and special stuffs... I think I can share it with others who are also interested in it :D Those who also appreciate it and young at heart :D SO many of us out there..

I do believe there are many others out there who are kindered spirited and love the things that I love...

So if you are interested to look at what I've got to offer.. add me on facebook sunimag@gmail.com or username, SuniMag

My Sunimag.blogspot.com is still under construction so.. gimme sometime to improve it ya? :D

Ta for now...

Dearly missed..

who do i mean? :D

While he was away, we feel something is missing..

While he was not with us, we missed him dearly..

Sometimes being together is all it takes to feel secure and safe.. feel loved and cared for..

It's doesn't mean that we need to do something special..

Just being there is already enough for us..


When he was away, he felt it too.. as if something is missing..

While he was not with us, it was hard for him to be apart from us..

Even if he was with one of us it would be comforting, but none of us? Hard to bare..

That is why family are so important..

Feeling like Rebecca.. not totally.. but similar.. not complaining either :D

Sometimes I feel encouraged, sometimes i feel the opposite..

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Most of all i'm tired out and yet could not stop thinking about what should I do next for God and His people.. I do try all I can to be all that I could for others... but i'm no superwomen.. I am limited in power and strength.. when would people understand that?? When would they realize that i'm only human..

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I loose sleep for thinking too much for the young ppl.. Things that I need to pray about and God led me to sleepless nights to pray for the young ppl everytime one of them are in trouble.... then last night, Nigel got a fever that scared me until I couldn't really rest either.. first time ever he feel cold?? but he is so warm!!! i almost resorted in calling Alexander's God father to come send Nigel to the hospital.. coz even if I could drive, its a bad idea to drive in such a pregnant condition with a very sick hubby and a sleepy toddler.. So I just pray a little prayer and made Nigel feel as comfortable as I could.. then i slept outside last night so he would have more space.. Went into the room a couple of times during the night to see how he was doing.. he fell asleep finally and during the wee hours, he took off the warm jackets and turned on the fan.. ah.. Thank God he is getting better..

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Then the next day, we went to check on my little baby in my tummy :) with Nigel still being unwell.. still inssisted on going on that day for the check up.. Couldn't take her face this time asthe position is a bit off.. perhaps the next time lar.. :) After that, we went to see the doctor.. and Nigel got a jap for his fever..

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Not complaining about having to take care of Nigel and my family during pregnancy.. They are my family, my responsibility, one of my top priority... or even praying and planning for CPY.. It's the physical need the church and the ministry have on me tt is taking it's toll.. 'my spirit is willing but my body is weak.." and i'm not talking about temptation.. i'm talking about helping ppl even... ah... I'm sorry to those that I have to say "NO" to.. Especially those that needed my help.. I can give advise, I can lend a listening ear, I can pray for you and chat with you on msn, care for you and guide, teach and mentor you... BUT, i cannot be the 'transport minister' for you for very long (even though Nigel is THE person holding the key).. I cannot be there PHYSICALLY (with my whole body there with you) all the time.. I could not split myself into two or more to do all that I could do... I wished I could but I'm Not God.. yet sometimes, I just feel everyone is relying on me solely.. After this person cannot deliver.. all eyes will turn to me.. Then ok, i'll have most of the solutions.. I know that is part of being a leader, I do.. Coz when I do something and when I say i try my best, there is nothing less in my effort in doing it.. NOTHING LESS; ALWAYS THE BEST...

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The best that I humanly could do though... the rest I have to leave it to God..

I will still do my best for God's people.. but I only need your understanding.. That even if I said "I cannot.." "No" "I am not able to be there.." "You will have to find your own way.." etc.. doesn't mean i dun care, love you less or even abandoning you.. I am always there for you but in a different way now that I'm in a different stage of my life.. I've always been there for you and all of you know that.. I have served the the youth ministry for the longest time anyone, besides pastor, Jeacie and the elders, in any other ministry in the church and my life have changed from university students, to a working young adult, to a married women and now a mother of, soon to be, two.. I only ask for understanding and love which.. some of my comrades in church understands and really took care of me and my family.. Thanks guys.. you know who you are.. and some of the young ppl who are very understanding and mature enough to know the difference... Thank you too, for being a blessing in my life..

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This year, CPY members are being more independant, more responsible and more willing to do God's work, His will and most of all.. serve the Youth ministry and God's church.. Thank you for those who are serving right now.. truly an encouragement I long to see all these years.. Please continue to serve in His glory.. You will not be dissapointed at the fruit and the harvest you have sowed into His Kingdom..

2006 Family camp..

WAH!!!! so long ago.. some of us have not change much physically but the young ppl have surely all grown up!! Look at me? So young LOL.. now i'm married and preg with my second child.. This was like what? 4 years ago only?? 4.. like

1.2.3.4 Tadah!!! so much can happen in 4 years hor.. ahehehe..

Don't I look fabulous then :D thin thin.. slim slim.. ahahaha..

Some of you have changed a lot.. but most of u have changed.. except me and Julian lar.. we are still the smae i suppose.. :P Fatter though ahahaha

Do you still remember this?? Guess who's 'wrok of Art" is this?? LOL Funny lar..

Black Bread.. BURNED Bread.. ahahaha

Dun ask me wht this game was.. crazy banana games? LOL Wht's the top one?? one pile of banana? LOL

Group photos!!! :D

All the pretty ladies in the house!!!! :)

Are we really sorry?

"Everyone makes mistakes. That's not the issue. But there is an epidemic in the world today of people who can't admit they did something wrong. God says, 'If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrightousness" (1 John 1:9). But first we have to be sorry about what we've done. - by Stomie Omartian"

I think this statement is very true in the sense that there is an epidemic in the world today of which ppl cannot admit they did something wrong.. coz we dun even think tt it's wrong and dun feel sorry about wht we've done..

The world as we speak is corrupted, filthy but not without hope.. Many say that we are hopeless.. but we are not.. we can be hopeful.. but first we must see ourselves for who we really are.. then and only then, we see the need of a greater God. We may be capable, full of talents and abilities.. but without God in our hearts.. we will still be emthy.. always having this void to fill.. never ending quest and thurst for fulfillment and wholeness..

If we have not found God, the one true God through Christ Jesus, we are truly lost in this world.. (even if we have God, we sometimes will feel lost too because our faith is waivered and we are not sure..) that is why faith is important in our relationship with God.. How do we know that what God says in the bible is true? Besides experiencing it ourselves.. it is by FAITH that we belive and believing is seeing in Faith..

Optimism vs Getting Work Done - by Rebecca's fren

Was reading Rebecca fren's blog and here is his title.. Jon right? :)

I do agree wht he is trying to say because just by thinking is like NATO (No Action Talk Only).. We need to use that positive attitude we have to our advantage and use it!!! Put in into motion, into action!!! Don;t just stand there and think about doing good or working it out but we need to actually WORK IT!..

But we do need to start with our mind.. and more than that.. our spirit.. We must be changed from the inside out.. before we could act it out..

So be positive!! and act positive!! Do what ever we need to do with passion and energy!!! Looking forward to every hour and opportunity that comes our way! Get into the love of doing what is right and what is honorable.. (we may fall once or twice.. may be more.. but we will make something good happen..)

Just never give up doing what is right! Continue to have a positive outlook in all that we do!

For we have hope!! We have a future!!! :D

Naugthy Alexander!!!

Enquiry (munching on something) . Found evidence (act blurr) .

Smack butt (cry) . Find out the missing pieces (cry) .

Proof missing parts (cry) . Scold (cry some more) .

Throw away broken toy(Still crying + screaming like it hurts-padahal only a light smack on the tigh..) .

Wait a while(cry~ cry~ cry + scream)..

wait for it.. wait for it.. then hug Alexander and explain what he did wrong and why he should not do it again (Stop crying in my arms)..

Later, we sat down on the couch and Alexander fell asleep beside me... :)

All in a days work..