Happy Mother's Day 2010!

One year ago today was one of the most difficult day of my life. Having to serve on Sunday as the Worship leader was really.. hard.. I thought I could overcome the grief but I couldn't..

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On that Sunday, I broke down and cried before my worship team, asking God why must I do this today, I could just ask for someone else to replace me but I still feel compeled to come and lead today.. on my first mothers's day without a mother.. God was quiet and I knew He knows what I am asking of Him, He did not take this cup away from me.. because it is His will be done... not mine..

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Today, I'm celebrating it yet another year of mothers' day. This time, with a new life in my hands.. a little princess has been given to me.. I am truly blessed.. I may not be able to celebrate it with my friends in church or even with my mom who is in heaven, but in my spirit I am celebrating God's grace and love upon my life right now. I pray that my mother would be proud of me, not only having another grandchild for her, but also being the person she hoped I would be..

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I praise God for all the things, situations and people in my life.. All of it brings tears of sorrow and joy but always it is for the good of His people.. and as i see it.. It is good..

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I want to tell you something I always did for my mom when I stayed with her. Every morning she would go to work early and if on those days I dun have classes, I would actually wake up late.. ACCEPT..

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On those days, the min I heard the door opening and my mom was about to go off.. I would wake up and say a loud "GOOD BYE" to her.. and she would reply my good byes and... I continued my sleep :D I know it's nothing important.. but it was.. it was meaningful. WE NEVER PARTED WITHOUT SAYING GOOD BYE, we never parted in anger or arguements.. we parted with love, hugs and kisses..

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I have no regrets, I have only loving memories of my mother and greatfulness for all her doings.. I am proud of her, for her strength, her courage, her sacrifices, her determination, her kindness and her patience and love.

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I love you mom... Happy mothers's day to every mothers!

Welcome Princess Hui Ern.. on 4th May 2010 at 11:50 pm

We thank God for our little princess.. Toh Hui Ern.. (Shall up date all with her English name once confirm :)

Arrived at Pantai Bangsat at 1150pm on 4th May 2010 with a weight of 3.18kg.

Food at Dave's 1 U.. :D

Nigel loves to eat pork :D and we went to Dave's to have some porck for dinner a while back ahahaha.. the sausages are my order but I couldn't evern finish 1.. it's not as nice, it's a ctuallly a bit salty.. Even Nigel think so..

I only had half or less than tt.. :P

BELOW:: This is Nigel's dish. Dunno wht pork dish d :P

Anyone love pork?? I know some of you do!!! LOL.. (sorry if I have offendent some of my Muslim frens..)

It's your life~~~ young men!!! (More and more of you really needs a wake up call!)

I know many will find this to be true.. "That it's my life and don't bother me with your standards and your silly request.. Let me be and let me live my life as I please!" Very irresponsible response don't you think? As if your life does not affect anyone else's life.. As though you live on an Island, as though no one cares, as if you can control how it will turn out in the end... (When I mean in the end... I mean THE END.)

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You are hurting people around you by your actions and you are telling yourself that it is not your problem.. they are the problem.. coz they bother? coz they care? coz they begged you to stop doing wht is wrong? coz they dun want to see you like this? and you blame them for everything you are going through now??

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Ello? So many people go through what you went through.. but you know wht? they didn't use it as a excuse to hurt others or themselves.. not matter how bad those bad people had hurt them. They are not weak or ashamed or suferring with self pity, but they have the courage to stand up and do what is right! Don't blame it on sickness! Don't blame it on the family up bringing! Don't blame it on God! Don't blame it on other people that you think they should have cared or understand! Stop blaming and start doing something positive, something right!!! Look to God!

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You say they nag too much.. please lar? look at yourself? aren't you also doing the same thing? keep saying the same thing over and over again.. har? i've seen this before.. and guess what.. It was me.. yes.. me... SUSANA.. keep going in a circle and dunno how to get out of the pitt! BUT I have and many have also came out from the pitt of destruction into the light.. it will not be easy and it will take our whole being and much of God's help to do so... I believe EVERYONE is able to do so, it is a lie if you think you can't.

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And I will tell you the only person that could help you is God, Jesus, Holy Spirit.. but if you choose to stay away from our heavenly father.. then you are on your way for destruction! Take heat!! I still think you are a man that want to please God, a man that wants to do the right thing, a man who will rise up and glorify our Lord.. but if you have to "take all your heritance, go out party, used up all of it and have to share food with with the swines." then only come back to the Lord.. so be it..

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I'm not encouraging you to be 'the P labeled son', (which parents in the right mind wants to see their children go through tt!!!!??? siao ah?) but then, if it is your choice.. then I pray that God will still be in control and one day, when you are ready to come home.. you are always welcome with arms open wide..

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BUT remember this--- there are consequences for all the action we have done in this world.. the people that we hurt (just like how others have hurt you.), the people that we mistreated, the opporunities that was given to to us.. could be gone.. wiped out.. no second chance.. so take heat!

Sleeping Alexander...

I wonder at wht age he would ask me to put down and delete these image from my blog.. LOL..

Isn't he the cutest!!! :D

Cleaning up for Little Princess

Everytime I'm about to give birth.. (Even though this is only the second time haha).. Nigel will have this instinct to clean or renovate a little.. so... can you gues what he has done this time besides doing a big renovation (unlike the last time when Alexander was about to be born... Reno our whole living room and repaint almost the whole house.. aheheh)..

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Well, he continue painting the kitchen and the small room, start 'spring' cleaning it and reorganizing everything for our Little Princess.. (which is btw have no English name yet for now)..

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Its pretty much clean coz I have to clean up my mess in the small room also.. :P It;s mostly my stuffs anyway.. ahahah... But we are planning to make the small room Princess's room so most of her stuffs will be there while the bigger room is for Alexander.

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I know all of you must be thinking that we are being unfair.. :D hear us out.. this is only temporary.. It will depends on our third child :) f our third Child is a boy then he will sleep with Alexander in the bigger room; but if it is a girl.. then the two girls will stay in the bigger room and Alexander will move to his own room.. :) i'm sure this would be the right arrangements..

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What if we have a 4th child? LOL.. we'll think about it when the time comes.. ahahaha.. Plan until 3rd child d.. not enough planning meh? ahahahaha...

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Now the only room in a mess is... STILL the store room :P now, the plan is to tidy up the store room-get a cupboard, loads of boxes (paper and plastics containers) and rearranging everything in order between the store room, Princess's room and Alexander's room.. :D

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May the Lord bless our plans according to His wil.. because that is all we live for.. pleasing Him..

So wht's the point? -- Becoming NT (NCV Version)

Matthew 25:31-46

" A FAith that does nothing is really no faith. This is Jesus' warning against a self-serving lifestyle that neglects the needy. Such a lifestyle is rampant today, where billions of dollars are spent on beauty products and handbags, while the poor in this world remain poor. We won't stamp out world poverty. Jesus said we'll always have the poor among us (Matthew 26:11) but we're responsible to personally care for those around us. It's a biblical mandate.

A Mandate accompanied by indescribable joy and reward. And a mandate propelled by Christ's compassion and love within us. We'll miss the greatest joys of deep gratification if we forfeit opportunities to bless others, especially the needy.

Who are the needy in your community? Is there a city mission, nursing home, or prison where you are able to donate time, money, and practical help? Look into their faces and consider the disadvantaged in your church and neighborhood. Consider participating with organizations and missionaries that provide for the poor of the nations. It can seem overwhelming, but so can picking out lipstick at the mall!!

Ask God where to start and He will show you.."