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Alexander sang a mandarin song to me after his bath yesterday, even though i can't understand most of what he was saying, it made me cry...... because he has come so far, improved so much and made me so proud of his little achievements..

Stop comparing already...

We would really be happier when we JUST stop comparing our lives with someone else's lives..

Stop comparing how good their house, spouse, cars and lifestyle they have and start appreciating your little apartment, your love ones, your Proton and your chosen life.. 

Someone who is filled with gratitude and thanks giving will always be more joyful and contented. 

I am not asking you to ditch your dreams and ambitions.. I am merely asking you to Thank the Lord for where ever you are now. No matter how tough, no matter how challenging, no matter how painful it is for you to go through this.. there's always a reason for it and there will be someone out there who needs you to make it work!! Because they need you to help them through it after you have gone through it yourselves.. 

Jesus called us to help him be a testimony to others, the Ambassador of Christ! doesn't mean that you become God.. but merely His servant who would love, live and reach out to people in need ON behalf of Jesus until the person can reach out to Jesus themselves.. 

In the mean time, STOP comparing your life with other ppl on FB or Insta or anywhere else for that matter, please.. I beg you to stop doing that! They face troubles and challenges too.. we just don't know it.. and don't idolize it just because they post it up with all the Happy, Romantic and Ideal things that you think make up a happy life or even a happy relationships..

You still wanna compare?? Compare with the happenings in Philippines lar!! Where actual people suffering from the lost of their homes, loved ones, car, schools, friends, almost everything!! Even the sense of security and peace was ripped out from them.. only chaos and uncertainty awaits them. Why don't you compare yourselves with them? haih.. Stop it already..

Let's pray for Philippines this whole week and stop comparing! Everyone has a story, everyone has a pass, everyone has to move forward, and hope the goodness we share will last..

God could have left Job Alone..

My youth posted this youtube vid on our CPY FB page and it really brought me to tears.. 

Titles: God could have left Job alone.. 

When I read the title, I was thinking "Didn't God left Job alone and that is why Job lost everything? I mean God didn't talk to him, didn't say anything to him, just allowed the devil to take away all that Job loved and leave Job to do what is right?" Then, I realized, what the sentence really meant... 

It means that, God can just don't do anything to Job's life and let Job have his way and his own life etc but what good would that make? you know what I mean? Would it be good if God would have JUST left us alone? with all we have and all we think that is secure and happy and blessed and etc... without the troubles, pain or even we call it interruptions in life? I am not talking about being emotional over everything that is happening in our lives. I am talking about real sufferings that makes us just fall down on our knees and cry.. just cry coz we don't know what to do next.. Sometimes that feeling of hopelessness, that intense feeling of being lost and oblivion and just froze! you know? you know ah?? you know what  I mean? 

I admire Pastor Bob's humility and courage, for 5 years, he continue to acknowledge his love for Jesus, for God. Even during his time of sufferings and pain.. It is courage, strength and most of all his choice to be living and not just knowing for God that made a difference.. (That's why he said he has lost all theology. because there's nothing in theology that could tell him what to do when these things happen?) There was testimonies and promises of the Lord.. but what made him go through this tough times? Was it all that Bob knows about the bible? the promises of God? We can't even claim the promises of God coz it's just too hard and we just couldn't understand it.. we could only choose to love God, as He had loved us, no matter what.. Trust in Him, no matter what.. Rely fully on Him, no matter what... and wait for His timing.. 

5 years, is a long time to wait for something to happen.. I wonder would we have the patience to go through something like that so God's will can be done in our lives.. Lord, we need your grace.. always. So we will see you face to face, one day.. 

Giggles with the one eye monster..

These photos was not my best angle for taking a photo of me but it was a special moment I share with Melissa many many times.. At home, at the mall, at church, before bed, on the couch, anywhere! 

We sometimes have that look-you-eye-ball-to-eye-ball moments and laugh about it.. 

Why? Coz it's funny! Have you tired it with your kids? When we do that, we see only one eye! Hahaha became a monster for a while and it's really funny.. Melissa has the sweetest giggles and I love to hear her laugh when ever we get to do this.. 

Try it with your kids and enjoy the giggles.. (Work on toodlers 4 and below, I think :p coz it doesn't seem to work for my son) XD 

Coffee Societe @Publika

I always enjoy dining here.. With their lovely coffee n sometimes delightful lunch meals, it's really enjoyable. 

It's cozy and the decoration is very relaxed.. Great to come alone or with a friend or two.. Great for a whole group too if you can get the big table thy have hahha with high stools to really make the place look young n modern.. 

Love their cuppucino without sugar.. 

So lovely..

I love flowers.. I wish I can hv a lovely bouquet every week! Hahaha can.. When I own my own florist meh can lor.. Kekeke.. 

Such a blessing..

I haven't been posting much lately have I.. Hahaha I cannot be so lazy!!! *slap hand. :p i keep having ideas about writing something but I have couldn't like just take my phone out and write it coz i got 2 toodlers who needs my attention, even when I was cooking dinner or even when I was in the car doing nothing I have to entertain and talk to them coz they just need me to.. I need more time!!! Oh dear... 

Yesterday, Sunday, we had a fantastic service.. I was touched by pastor Ari's message and God's message that I am now praying for specific purpose.. For myself this round coz I have been praying for others for so long I forget if I don't take care of myself, I am no good to anyone (not that I stop praying for others entirely, I think tts not cool. But I do need to focus on my relationship with Christ right now.) I need to get back on track to the basic and the fundamentals.. I really really need to and must..