Time flies.. hmm.. or does it?

Is time pasting fast or slow? Is 2 years a long time? or short?

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Ahahaha we are married for two years now :D normally no real celebration, the day will still goes the sames as before.. wake up, go work and come home..

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Last year, we celebrated it with Alexander Full moon in church... LOL.. this year.. we need to go for my bb medical check up... LOL.. sure got something to do on tt day... :D and it would involve our children.. but not our anniversary celebration...

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Two years is not as long as you may think but we have been together for about 8 years... So, if we count the time we spend together.. It's pretty good..

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From the years I've known Nigel.. we learnt and grown together.. we are not without differences.. in fact! we are almost total opposites... he likes meat, i love veggies; he loves the cold, i like it warm and hot; he likes Chinese food (not soup); i like western food (but love Chinese soup); he loves to stay at home, i'm the social type; he loves the TV and his computer, I love the great outdoors and picnics; he likes the nigth, I adores the mornings; He enjoys dinner most, i love having breakfast.. ahahahah and the list goes on and on and on... this is just our likes and dislikes... I haven't got to our differences in character yet!!! :D

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Not to say we had it smooth and romantic.. (trust me.. Nigel is not the type that sends flowers and cards... he only send flowers to me.. 3 times in our 8 years of relationship.. once is the first date, second to say sorry.. and 3rd!!! on my bridal shower.. coz Tien CHing and Michelle ask him to.. LOL) We had it rough actually, some of our AIA frens didn't even thought we would made it this far.. not tt to prove them wrong.. really it's not.. I do believe them when they had that thought coz it was truly impossible for these two opposites to live and stay together..

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All I can say is that it is possible if we allow God to be in the center of our relationship.. Nigel may not have memorized the word in the bible like many great Christlike man. But Nigel has come a long way in making himself better and trying to be a better person for us and God.

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As a wife, I cannot always complain.. I will of course, in so many ways and in so many things.. but I do try to be the good wife, partner and friend God wants me to be.. every time i have a complain.. I will tell Nigel about it.. then remember the vow that I made on our wedding day.. I still remember one sentence that is vital in our marriage.. and that is to respect him..

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I know as a women, it is sometimes very hard to respect the men.. coz we are so capable.. ahahahaha (perasan) :P but he is the head of the house and he must be respected.. but men too need to take up his responsibility lar.. if he is not.. we the wife need to encourage a bit lar.. nag a bit bit enough d.. not too much.. (I always tell myself tt.. so i always count how many times i actually talk about certain issues :D) but if it is out of hand and husband not doing anything to improve.. then perhaps need to seek outside help lar.. but try our very best first lor..

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Remember that we married a fallen man... not an angel!!! they are not perfect in so many ways.. and so are we... but I believe in doing the best that we could possibly can for our hubby with God's help is the key...

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I am still learning to be a better wife and companion for Nigel..

I pray Nigel is doing the same for me too :D

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Happy anniversary darling... I love you~~~ :*

Thought of the day..

Do you feel you are carrying the Cross everyday? and think that you shouldn't? Think again...

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We are called to carry our Cross, as Jesus carried the Cross.. He may have died for us on the Cross but we are to carry our own cross to the finish line.. Can't be too lazy and ask God carry it for us you know..

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So, life is not as easy as we think.. it never is.. it never will be..

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But we have the Hope and Joy and the Peace of the Lord to pull us through anything! Jesus has the power to pull us out of the pits of hell! In our most vulnerable moments, we have our loving Father to help us through.

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He is loving, yet He will not spare us from pain nor sufferings. Why? So we will not be so naive.. too careless and foolish.. He will do everything to put us back on path.. on the right path.. and it may not come easy.. We just need to realize it that it is God's working in our circumstances..

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Until the whole mess is sorted out, what we need to do it live wisely and not like the unwise! Be mindful of our actions and live in obedience. Don't waste our sacrifices when it does not please God. Live according to His will that please Him coz only Him that is worthy of all worship and praise..

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My heart is troubled with much sorrow and disappointments, but it is my cross to carry I know.. I will not give up hope, will not back down, will not stay down so "iblis" can take advantage of it. (You dream lar! iblis! You may be powerful but I have Jesus!) Never under estimate the enemy, he is powerful coz he was the angel of God! he is so influential that 1/3 of the angels followed his ways. he was the anointed one, he was the great worshiper yet he turned his back on God by worshiping himself.

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Do not always blame the devil for our mistakes either.. sometimes he doesn't need to do anything but to leave us to destroy ourselves.. We are fallen, we are not "malaikat" or angels who are perfect beings. But we have salvation, we have second chances.. Don't blow it!

"All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth".. lol.. Do you remember this song?

Elaine sang this when I lost my 1 front tooth last year... ahahaha.. and no~~~ i dun wish for the teeth.. i can get it from the dentist.. :D

I wanna use this post to tag those ppl i know who has a Blog and post what they want for Christmas this year.. There are rules to this..

Rule 1: Must be affordable to many (so please don't state your dream gift like Diamond Ring, brand new car, a pet doggy etc..) Something your friends can afford.

Rule 2: Useful things please. (Don't give me toys.. haiyo.. how old are u? unless!!! You are a girl!! If u are a guy.. I'll Knock your socks off!!!)

Rule 3: Something Ppl can buy off the shelf. (Please lar don't tell me special edition card or book that is no where to be found.. that one wait for your special someone to buy for u..)

Rule 4) At least 10 in the list of gifts.

OK.. that's all lar I think.. Let me start with my Christmas list :D

1) AA and D Batteries (For my son's toys...)

2) Wet tissue paper (packet ones, we always run out of it when we needed it the most and yes, it's for Alexander's bum.)

3) Good books to read. (starting to read again recently so a good book is always welcome.)

4) Disposable diapers.. (LOL.. obviously for my son also.. aheheheehee..)

5) Socks (Can you believe it.. I dun have any :D and I think I need it when I deliver next year.. LOL)

6) Doggie Treats. ( I know its like for my doggies but it's really for our pleasure :D making them happy makes us happy and Alexander loves to see them get excited!)

7) A or A few committed prayer partner(s). (Any takers? there is no monetary value here but your time and love is more valuable.. oh...and it's not just for Christmas!! Its for at least for a year.. ahehehehe... expensive this one.. and it's not one way.. it's two..)

8) Children books for my Children. (All I think about is my children lar.. ahahahaha.. Don't ask me anything for Nigel... I even got problem thinking of what to get him for Christmas.. why? Coz i get him stuff many times.. the other stuffs he wanted.. i can't afford.. too bad :P )

9) Nice Containers or Paper Boxes. (Ahahahaha i love them.. but Nigel always hate sit when i bring or bought some home ahehehehe... i like tidying stuffs and put them into nice containers or boxes.. it looks organized..)

10) Buy something for the Orphans. (ok lar.. this may not be useful for me but good for the someone else who really needs a cheer during Christmas.. Some shopping complex actually helps orphanage this Christmas by putting up their wish list on a Christmas tree.. Get a present for me from you.. that would be my wish too.. choose the ones you can afford and bless others who are in more need than I am.. without expecting anything in return..)

So there!! Easy for those who wanna bless me with wet tissue paper this year.. affordable and useful... LOL

Now.. I would like to tag (and dun repeat tag ok? You tag your other friends that I dunno.):
Rebecca,
Stephanie,
Jenny,
Eric,
Kenneth,
Carol,
Jin Ing,
Jerrica,
Jeremy,
Wai wai,
Su Jane,
Dexter,
Han Then,
Nic Wong,
Marcus Heng,
Crystal Lim.

Your Turn!! Your Turn!!!

Christmas songs...

So what is your favorite Christmas song?

Hmm... I dunno myself.. I think it depends on who sang the song? Oldies are lovely Christmas songs.. "White Christmas" is soft and sweet, seating near the fire place, having some tea and chatting with family... it's a nice feeling..

One of my fav would be the Christmas carols like "Joy to the World." " Silent night""Away in a manger" etc... especially when a choir sang it.. it would be so powerful! Full of excitement and high spirited!! filled with God's majestic presences!!

I love this old group all.. Alba.. (I think...) their Christmas songs are so retro!!! "In the river of Babylon." and their other songs are very up beat and joyful.. they look like gangsters but the songs reflect a sense of Joy being a Christian on Christmas.. the Hope and Joy of having Christ..

One small button...

Have you ever feel that someone had just press the prohibited button?

And your head started to explode with anger and frustrations?

How did that happened? How come we got a button that cannot be pressed... or else!!!

Could it be because there is so much dissatisfaction? much disappointments and frustrations we keep keeping bit by bit, like the fire powder in a barrel of explosive, in our heart and soul that one day.. a person accidentally press the ignition button.. and we exploded with a great Bomb!!!!

All die!!! including ourselves..

Advice? We should always talk about the little things tt bother us.. and hope the other person will understand.. with this, we dun keep the fire powder.. second.. if we have to keep it because we don't wanna sound naggy, then when it does explode, please remember to keep the explosion within a limit.. Dun lar keep Ka-Bomb, Ka-bomb and then Bomb bomb blast Ka-bomb some more and it has become an explosion that wiped out half of the world!!!

Cool down after a few Ka-bomb lar.. in a family, a normal family, where got dun have arguments and explosive moments one.. sure have one.. if dun have also a big problem.. means all parties are so numb, they dun even bother or care anymore.. worst and serious case d... they believe there is not help, no cure, no hope.. so just let is die silently... this is the worst thing that could happen to our fire powder.. it has become poison in our heart, mind and soul... will take more to heal the pain and fear..

Anyway.. we hope to have less arguements and more communication lar hor.. :D

New Revelation..

It's not really new I suppose.. but understanding this beyond understanding is something special..

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Worship leading for more than 2-3 years now.. I really loose count of time.. I know nothing about keys, I know nothing about tempo (in fact I almost always go out of tempo, especially in the beginning of my serving..) I know nothing about linking one song to the next with creativity.. NOTHING!!! ZERO!!! thus.. I feel I am so incapable.. which in fact I am also lar..

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All I know is sing.. but slowly and surely.. with help of experience and talented musicians.. I have improved.. I have practice my worship (for worship leading) but most of all.. I really pray for it.. To lead worship is not a simple as it seems.. God Must Be the center of the worship and our lives must reflect that as we lead His ppl..

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The revelation that came to me like a slap on the face was that some worship service that we have in this time is not to glrify, worship or praise God.. it's to make us feel good about God.. It does not serve as a worship and praise to God anymore.. it's like a session for us to feel good about being a Christan.. and that's wrong! We should be bringing glory and really lift God's name on high!!! not just with the songs but with our attitudes and with our lives! Everyday is a worship and an offering to God..

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In every worship we should always ask.. "Lord, are you pleased with our offerings? Are you satisfied with the sacrifice we brought?" and not.. "How do I feel after the worship? Is it a good worship for me?" haiya.. Worship is for God, not for us..

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I do appreciate ppl coming up to me and tell me tt it was a good worship... really.. but I dun know how to react to that.. honestly.. coz i'm not doing it for you.. (not that I dun care for you..) I mean.. If God spoken to you during the worship, then it is His grace.. If you are touched by His presence, it is His mercy.. If you felt God is there with you in your circumstances, that's His love.. It is when we worship Him whole heartedly, He, our Lord is pleased, then perhaps.. (perhaps) He will bless you with all these gifts.. My concerned is-has our worship been worthy of You, Lord.. If the Lord is pleased not just for my and my worship team's worship, but for His People's worship... then I have done my part as a worship leader..

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Leading His ppl to put aside all things and just come as ONE upon His thrown, to worship and praise Him... that is a real challenge..

Sleepy and tired..

sorry for not updating currently.. sleepy and really tired lar..

Will try to up date something soon..

hopefully.. Night~~