Friday, November 27, 2009

Thought of the day..

Do you feel you are carrying the Cross everyday? and think that you shouldn't? Think again...
.
We are called to carry our Cross, as Jesus carried the Cross.. He may have died for us on the Cross but we are to carry our own cross to the finish line.. Can't be too lazy and ask God carry it for us you know..
.
So, life is not as easy as we think.. it never is.. it never will be..
.
But we have the Hope and Joy and the Peace of the Lord to pull us through anything! Jesus has the power to pull us out of the pits of hell! In our most vulnerable moments, we have our loving Father to help us through.
.
He is loving, yet He will not spare us from pain nor sufferings. Why? So we will not be so naive.. too careless and foolish.. He will do everything to put us back on path.. on the right path.. and it may not come easy.. We just need to realize it that it is God's working in our circumstances..
.
Until the whole mess is sorted out, what we need to do it live wisely and not like the unwise! Be mindful of our actions and live in obedience. Don't waste our sacrifices when it does not please God. Live according to His will that please Him coz only Him that is worthy of all worship and praise..
.
My heart is troubled with much sorrow and disappointments, but it is my cross to carry I know.. I will not give up hope, will not back down, will not stay down so "iblis" can take advantage of it. (You dream lar! iblis! You may be powerful but I have Jesus!) Never under estimate the enemy, he is powerful coz he was the angel of God! he is so influential that 1/3 of the angels followed his ways. he was the anointed one, he was the great worshiper yet he turned his back on God by worshiping himself.
.
Do not always blame the devil for our mistakes either.. sometimes he doesn't need to do anything but to leave us to destroy ourselves.. We are fallen, we are not "malaikat" or angels who are perfect beings. But we have salvation, we have second chances.. Don't blow it!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

"All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth".. lol.. Do you remember this song?

Elaine sang this when I lost my 1 front tooth last year... ahahaha.. and no~~~ i dun wish for the teeth.. i can get it from the dentist.. :D

I wanna use this post to tag those ppl i know who has a Blog and post what they want for Christmas this year.. There are rules to this..

Rule 1: Must be affordable to many (so please don't state your dream gift like Diamond Ring, brand new car, a pet doggy etc..) Something your friends can afford.

Rule 2: Useful things please. (Don't give me toys.. haiyo.. how old are u? unless!!! You are a girl!! If u are a guy.. I'll Knock your socks off!!!)

Rule 3: Something Ppl can buy off the shelf. (Please lar don't tell me special edition card or book that is no where to be found.. that one wait for your special someone to buy for u..)

Rule 4) At least 10 in the list of gifts.

OK.. that's all lar I think.. Let me start with my Christmas list :D

1) AA and D Batteries (For my son's toys...)

2) Wet tissue paper (packet ones, we always run out of it when we needed it the most and yes, it's for Alexander's bum.)

3) Good books to read. (starting to read again recently so a good book is always welcome.)

4) Disposable diapers.. (LOL.. obviously for my son also.. aheheheehee..)

5) Socks (Can you believe it.. I dun have any :D and I think I need it when I deliver next year.. LOL)

6) Doggie Treats. ( I know its like for my doggies but it's really for our pleasure :D making them happy makes us happy and Alexander loves to see them get excited!)

7) A or A few committed prayer partner(s). (Any takers? there is no monetary value here but your time and love is more valuable.. oh...and it's not just for Christmas!! Its for at least for a year.. ahehehehe... expensive this one.. and it's not one way.. it's two..)

8) Children books for my Children. (All I think about is my children lar.. ahahahaha.. Don't ask me anything for Nigel... I even got problem thinking of what to get him for Christmas.. why? Coz i get him stuff many times.. the other stuffs he wanted.. i can't afford.. too bad :P )

9) Nice Containers or Paper Boxes. (Ahahahaha i love them.. but Nigel always hate sit when i bring or bought some home ahehehehe... i like tidying stuffs and put them into nice containers or boxes.. it looks organized..)

10) Buy something for the Orphans. (ok lar.. this may not be useful for me but good for the someone else who really needs a cheer during Christmas.. Some shopping complex actually helps orphanage this Christmas by putting up their wish list on a Christmas tree.. Get a present for me from you.. that would be my wish too.. choose the ones you can afford and bless others who are in more need than I am.. without expecting anything in return..)

So there!! Easy for those who wanna bless me with wet tissue paper this year.. affordable and useful... LOL

Now.. I would like to tag (and dun repeat tag ok? You tag your other friends that I dunno.):
Rebecca,
Stephanie,
Jenny,
Eric,
Kenneth,
Carol,
Jin Ing,
Jerrica,
Jeremy,
Wai wai,
Su Jane,
Dexter,
Han Then,
Nic Wong,
Marcus Heng,
Crystal Lim.

Your Turn!! Your Turn!!!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Christmas songs...

So what is your favorite Christmas song?

Hmm... I dunno myself.. I think it depends on who sang the song? Oldies are lovely Christmas songs.. "White Christmas" is soft and sweet, seating near the fire place, having some tea and chatting with family... it's a nice feeling..

One of my fav would be the Christmas carols like "Joy to the World." " Silent night""Away in a manger" etc... especially when a choir sang it.. it would be so powerful! Full of excitement and high spirited!! filled with God's majestic presences!!

I love this old group all.. Alba.. (I think...) their Christmas songs are so retro!!! "In the river of Babylon." and their other songs are very up beat and joyful.. they look like gangsters but the songs reflect a sense of Joy being a Christian on Christmas.. the Hope and Joy of having Christ..

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

One small button...

Have you ever feel that someone had just press the prohibited button?

And your head started to explode with anger and frustrations?

How did that happened? How come we got a button that cannot be pressed... or else!!!

Could it be because there is so much dissatisfaction? much disappointments and frustrations we keep keeping bit by bit, like the fire powder in a barrel of explosive, in our heart and soul that one day.. a person accidentally press the ignition button.. and we exploded with a great Bomb!!!!

All die!!! including ourselves..

Advice? We should always talk about the little things tt bother us.. and hope the other person will understand.. with this, we dun keep the fire powder.. second.. if we have to keep it because we don't wanna sound naggy, then when it does explode, please remember to keep the explosion within a limit.. Dun lar keep Ka-Bomb, Ka-bomb and then Bomb bomb blast Ka-bomb some more and it has become an explosion that wiped out half of the world!!!

Cool down after a few Ka-bomb lar.. in a family, a normal family, where got dun have arguments and explosive moments one.. sure have one.. if dun have also a big problem.. means all parties are so numb, they dun even bother or care anymore.. worst and serious case d... they believe there is not help, no cure, no hope.. so just let is die silently... this is the worst thing that could happen to our fire powder.. it has become poison in our heart, mind and soul... will take more to heal the pain and fear..

Anyway.. we hope to have less arguements and more communication lar hor.. :D

Sunday, November 15, 2009

New Revelation..

It's not really new I suppose.. but understanding this beyond understanding is something special..
.
Worship leading for more than 2-3 years now.. I really loose count of time.. I know nothing about keys, I know nothing about tempo (in fact I almost always go out of tempo, especially in the beginning of my serving..) I know nothing about linking one song to the next with creativity.. NOTHING!!! ZERO!!! thus.. I feel I am so incapable.. which in fact I am also lar..
.
All I know is sing.. but slowly and surely.. with help of experience and talented musicians.. I have improved.. I have practice my worship (for worship leading) but most of all.. I really pray for it.. To lead worship is not a simple as it seems.. God Must Be the center of the worship and our lives must reflect that as we lead His ppl..
.
The revelation that came to me like a slap on the face was that some worship service that we have in this time is not to glrify, worship or praise God.. it's to make us feel good about God.. It does not serve as a worship and praise to God anymore.. it's like a session for us to feel good about being a Christan.. and that's wrong! We should be bringing glory and really lift God's name on high!!! not just with the songs but with our attitudes and with our lives! Everyday is a worship and an offering to God..
.
In every worship we should always ask.. "Lord, are you pleased with our offerings? Are you satisfied with the sacrifice we brought?" and not.. "How do I feel after the worship? Is it a good worship for me?" haiya.. Worship is for God, not for us..
.
I do appreciate ppl coming up to me and tell me tt it was a good worship... really.. but I dun know how to react to that.. honestly.. coz i'm not doing it for you.. (not that I dun care for you..) I mean.. If God spoken to you during the worship, then it is His grace.. If you are touched by His presence, it is His mercy.. If you felt God is there with you in your circumstances, that's His love.. It is when we worship Him whole heartedly, He, our Lord is pleased, then perhaps.. (perhaps) He will bless you with all these gifts.. My concerned is-has our worship been worthy of You, Lord.. If the Lord is pleased not just for my and my worship team's worship, but for His People's worship... then I have done my part as a worship leader..
.
Leading His ppl to put aside all things and just come as ONE upon His thrown, to worship and praise Him... that is a real challenge..

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Sleepy and tired..

sorry for not updating currently.. sleepy and really tired lar..

Will try to up date something soon..

hopefully.. Night~~

Sunday, November 8, 2009

My teachers..

I almost cried out when i saw this photos.. The one on our left, is actually my 2 years older senior.. Simon Kong.. One of the most talented Chinese Orchestra player and Conductor I know..
Then One of my Science Teacher.. which i totally forgotten his name.. but i remember once thing about him.. That he was a very kind man.. He had never loose his temper and had all the patience for his students..
Then, Mr Hiew, I remember him coz he was our vice principal.. He is so gentle and kind.. I can't believe he was not the head master after my generation.. Then the far right.. Mr Teo, my music teacher.. who i use to hang out at his house for lunch and tea and once stayed over with his family coz my mom couldn't come and pick me up after a performance.. he and his family was so kind..
To see them grown so old when I don't feel like I left too long ago makes me a little sad..
Like suddenly they grown so old..
Time really flies.. but I can see that they are happy.. they are honored.. and they are respected..
They have been so faithful..


This was my orchestra practice area.. I use to seat at the blue chair where all the flute were..
We had some good times and hard times then.. but mostly.. great times :)
The Chinese Music Orchestra was like a church to me back then..
We have a saying:
Chinese Orchestra is a Family..

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Gossiping...

You either in, or you are out!!!
.
So am I in? or out? I'm most probably the off? like.. "har? what happened? why am I the last to know?" that kinda off.. do I gossip... I could never say no, just like asking me "Do you sin?" of course yes lar.. but never proud of it.. but trying as much as I can to not to and be a better person..
.
I was a victim of gossip to.. and I know how it feels.. since young, the gossip had an impact in my life until to a point... It made me nuts!! depressed and now I know how to handle it.. I know I have overcome this thing call Gossip.. In my life, Gossip started since primary School!!! So dun you think i got enough practice on it? lol... Always being the victim and not just being gossiped but being judged based on the gossips.. because of some childish reasons people accuse me of doing.. like wht, you may ask? like not smiling when we meet; Close my eye when I look towards the person; Worst gossip!!! I said something bad about someone when I didn't!!! Gossips becomes an accusation without any basis.. Silly and petty incidence right? ya.. children mar..
But does it mean it hurt less? Of course no lar.. the whole class believed in those gossips and never consider that it could just have been a misunderstanding that it made me loose friends.. I hate untrue accusations..
.
On the other hand.. when issues that is gossiped is actual true... now what? So I am still the victim? If you have nothing to talk about, people wouldn't BE talking about you... right? Jeng Jeng Jeng~~~ Slander is always a bad thing.. but we can't stop others from talking illy of us, because we may have hurt them, without knowing.. and we cannot blame them for not being up front either.. Even though we know they should do that but before we chould say that about them... are we the same? har... if we are... then nothing to say lar.. coz if we point the finger on them, you are pointing more fingers back on yourself.. Means, we may be gossiping others also.. check ourselves first hor.. may be God is trying to make us taste our own meds.. Just think about it lar..
.
So how to handle gossip? how to take the slanders? When it's true or untrue?
What does the bible said? When you know there is a gossip.. don't hind behind it lar.. If it is possible.. go and tell your brother/sister or the person tt hates u :P that he/she had slander and that has hurt you.. if the person dun listen, bring another fren.. and if again the person don't listen.. then you may have to ask for higher authority to deal with the person.. Means you need to Confront the gossiper with Love..
.
For me if it is untrue gossip, I may take the coward way out... easier.. just ignore it.. since it is untrue... it will not stick long.. and my true frens will know me for who I am and know tt it is untrue.. I do not need to be afraid of any untrue gossips... but there is a problem with this method.. What if others (who does not really know me) believes in the gossip and they acted on it? then I am in big trouble.. .
.
How if it is true? We did made this mistake and we did put shame onto ourselves... We feel terrible, don't we... and yet our 'family' members put salt onto our wounds.. it hurts more.. we feel rejected, depress, then up set and later, disappointed, devastated then angry... you know where it leads. So, same thing, what should we do? Go to the person who started all this gossiping and found out how we have hurt them, repent, find forgiveness (sincerely) and peace in them then move on... But I know sometimes even after that, people still continue to talk or they don't forgive us.. but we did our part.. Do what ever we humanly can and leave the rest to God lor..
.
For me, I may just talk to someone else, repent and then only talk to the person I've hurt.. Coz I'm not tt strong to just go up to a person and ask wht's going on without preparing myself for the worst..
.
So, we learn from the Bible what should we do lar.. It's not easy and nobody likes to confront others.. regardless they are right or wrong.. but all I know is, it is the right thing to do when we do this in love..

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Having another baby...

Being pregnant for the second time is not an easy task.. especially when you have one older kid which is still, in a lot of ways... a baby... to take care of.. tiring!!!

So i hope my post will be short and sweet from now on.. except when I have much emotions or thoughts I would like to express.. (wai.. no time..) ahahaha..

Check up today... here are some.. erm... baby photos? :P See if you can see my little baby's head, hands and feet...

This is a 3D scan... I think? Still look a little.. erm.. alien? :P still growing and forming mar..
.
My children cannot be too serious lar.. must take life sometimes (sometimes) with a pinch of salt.. Serious when needs to be serious.. and still able to laugh at ourselves at times..
.
Can you see baby's head, hands and feet?
.
Ei? EDD is 26 May 2010.. ahahaha no more 23rd May? :P Could be early like Alexander and it will be 23rd May 2010.. ahahaha..
.
You may ask if I would like to have the same birthday as my baby... i will tell you.. No. I want her to have her own special day.. no need to share with anyone from the family.. :D but even if it is on the same day, then we'll make it special for the both of us..

Monday, November 2, 2009

Alexander 1st Birthday..

Alexander's 1 year old birthday was a blast!! Thank you all for making it.. Thank you for the presents and monetary gifts.. and gifts to come :D
.
I'm so greatful that my father, mother, younger brother in law manage to make it to this special event.. And my bro Kennedy, sis in law , Edward and Connicious from my side of the family came too. Truly glad you all made it..
.
All our AIA frens and church members.. thank you for taking the trouble being there.. hope it was fun for all of you as it is for us... My Corbis frens.. hope you had a good time with some of our old frens..
.
I'm sure the children had fun coz there was so much toys, goodies and fries for them.. ahahaha.. and dun forget having Chicky there (the mascot) was one of Alexander's fav time.. Alexander's eye just brightens up as soon as he layed his eyes on Chicky.. ahaha.. I think if Alexander could talk, he would want to bring Chicky home..
.
The party was awesome with family and frens and the little children running around with colourful balloons and toys to bring home.. food was of course pretty standard.. wished it could be better though.. but really, it's the ppl that went there tt made the place so brighten up..
.
I haven't seen my official photographer's photos yet.. i hope i get to see them soon :) Some pictures taken by my frens was wonderful.. thank you Han Then, Wai wai, Chris Lim and Lydia Yee for posting it on facebook..
.
Must apologies if we did not manage to take photos with some of the families attended that day.. we have more opportunities again.. dun worry :)
.
Must say that we enjoyed ourselves very much..
.
To my son Alexander.. Happy Birthday darling.. on 1st November 2009 (Sunday)