It's a cruel world :(

I feel like crying.. my emotion is like a roller coaster ei? haih.. how should i feel when i hear that the food stall ourside my condo was tear down by DBKL and left the Malay Lady that sells nasi lemak for a living have no where to make ends meet? 

I remember once when I pass by her stall one early morning to go somewhere and saw her daughter playing on a mattress.. UNDER THE HOT SUN. I admire her courage and her hard work.. and that her daughter is so pure at heart tt she didn't mind paying on a dirty mattress, with all the dirty toys and under the sun.. (haiyer.. brings tears to my eyes when I think about it now..) But you know what? The little girl was really enjoying herself and she was smiling just because she is playing, having fun and with her mom at the stall.. Now the stall is no more.. I wonder where will they go now? really heart breaking.. 

I wished I could help them some how.. just so sad to see these happening even in a city.. Many says that the bigger the city, the more poor ppl around.. What are the rich doing lar? they cannot find any poor ppl to give their money too coz they live in a very luxurious place? perhaps that's it.. They don't see these things happening thus out of sight is like out of mind.. sometimes i feel ashamed of having so much while others struggles just to fill their tummy.. I should learn to not waste, save more and use less.. so if I get some extra, I can give it back to help others.. 

I have a friend who needs financial help all the time, and I really do feel for her as she have no one to hold on too.. she is unwell and have a child to support.. every time I think of her I really pray that she will live a long life and be able to enjoy it to the fullest.. May she learn to also save and live within our means.. Most importantly that she found the almighty God with her all the way.. 

I remembered seeing an old couple in their what, sixties or seventies, working in the evening preparing 'pau' to sell for the night market on the side of the road.. I do think sometimes these unpopular business or not so glamorous business actually earns more than an average office worker.. but at their age, don't they have any kids? or family? that would help out on their expenses so that they need not toil every night for a living?? or they do this as a hobby? Do some ppl enjoy doing all those hard work, sweat and go home late than to spend time with their grandchildren or family? May be they do not have children? nor family? I dunno what to think? or how to think? how should I feel?

I think it is a crime to allow our parents who are old and frail to toil like tt.. being a boss and sitting in the office to do work is not so bad as carrying, cleaning, cooking etc on the road side lor.. but sometimes, we outsiders don't know wht is going on in actual fact so I know I should not judge, which I am not. I am just curious and it is heart breaking to see this.. As for the Malay lady's nasi lemak stalls, I really pray for you to have more than you ever need, even though your stall was thorn down. My God will protect and bless you and your family with abundance and grace.. and may be one day, you or your next generation will come to know Him personally.. 

It is a cruel world, but there's so much more good in it than we think it offers.. Just because we cannot see it now doesn't mean that we should give up on it entirely.. Our world can be great when we gave it to the one whom created it. 

Today was a blessed day

What a day out full of meetings!! It tiring but fruitful! Love to meet new people n learn new things.. It's really a challenge doing dossier when I don't know much not just bout the market/industry but not sure wht have been discussed with suppliers or clients etc.. So much digging and reading and asking etc need to be done.. Overwhelming!!!

Let's take it one day at a time.. Must remember that this job is really Gid's blessing to me.. 2 good bosses n experienced seniors n colleagues plus! Still near by my old office Tt I can meet up with my fren from previous company.. It's great!

Met an old church member too.. From pj church.. :) glad to see her there today.. Busy with work..

My old drawings...

Not the 2 real life picture... That was drawn by an old fren of mine.. The anime was mine though.. Use to be addicted to anime.. When I read I was in a trance.. U dun disturb me or u will get a good scolding from me. Never liked to be disturbed.. It was hard to rid of my years of anime addiction.. I was such an addict that I converted all my housemates into addicts!! Imagine that!! Haha it was fun though to share the passion in the same house hehehe.. Ah... Those were the days..

I am trying to think of something I am addicted to now.. Ah.. Simple. Facebook lor... I use to be addicted to blogging.. :D now currently, face booking.. Hmmm.. I may or should change addiction soon.. What would be a more healthy addiction ler??

I remembered dancing to the song 'Addicted to Jesus' before :) I am thinking am I Still addicted to Jesus?addicted to Jesus!!!

Food!!!

Wonderful food.. God is so creative with flavor hmmmm yummy~~

Come join us :)

We need God more than we think.. I think?

I think so... I always think that I hv it all figured out.. Well, being a nobody then became a somebody actually is like a dream come true.. :) but that is not the ending.. It's just the middle... Like a story, we hv a beginning, the middle n then the finale! Most of us would be living in the middle of our life story...

But life has a lot of stages.. There's the infant stage, toddler stage, pre school, primary school, secondary school, pre-u, university/college then from there we call it our career path which is most likely our adult life.. Then from the adult life we can again hv different stages of adulthood, there's career stage, courting stage; if you hv the courage for it, marriage stage; and if u dare!!! Parenthood!! And if you are blessed grand parenthood!! :D and the list goes... Wait... Hmmm.. I think tts it? Unless our kids or grand kids decides to hv kids of their own super early.. Great grand parents!? Wow.. Not sure how many of my generation will be able to enjoy that.. Well, I can live long enough to find out hehehe..

So what is my point? My point is... That there's still a very long way for us to journey in this road called life.. Unless of course times up for us all of a sudden you know.. Still, we hv a long way to go.. Especially those that reads n writes blogs.. Those Much older than me writes books or a website... Seldom I see them write a blog... So I am talking about my generation n those younger than mine..

We may think that we hv it all n we got it all figured out n that we r all set to go.. But life will throw us a curve ball every now and then to remind n humble us that we need God to walk the talk and talk the walk. And I am sure no matter how matured, no matter how experienced, no matter how wise we get to be, we are going to realize that ain't nothing gonna matter if we don't love God n His ppl n obey His calling for us.. Ain't nothing gonna matter unless n until we get our relationship right with Him; nothing's gonna matter until our desire is His desire, our will His will, our passion His passion, our doings His doings.. We r not God, never have never will be, but God expect us to be His own n not just act like His own or speaks like His own but love like His own, thinks like His own, see n listen like His own, live life like His own. He expect the best from us, He is not expecting perfection, He expect character, attitude n heart, nothing more n definitely nothing less..

Wht a testing few months...

Sad happy wonderful emotional tired inspired worried concerned moved touched wow! Haih~~ Aiks! Aiyo.. all in just a few months time.. Suppose it's normal.. Oh well.. Life goes on, and it's bearable thanks to Jesus..