Thought of the day..

For about 1 whole year I tried my best in the new vocation that I embark into since 2012 but in the end, I had to leave and take on another career path.. 

Next week I am starting my new career in a new company starting a new direction and a new focus. Taking new challenges is scary and uncertain.. but if I do not change, nothing will change.. 

As I serve in the youth ministry.. I have been asking this question recently, have I not been doing all these for Christ? Have I been doing this for myself? I do not think so.. but then how come others think that I could have done all these for my own sake?? wouldn't it be easier to just don't do anything? take the easy way out and focus on my family and career, not a ministry? Isn't it burdensome to do something consistently and it is consistently tiring and troublesome? really? Am I asking for trouble by doing all these? because after a while, it wouldn't matter anymore.. what I have been fighting for will just be lost in time.. gone with the wind.. phewwwww~~ Feel like the palmist now. Emo only.. or the writer of Ecclesiastes, everything is meaningless!!!!!I tell you!! MEANINGLESS!!!! LOL.. it's funny lar.. it's not meaningless.. I know.. I know.. 

When I looks at my children, it is not meaningless.. God has a purpose for everything.. I just need to do what I am suppose to do NOW.. no more no less.. and just like any other parents or spiritual parents.. What we want is want God wants from our children/sheep.. DO WHAT THEY ARE MADE TO DO AND DO IT NOW! 

The devil is full of lies, he keep slipping into our minds and tries to con us from doing God's will.. telling us that we are not going to make it till the end, so why even try now.. Telling us that even the leader that we follow is not going anywhere far, so why even bother.. Telling lies so we will get hurt and gossip about ppl IN THE CHURCH that hurt us.. really?? Is that the best that you can do devil!? I am not afraid of you!!!  I know your tricks... Yes, I may have looked like I have been discouraged and defeated but I am not knocked down by you, you snake! You are going to taste the dust from my feet so get behind me and scram!! You plan to take God's flock away from Him? You plan to ruin their faith and go against God? you wished!!! My God will prevail! He will overcome you as He had done it over and over again!! He will do it again and you know it satan.. your lies will never hold true.. it will never last! just like a battle, I may have lost some battles but my God wins the wars for me!!! Just you wait! 

Going to get ready for youth meeting now.. not many are faithful, but God will work with those who are. Use all of us Jesus for your kingdom.. We are nothing without You.. nothing.. 

It's a beautiful day!!

I wonder have I passed the test? Barely I think.. :p continue to pass and continue to bear better result every time! Lord, I need you, always~~

No Compromise!!! Limitless!! By planet shakers.. This is the 2 songs I heard recently that really captured my attention.. As we are in the year of God's jubilee, we faced many obstacles and trials few months back.. Temptations, challenges, heart aches, discouragement etc.. These trails are necessary to our spiritual growth.. Without these test we wouldn't grow up and we will never the meaning of humility.. Because if things always goes our way, we will get big headed n proud that we are of no use to God or to any one else around us.. We don't have love, no kindness, no joy, no peace, no success..

I thought about those who are suffering without God.. Who can they turned to? Who can they rely on? Who can they trust? Who can they hang on to? Who would be worthy of their love n all their life? Parents? Spouse? Friends? For the older friends, our children? Our work? Who Or what? I must constantly remind myself to look for God for all things.. Sometimes He will ask me to look for someone else to get the ans coz I am too distracted to listen directly from Him..

Hey friends, when you are feeling down and you think that you cannot trust anyone else.. I'd like to encourage you to trust in the one that created you, the one that really really knows you, the one that hold you in His arms and love you unconditionally. Not talking about your biological or step dad but rather talking about God, your Heavenly Father, your friend Jesus and your counselor, the Holy Spirit..

May you have love, faith and hope.. And the greatest of these is love...

Favourites..?

If God gave one person a gift of prophecy while the other have none, is God being unfair? Does it mean He loves the one with the gift more? What is fair and what is being someone's favourite? If one disciple is more obedient than another, doesn't he/she deserve more blessing and responsibility? Or everyone should have the same authority but in actual fact is not ready for obedience?

I absolutely disagree with having favourites, among the 12 disciple of Jesus, don't you think tt there will be some closer to Jesus than others? Some can be frank with Jesus while some, quiet and reserved, have another plan in God's kingdom? And yet have better understanding about Jesus with those who can laugh and joke with Jesus??

Only when you become a parents with more than 1 child you will know that you will always try to be fair but its a difficult task.. Because which child is different.. And if we really want to be fair, we would have 1 set of rules that applies to everyone while the showing of care, discipline n encouragement should differ from one child to another child.. I think than that would be fair..

It's hard to explain in by writing.. I can only say that as for rules, it must be equal or the same but when it comes to discipline and encouragement, it must suit the person we are teaching or mentoring.. Not any 1 method can apply to everyone.. Even showing love can be receive differently by diff ppl.. Thus I think being fair to many young ppl is.. To know them personally and to treat them the way they would feel most loved n appreciated. Discipline them in the way that they can understand. Love them no matter how they may perceive our good intentions..

I know how it feels like to not be the favourite, but its ok.. Really.. I am still loved, just differently.. Let us not have that first born mentality coz when our brother return home and our father shower him with authority n receive him unconditional.. Welcome him too.. For he has suffered enough being alone on his own without his father and without his brothers n sisters with him for a long time..

Favourites? We are all God's favourites..