Food at Dave's 1 U.. :D

Nigel loves to eat pork :D and we went to Dave's to have some porck for dinner a while back ahahaha.. the sausages are my order but I couldn't evern finish 1.. it's not as nice, it's a ctuallly a bit salty.. Even Nigel think so..

I only had half or less than tt.. :P

BELOW:: This is Nigel's dish. Dunno wht pork dish d :P

Anyone love pork?? I know some of you do!!! LOL.. (sorry if I have offendent some of my Muslim frens..)

It's your life~~~ young men!!! (More and more of you really needs a wake up call!)

I know many will find this to be true.. "That it's my life and don't bother me with your standards and your silly request.. Let me be and let me live my life as I please!" Very irresponsible response don't you think? As if your life does not affect anyone else's life.. As though you live on an Island, as though no one cares, as if you can control how it will turn out in the end... (When I mean in the end... I mean THE END.)

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You are hurting people around you by your actions and you are telling yourself that it is not your problem.. they are the problem.. coz they bother? coz they care? coz they begged you to stop doing wht is wrong? coz they dun want to see you like this? and you blame them for everything you are going through now??

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Ello? So many people go through what you went through.. but you know wht? they didn't use it as a excuse to hurt others or themselves.. not matter how bad those bad people had hurt them. They are not weak or ashamed or suferring with self pity, but they have the courage to stand up and do what is right! Don't blame it on sickness! Don't blame it on the family up bringing! Don't blame it on God! Don't blame it on other people that you think they should have cared or understand! Stop blaming and start doing something positive, something right!!! Look to God!

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You say they nag too much.. please lar? look at yourself? aren't you also doing the same thing? keep saying the same thing over and over again.. har? i've seen this before.. and guess what.. It was me.. yes.. me... SUSANA.. keep going in a circle and dunno how to get out of the pitt! BUT I have and many have also came out from the pitt of destruction into the light.. it will not be easy and it will take our whole being and much of God's help to do so... I believe EVERYONE is able to do so, it is a lie if you think you can't.

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And I will tell you the only person that could help you is God, Jesus, Holy Spirit.. but if you choose to stay away from our heavenly father.. then you are on your way for destruction! Take heat!! I still think you are a man that want to please God, a man that wants to do the right thing, a man who will rise up and glorify our Lord.. but if you have to "take all your heritance, go out party, used up all of it and have to share food with with the swines." then only come back to the Lord.. so be it..

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I'm not encouraging you to be 'the P labeled son', (which parents in the right mind wants to see their children go through tt!!!!??? siao ah?) but then, if it is your choice.. then I pray that God will still be in control and one day, when you are ready to come home.. you are always welcome with arms open wide..

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BUT remember this--- there are consequences for all the action we have done in this world.. the people that we hurt (just like how others have hurt you.), the people that we mistreated, the opporunities that was given to to us.. could be gone.. wiped out.. no second chance.. so take heat!

Sleeping Alexander...

I wonder at wht age he would ask me to put down and delete these image from my blog.. LOL..

Isn't he the cutest!!! :D

Cleaning up for Little Princess

Everytime I'm about to give birth.. (Even though this is only the second time haha).. Nigel will have this instinct to clean or renovate a little.. so... can you gues what he has done this time besides doing a big renovation (unlike the last time when Alexander was about to be born... Reno our whole living room and repaint almost the whole house.. aheheh)..

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Well, he continue painting the kitchen and the small room, start 'spring' cleaning it and reorganizing everything for our Little Princess.. (which is btw have no English name yet for now)..

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Its pretty much clean coz I have to clean up my mess in the small room also.. :P It;s mostly my stuffs anyway.. ahahah... But we are planning to make the small room Princess's room so most of her stuffs will be there while the bigger room is for Alexander.

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I know all of you must be thinking that we are being unfair.. :D hear us out.. this is only temporary.. It will depends on our third child :) f our third Child is a boy then he will sleep with Alexander in the bigger room; but if it is a girl.. then the two girls will stay in the bigger room and Alexander will move to his own room.. :) i'm sure this would be the right arrangements..

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What if we have a 4th child? LOL.. we'll think about it when the time comes.. ahahaha.. Plan until 3rd child d.. not enough planning meh? ahahahaha...

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Now the only room in a mess is... STILL the store room :P now, the plan is to tidy up the store room-get a cupboard, loads of boxes (paper and plastics containers) and rearranging everything in order between the store room, Princess's room and Alexander's room.. :D

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May the Lord bless our plans according to His wil.. because that is all we live for.. pleasing Him..

So wht's the point? -- Becoming NT (NCV Version)

Matthew 25:31-46

" A FAith that does nothing is really no faith. This is Jesus' warning against a self-serving lifestyle that neglects the needy. Such a lifestyle is rampant today, where billions of dollars are spent on beauty products and handbags, while the poor in this world remain poor. We won't stamp out world poverty. Jesus said we'll always have the poor among us (Matthew 26:11) but we're responsible to personally care for those around us. It's a biblical mandate.

A Mandate accompanied by indescribable joy and reward. And a mandate propelled by Christ's compassion and love within us. We'll miss the greatest joys of deep gratification if we forfeit opportunities to bless others, especially the needy.

Who are the needy in your community? Is there a city mission, nursing home, or prison where you are able to donate time, money, and practical help? Look into their faces and consider the disadvantaged in your church and neighborhood. Consider participating with organizations and missionaries that provide for the poor of the nations. It can seem overwhelming, but so can picking out lipstick at the mall!!

Ask God where to start and He will show you.."

Old Love put into action..

.. and i'm not talking about and Ex-boyfriend or an old falme ok.. duh!! I'm talking about doing something i actually love :D

I love making crafts and I love stationeries (papers, notebooks, writting pads, notepads, books, pens etc..).. Was my hobby to collect these things and even make things out of things.. LOL..

Now I can put my hobby to good use :D becuase I'm good at pickiung up good, cute, sweet and special stuffs... I think I can share it with others who are also interested in it :D Those who also appreciate it and young at heart :D SO many of us out there..

I do believe there are many others out there who are kindered spirited and love the things that I love...

So if you are interested to look at what I've got to offer.. add me on facebook sunimag@gmail.com or username, SuniMag

My Sunimag.blogspot.com is still under construction so.. gimme sometime to improve it ya? :D

Ta for now...

Dearly missed..

who do i mean? :D

While he was away, we feel something is missing..

While he was not with us, we missed him dearly..

Sometimes being together is all it takes to feel secure and safe.. feel loved and cared for..

It's doesn't mean that we need to do something special..

Just being there is already enough for us..


When he was away, he felt it too.. as if something is missing..

While he was not with us, it was hard for him to be apart from us..

Even if he was with one of us it would be comforting, but none of us? Hard to bare..

That is why family are so important..

Feeling like Rebecca.. not totally.. but similar.. not complaining either :D

Sometimes I feel encouraged, sometimes i feel the opposite..

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Most of all i'm tired out and yet could not stop thinking about what should I do next for God and His people.. I do try all I can to be all that I could for others... but i'm no superwomen.. I am limited in power and strength.. when would people understand that?? When would they realize that i'm only human..

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I loose sleep for thinking too much for the young ppl.. Things that I need to pray about and God led me to sleepless nights to pray for the young ppl everytime one of them are in trouble.... then last night, Nigel got a fever that scared me until I couldn't really rest either.. first time ever he feel cold?? but he is so warm!!! i almost resorted in calling Alexander's God father to come send Nigel to the hospital.. coz even if I could drive, its a bad idea to drive in such a pregnant condition with a very sick hubby and a sleepy toddler.. So I just pray a little prayer and made Nigel feel as comfortable as I could.. then i slept outside last night so he would have more space.. Went into the room a couple of times during the night to see how he was doing.. he fell asleep finally and during the wee hours, he took off the warm jackets and turned on the fan.. ah.. Thank God he is getting better..

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Then the next day, we went to check on my little baby in my tummy :) with Nigel still being unwell.. still inssisted on going on that day for the check up.. Couldn't take her face this time asthe position is a bit off.. perhaps the next time lar.. :) After that, we went to see the doctor.. and Nigel got a jap for his fever..

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Not complaining about having to take care of Nigel and my family during pregnancy.. They are my family, my responsibility, one of my top priority... or even praying and planning for CPY.. It's the physical need the church and the ministry have on me tt is taking it's toll.. 'my spirit is willing but my body is weak.." and i'm not talking about temptation.. i'm talking about helping ppl even... ah... I'm sorry to those that I have to say "NO" to.. Especially those that needed my help.. I can give advise, I can lend a listening ear, I can pray for you and chat with you on msn, care for you and guide, teach and mentor you... BUT, i cannot be the 'transport minister' for you for very long (even though Nigel is THE person holding the key).. I cannot be there PHYSICALLY (with my whole body there with you) all the time.. I could not split myself into two or more to do all that I could do... I wished I could but I'm Not God.. yet sometimes, I just feel everyone is relying on me solely.. After this person cannot deliver.. all eyes will turn to me.. Then ok, i'll have most of the solutions.. I know that is part of being a leader, I do.. Coz when I do something and when I say i try my best, there is nothing less in my effort in doing it.. NOTHING LESS; ALWAYS THE BEST...

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The best that I humanly could do though... the rest I have to leave it to God..

I will still do my best for God's people.. but I only need your understanding.. That even if I said "I cannot.." "No" "I am not able to be there.." "You will have to find your own way.." etc.. doesn't mean i dun care, love you less or even abandoning you.. I am always there for you but in a different way now that I'm in a different stage of my life.. I've always been there for you and all of you know that.. I have served the the youth ministry for the longest time anyone, besides pastor, Jeacie and the elders, in any other ministry in the church and my life have changed from university students, to a working young adult, to a married women and now a mother of, soon to be, two.. I only ask for understanding and love which.. some of my comrades in church understands and really took care of me and my family.. Thanks guys.. you know who you are.. and some of the young ppl who are very understanding and mature enough to know the difference... Thank you too, for being a blessing in my life..

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This year, CPY members are being more independant, more responsible and more willing to do God's work, His will and most of all.. serve the Youth ministry and God's church.. Thank you for those who are serving right now.. truly an encouragement I long to see all these years.. Please continue to serve in His glory.. You will not be dissapointed at the fruit and the harvest you have sowed into His Kingdom..