Our little "joker".. LOL

Seriously funny... wht to do... kids mar.. sure eat like tt lar.. ok... not all kids.. just my kids i guess.. ahahaha.. I still think letting him eat like this is alright... but not all the time lar.. :P (i think i allow it all too often..)

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Alexander is no angel.. but he is the center of attention with his stunts and charm.. I hope he will be more careful as he grows and stay safe all the time..

So proud..

I wonder how many young ppl still actually read my blog? ahahah not many I suppose.. Unless I inform them on FB that I up dated it a guess... :)

This post I'd like to dedicate it to my young ppl in church.. who have worked sooooo hard and so much afford have been put into the Christmas celebration! The whole service was superb and fun! I really think they did a great job and I can't wait to see wht is in stored next year when they plan for the year's activities and studies..

Eventhough the mime was not fully understood by the older generations.. I truly believe that it has spoken to many ppl during the service.. I know the way tt young ppl do things now a days is a bit 'off key' sometimes and they need a lot of guidance and pointers and reminders.. but I also believe that sometimes, we need to just let them take the lead at certain things... (when they are ready, not everything but somethings..) Most importantly is that they are willing to put in that effort and hard work.. that commitment and focus..

Thank you guys.. it was great work!

Rejections...

Ever felt rejected before? always you say?? ya.. me too.. :(

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And you think that you'll get over it and when the next rejection come, we can handle it better.. eh.. If that is the case, I dun think I can handle rejection at all... haih...

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I had to be honest with how i feel... I will be as polite and kind as I possibly could but that is how I feel at the time and I need to express it.... feeling rejected and unwanted, not needed..

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haih.. but I know I cannot always be like this.. but I care... that is why i feel tt way.. should I not care? So I do not feel tt way? eh.. eh.. eh...? haih... perhaps I should just learn to take rejection like a man.. i mean.. like a woman.. u know.. strong and lady like :P

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I've always been the black sheep in a way... or may be that is how I myself see it? Not part of the 'group', not in the 'gang'.. loner.. I tried not to make others feel rejected, but why do I always feel tt way ler? Could be just ME.. my weakness.. my own selfishness.. is it?

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Anyway... Even if I feel hurt or rejected.. I will not allow that feeling to turn to unforgiveness or hate.. coz that will hinder God's work and all tt I hv done may just go down the drain just because of one sin.. I WILL NOT ALLOW IT!!! Devil! Dun hold me down with lies!! I will not be defeated by it.. I may feel bad and down at the time.. but I will not stay down for long.. Coz i got Jesus!!! He showed me the redemption he has for me everytime I feel tt way.. :) and It's just perfect!

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Lord, You are so awesome.. thank you for opening my eyes.. and my heart.. amen..

I am Successful :') as He said I would..

Many years ago, I remember feeling very down and confuse.. I do not know where should I go from there onwards.. Should I stay or should I go back.. I was only in my second year in uni and going into my third.. but I was really struggling about where my future would be..

I prayed and prayed and prayed.. then one day.. I heard God's voice very clearly and He said, "You will be sucessful." then I said, " What? How? What do You mean by sucessful?".... then total silence.. "God, if that was You could you repeat what You just said? I know I heard You but just to make sure You know...".......Silence...." Please???"....silence.. (ok.. so what do You mean by Sucessful? successful in what? In my career? Financial? in my marriege? Overall-what ever tt is... WHAT? by what stadard? Whose standards? God's?~~ what is God's standard on being sucessful? what?) .. In the end.. I knew without a shadow of a doubth tt that was God's voice coz I would had never thought of tt ans.. (Ans that gave me more questions than ans my prayer.. duh.. I'm not tt confused..)

I hold on to that promised and stayed on.. and no matter what happens.. even when i fail in many ways.. I remembered that promised God made to me.. I hold on to it with my dear life and I believe that it will come true... one day.. but dunno when.. dunno how... DON'T even know what success truly is... (or mean based on God's character, values and standards)..

I always tell my young ppl about this.. ahahahaha... It sounds silly, i know!.. They would be thinking, "But Susana, You are not sucessful yet right? (or you are???huh?) How can you be so sure that it is from God? and that you can be so proud to claim that GOD have promised you that you would be sucessful when you are not yet sucessful? Duh lar like tt..?" :P true.. I dun blame them (if they think tt way... I totally understand..) I was still serching for that meaning of success... the secure future.. the high class career.. the noble deeds.. the praise worthy work...

I said "was"..... you know why? :D (huge grin!!!)

I always love Christmas Eve.. It brings back loads of beautiful childhood memory... Happy birthday Jesus.. You deserve all our praise.. We love you...

Lord, here I am..

Many people struggle with this question....

When is the best time for us to serve God?

"Not me, I'm a nobody. Wait till I make it in life first?"
"Not yet, I'm too young to serve. It's too serious and hard."
"Nah, never. Not my kinda thing."
"Who me? What can I do at this old age?"
"I have better things to do lar. My exams is just around the corner."
"God don't need me, He can ask other people. I'm busy with my things."
"I'm so busy with so many things, wait lar. When I am more free. I'll think about it."
"Not now, I'm not ready. I need to do this and that first then only I qualify."
and the list goes on and on and on..

Do you know when is the RIGHT time to serve God? huh?

Broken pieces...

Where are the pieces? Have you given them all?
If u still wanna keep some, I can't help you at all..
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You know that I want to, take ur hand and rescue u;
but first you have to, give me ur all, all of u..
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I know it's hard to give up some, painful and hurtful things;
but know that I am with you, for you and in every missing links.
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You don't have love, don't have joy, don't have peace;
Coz I am your love, your Joy and yes you are right, I am your peace.
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My birthday is coming soon, may not be the actual day;
It is still meaningful to me and all who celebrate and pray.
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I do not ask for a perfect gift, eventhough that is what I deserve to receive;
I only ask for your broken heart, so I can mend, love and give you peace..

What a busy December 2010...

Loads to do!!! And I dun have enough time to do everything!!! Everything I want that is.. I'm only human right... but i do try.. I really really tried... Until i so tired d...

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Thanks to hubby who was so kind to have helped be 'close' up every night for the past few days so I can rest early... NOW! I'm more energized!!! Thanks honey.. u r so sweet! ;*

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I'm looking forward for Christmas this year because our youth is actually in charged of the whole celebration~~! a bit stress also coz if anything goes wrong.. my neck would be on the chopping board... I was sooooo looking forward for the youth camp too!!! Eventhough I couldn't make it.. I knew tt it will be a great and womderful camp for everyone!!! and it was!.. Loads of testimonies too.. awesome!.. I hope young ppl will get their ans soon from God.. but i still believe God will have His timing.. Some of us may get the ans sooner than others while some of us needs to go through certain things first before we can appreciate or learn the meaning of the the ans.. (eh.. am I making any sense?)

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Anyway... I'm praying for you guys out there who are still searching for the ans from God!!! Never give up! Always hang on!! Jesus is not too far to reach... He is just next to u.. always.. (Even though everyone knows tt for a fact, we sometimes still dun get it.. so we need to be reminded daily that He is always there, through His words...)

3 wonderful years in marriege :')

Happy Wedding Anniversary Honey :)

What a wonderful 3 years of our lives together..

May our Lord Jesus continue to be the center of our union and love..

..I love you..