I have a dream..

I have a dream. Where one day my church hall will be filled with people.. Not just the youth (even though that is my ministry) but people from the very young babies to the super senior citizens. They are here not to please anybody but God alone. They are here not to judge anybody but to love God and His people. They are here to fullfill not their desires nor their passion but to fullfill the calling of God and the His desire that God has set upon their lives! They are not here to fill in the emthy places but they are here so they can reach out to the world outside these walls!

I have a dream.. where everyone that was hurt are healed. Where everyone that was in pain have found peace. Where everyone in doubth have found focus. Where everyone that is lost, found meaning. Where everyone with bondages be set free! Where everyone that is proud be humble. Where everyone that is timid have courage! Where everyone with a past will have a bright future! Where everyone with a broken home found a loving family! Where everyone struggles becomes an opportunity towards maturity! Where everyone that has no confidence will learn to have confidence in the Lord!

I have a dream.. that everyone will know that they are loved by someone greater then the Universe, that they are loved by the ONE that created it in the first place... That everyone will be able to receive this love and live their lives to the fullest.. That even though circumstances may seem hard to overcome, they still have hope and that their future is in God's hand.. That everyone will trust in God and just do their best..

I have a dream.. because I believe God keeps His promises.. Thank you Jesus..

Am I any different? perhaps not.. but I am learning.. are you?

Coming of a new beginning... New challenges and new excitements.. Also a new level of responsibility and new level of stress.. haih.. and even though I am really doing my best.. I don't feel I have succeeded in doing anything much.. why ah? Is it because God is not blessing the fruit of my labour? Is it time to move on?

Many People don't like change.. I love Change.. Every time I finish my exams, I use to go home and do some spring cleaning and change my whole room to another setting.. Of course if Change is in our control, it is more fun.. But when we are not in control of change, we are very fearful, very confused, very worried.. Do I worry? Sometimes I do, but I don't worry for too long coz I know everything will be straighten out should we just continue to work on it and improve.. I don't understand why some people don't want to learn, or change for the better.. well.. perhaps it's just their choice lar.. but then don't they know that their decision will effect others? They think they can just do what ever they want? They think that others not suffering also meh? They think what they do can be enough meh? What ever you do will ever be enough! What ever I do will never be enough.. how can it be enough? when Man are selfish beings, only thinking of themselves.. so my question is how can we be different?

I can only count on God to help me keep my cool.. in everything I do.. I do not claim to be the best person you know but I do try, I give it my best and I do want to ask, "what do you want me to do already? Have I not done my best? har? What have you done to make anything different? You keep doing the same thing and expect things to change? Sorry lor.. You can nag or complain all you want but It's not going to change anything."

As the saying goes... Yes, the apple don't fall far from the tree.. but why can't we learn and be better then the original tree? We are human, not some vegetable! Learn lar.. do something productive. I am not a plant! I move on if I have to.. as long as it is God's will, I will do it. It is a privilege to live in God's will and even though sometimes life is hard but His will shall always prevail..

Am I any different? perhaps not.. but I am learning.. are you?

Testing testing

I wonder will this work.. Hello world!!!

Do you trust God?

Do you trust God??

Wanted to share the video here but I don't really know how.. so hopefully you will go to the link I ahve attached with the sentence.. Enjoy and reflect..

JESUS.......WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU REGARDLESS

LUST.......will leave you loveless
POWER.......will leave you heartless
DRUGS.......will leave you senseless
M0NEY.......will leave you comfortless
JESUS.......WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU REGARDLESS ♥

FB post by my good fren Jemyee.. :D

I WON!!!

I won the AVON write in contest from Comopolitan Mag!!! ahahaha.. worth RM250!!! ahahaha.. and you know what I actually got!!! 6 sticks of ip sticks.. =.="

What am I going to do with 6 Lipstick? my hubby told me that I can always give them away as gifts.. hey! It's still new and it cost me my effort to write and send in my contest! So, I have promised to share it to two of my frens in the office and one girl from youth :) I always like to give away good stuffs.. something like a santa clause (but I don't like santa! i mean, I dun hate the person but i just don't like him being the center of Christmas most of the time..) but ya.. My love language is gifts.. so to make me happy, very simple.. get me a gift :D and I realize that even spending time for me is also a type of gift, especially when it is my special day or even the worst day.. it is called the gift of time.. (it's different from quality time..which is new to me and yet makes sooo much sense.. )

It makes sense becuase I don't want to hang out ALL the time but I'd love to hang out during those special times.. It's is very depressing/sad when it's my birthday and it is forgotten.. well.. may be i just need to grow up and accept the fact that ppl aren't perfect :) thus! lowered my expectations and be more understanding.. (not more realistic.. but more understanding..) anyway... I am still shawered by gifts everyday from God.. His gift of nature and the morning sun always brightens up my day... a morning in the pool with my kids always makes me happy and contented.. and next I would like to go shopping.. thank you.. :P.. hahaha.. (ok.. go shopping and go clubbing is diff one ah ok? go shopping will never get you accidentally pregnant! but go clubbing might..I rather perfer my children go shopping then go clubbing lor..)

From Avon gifts to shopping n clubbing.. apelar.. LOL.. ok lar.. stop here for now..

Sarah Kay: If I should have a daughter ...

This is really cool!! I should start with expressing myself via words.. wait.. I am doing that :D just not saying it out loud.. rather i just rant it over here in my blog. Just wanna share this as it is very interesting.. Thanks to Eric who shared it on FB.. her voice sound very sweet and according to Eric.. she is hot! LOL.. I love the title.. "If I had a daughter.." perhaps I can write one for my little girl Melissa.. and tell her the things I want her to know as my daughter and even one for my son.. :D but i guess, one pharagraph would not be enoughto describe what I wanted to share to them.. :) Yet.. it is a great idea.. I got a journal for them both.. may be that would be enough? my hand written journal of them and for them.. (some about me and thier daddy and our family.. ) Typing it would be faster and more neat.. but they will not see my un-neat hand-writting lor.. :P.. well.. they can read here and they can read from the journals lar.. :)

I am not judging you but seriously.. think before you act lar..

Some one wrote this on their FB status "Feel wanna go clubbing, dance n hav fun. Bt got foc de kah?"

I was tempted to reply her "mama of two wonderful bb.. "sang sin did" lor.. mama d still wanna go clubbing? should hv tot of it before u got pregnant..."

What makes my statement worst is that she got pregnant out of wedlock, before marriage, but thank God she can still marry the person that got her pregnant.. so ya.. my statement sound very cruel.. thus I didn't post it..

BUT seriously?? What kind of signal are you sending to other mothers especially young mothers? or even younger girls?? or even your children next time?? Don't we have the responsibilty to be responsible? Now that you are a mother. You have more responsibility ler? Never think one ah?? really should have think about our actions before thinking of wanting to go clubbing lor, right? You ask me "wht is wrong with wanting to go clubbing?".. First, it shows that you are not ready to have children for you do not think of sacrificing your own pleasure for them.. worst still clubbing!? You say dance not too bad.. Clubbing?? Find lar a better thing to do rather then clubbing.. can ah?? second.. you know what is the meaning of clubbing or not? if you do, you seriously want your two dugthers to follow your footsteps?? tell me.. seriously?? That could may well be the reason you got pregnant in the first place!! GGgrrrrrrrrr!!!~~~ Why have you not learn from your mistakes?

A lot of ppl out there may be cursing me for sharing my opinion, but let's be honest.. come on.. Don't you think you need to think before you act? Even before you get angry with me? You may even say I should think before I post this post and I'm telling you I have and I cannot accept the thinking of a person who is now trying to raise two beautiful young girls wanting to go clubbing one free night... I don't care about you can afford it or someone can take care of your kids or your husband allows or you are going with a bunch of girls..

If you have not grown up to raise a family or children, please think twice before you have sex. Other ppl will say "Never heard of protection meh.. The point is that you want to go clubbing! at your current status and responsibility, you should not have that desire so you should have thought about that before you got pregnant! That is what I am saying! ah?" ha! You think you know how to use it the first time ah? Even the first time also you can get pregnant one.. Never learn in your science class is it? Now i'm telling you lar.. To the boys, keep your hands to yourself everytime you are on a date! Guys is activated by sight then touch.. and girls, don't simply allow a guy to touch you anywhere.. it's not helping... that whatever romantic feeling u are feeling, i can tell you it is not love! It's call hormones! It's call passion! but it is not love..

Anyway... that is another topic lar.. haih.. just please.. stop indulging in things of your youth that will not benefit u nor ur family... especially when you have children to raise.. having them is s huge responsibility.. it's far more then having puppies..

Awesome quote...

I try to give to the poor people for love what the rich could get for money. No, I wouldn't touch a leper for a thousand pounds; yet I willingly cure him for the love of God. -- Mother Teresa

TheAsiaSpa.. can't wait for my turn!!!

I wanna go for a massage with my frens!!! :D

TheAsiaSpa I am so looking forward to it!! anyone else wanna go with me?? only 3 days to buy the coupon!! ahahaha..

I know many will think that it is a waste of money.. but living in a stressful part of town, to keep myself sane.. I do need some me time.. spending time with God in the morning is one of those me time that I need and another is the quite time with me-self or a friend chatting away.. :)

Just wanna share something nice.. :D Who ever got the coupon! Enjoy it!!