Heart broken

Really heart broken to hear of the death of a child so young.. Any young child for that matter, be it a 12 year old, a 6 year old or an unborn child.. It's just heart breaking!

Worst that it was caused by some inhumane human being!? Why do you have to kill this poor young boy? Have you no conscious? No heart? No BRAIN!!! Yes, the parent made a mistake but they don't deserve to loose their son.. Period!! You have no right to take his life! No one has the right! Aaaagggrrrr!!!

Then a scary thought, what will William's parent do should the perpetrator confessed and asked for forgiveness now?? Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!! He/she will be almost impossible to get that forgiveness!! God asked us to slow in anger and quick to forgive.. Haih.. Hard.. Really hard.. I don't think I could just forgive as easy as I got so worked up in this case.. It's just too much to bare for a mother, for any parent for that matter lor.. May God's grace be upon all of us..

Every time we hear about these cases happening in our country and close to our homes, frightens us.. Our world was not like this right?? I use to be able to walk to school alone!? I use to feel safe as a child playing at the Taman few blocks from my frens house! I use to go to the river and spend time there for hours alone and still feel safe! Where has that world gone to?? Can you tell me where? We as parents cannot be ignorant or arrogant.. Thinking that the world today is the same as it was before.. No no no absolutely not.. We want our children to be safe but not without boundaries.. We can't just have them running around without supervision.. It's a dangerous world out there.. One that they will either face it when they are young and not ready or when they are older, hopefully equip.. We need to protect them especially when they are young.. When they grow to be a teen.. Continue to do so because they are not out of the woods just yet.. We cannot give up on them even when they rebel.. Hang in their parents!!! If you have done all that you can to love, give and teach your children on the right path and still they wanna go their own ways.. Let us all pray.. That they will return to you with a loving heart soon and stop breaking yours.. (Dunno how from a lost of a young child to teens wanting to rebel..)

Cherish life children, cherish your parents, your brothers and sisters, grandparents, uncles n aunties.. I dun need to remind parents to cherish their children.. Coz most parents love them to bits already.. But for us parents.. Teach our children to live,love,last.. "Live a life filled with Love that will Last."

Let us offer a short prayer for William's family.. My love and prayer goes out to those whom have lost a child before. May you find comfort and peace during this trying times.. In Jesus name, Amen..

New year resolutions?? How are we keeping it?

How are you keeping up with your new year's resolutions?? Doing it positively perfect? or can be better? I am sure most of us are in the later category hehehehe.. including me!!

I have improve on somethings on my list like spend less, be on time, be more organized and wake up earlier..  Like I said.. can be better LOL!!! I shall continue to work on these areas and keep a good and healthy schedule.. This year our church is entering into the year of God's Jubilee and I am still trying to soak into the vision.. To rejoice (always), to rest (learning), to release (asking), to restore (please do) and to renew (new me new me!!!)  XD very exciting hor..

As I am preparing for tomorrow's CPY studies.. the Holy Spirit is asking me to do something extra to help the youths.. (i may post this later so it may seem out dated for some of you youth reading this.. LOL).. pretty relevant and significant i guess? I don't know.. even in the beginning of  2013, first month.. many of us are challenged by so many things.. being discouraged left right center top and bottom.. almost to the end of no hope.. scary and depressing..

I will say it again and again that it is expected.. especially those of you who are starting to work, not always because of work.. it's just the season where your eyes & ears sees & hear so many discouragement of the world.. which again I am telling you that this is real and it is painful.. to know the truth about the world.. the world that we, the adults or parents try so hard to protect you from.. the evil, the devious, the cruel, the incurable sickness, the unforgiving world.. Suddenly you realized that the world is full of shattered dreams and broken souls.. people with problems that we never knew.. suffering and inhumanity everywhere.. depressing world we live in..

Some of us, when we were young, keep thinking that our parents is over protective.. don't let us do this or that etc.. you know what I think? If you start to do all the things of the world early.. you may get hooked so badly it is almost impossible for you to climb out of the ditch.. I am not saying that there's no hope, or that Jesus cannot do it.. of course I believe He can if you allow Him to work in you and through you.. anything is possible but what I am saying is that, it breaks our heart to see you go through it.. trust me.. I am a mom and an older women who have known ppl who went through that kind of life and my heart aches every time they dig that ditch, getting themselves deeper and deeper into the world.. be it family or friends..

Sometime when I pray or talk to my toddlers.. I will whisper to them, "Never break mommy's heart ok?" and they will reply softly, "Ok".. :') I believe God is also asking us the same.. "Don't break my heart." of course we have sinned, we have done many wrongs, we have made mistakes and deserve nothing.. but God is always ready to wipe us clean and start again.. always.. So if you are far away from God and knowing that something is missing in your life, don't wait too long to make the decision to come back to Jesus.. Life is short to live a life without God.. and if you think you are living a life where God doesn't approve of.. then I urge and challenge you to take that step of faith (again)!! Commit your life to Him again and live right.. it's not worth living a life without God.. it's not going to be easy.. but it's going to be worth it!!!  

Colourful

Life is suppose to be colourful and beautiful.. But because of sin, we live a tormented and harden one..

I wonder, how does a child living in Palestine would be like? It is beautiful at her end? Would the sun shine so bright that it warms her face and the breeze, would softly brush her hair? Would she wake up to a smile of her love ones and breakfast on her table? Would she be smiling and getting ready for school and excited to see her friends and teachers?

Or she woke up in the cold early morning to work so that she will hv a meal for her day? Or She woke up to the dusty plc where one of the war wreck house was her home? Or she is sitting there crying waiting for her family to find her? Or worst holding the hand of her love ones with blood all over her clothing?

Can we tell her to have a beautiful day?

I offer my heart and prayer for those who are in great pain. Where HOPE is hard to find in the midst of all the chaos. Where the heart is so broken it seems impossible to feel anything anymore but hate, anger and frustration.. Worst.. Just numb.. The heart is harden.. No feelings, no kindness, no love.. It's a scary thought actually..

I hate what war and poverty do to people.. It makes the world such a lousy place to live in.. But I pray that every children who lived through it will know love and hope.. And that life is beautiful for those who love life and cherished every moment of it.. Every breath, every sight, every taste, every touch, every voice brings us joy when we hv a hope of a better future..

May you have a colourful and bright future! Like the rainbow after the rain.. :)

Let's chase the clouds...

Alexander point to the clouds and ask us to chase the clouds.. Everything is possible for a child.. Wish I hv that kind of faith.. 😊 Come, let's chase the clouds... Let's chase the impossible together...

Some ppl would think tt it's naive, that its pointless, that it does not bring any benefits.. Chasing clouds.. What for?! When ppl see the birds fly, they just see the birds fly.. But some dreamed of flying and that is how airplane was inspired..

I wonder can we chase the clouds with a hot air balloon?? Hehehe now that would be fun and scary. Hahaha..

In life, we must be brave enough to go chase our dreams.. But most importantly.. What is our dreams? Many people's dream is to earn more money.. I don't think this dream is a strong enough reason to push anyone, UNLESS, we suffered a lot when we were poor... For most, we can live by no matter with how much money we have.. And money is important, but money can't be a dream, it's a currency, a thing.. A dream is something almost impossible for us to imagine having.. Something that we dream of everyday but others will never think that we can get it or achieved it.. A dream is so intangible (sometimes) it can just be a theory or a philosophy.. A way of life, an impossible life, but made possible by someone who dreams.. Of course dream without action is nothing.. But to embark yourself towards your dream is exciting and at the same time scary..

We are now living in someone's dream. Realize it now? Why don't make your dream a reality one day for others to live in.. Be an inspiration n encouragement to everyone. That someone like us, can make dreams come true..

Let's chase the clouds...

鞋子

哈哈哈 这些鞋子是我少年团员的。当时我们在Broga Hill 生活营。大家都在生活营里过的非常开心！大家都不舍得离开。耶稣赐福所有在场的人，包挎讲师夫妇。神待领我们走向他要我们去的方向，神告诉我们要听他的声音话语，耶稣爱你，你会回报他的爱吗？

Took me 30min to write this!!! Hahaha may even have some wrong words used.. Must practice often to write better hehehe..

It's a rainy day..

And the road is all jammed up! The rain is getting heavier as time pass.. Tick tock tick tock tick tock~~

Thinking about my friend's comment on my reply on her fb status.. :) ah... I love to be the cheerleader.. Holding Pom Pom in my hand and goes, "gimme an S! S!, gimme an M! M! Gimme an I! I! Gimme an L! L! Gimme an E!E! And what do you have?! SMILE!!! Keep on smiling!" Hahahahahahahahaha siok sendiri kakakaka...

Well, we couldn't be a cheerleader without a captain, could We :) i have captain Jesus to thank!! He is my reason for living! He is my hope and my future!! No one is like Him! If you think I can cheer u up all the time, you should meet my captain who is doubly, triply, quadruply, simply the best person to encourage, assure n reassure you all the time!

Everything is beautiful, in His time...

Some flowers bloom sooner, some bloom later.. But surely the flowers will bloom.. Only God knows the right time for certain flower to bloom.. And when it does, it will be the most beautiful flower you'll ever seen!!!

Be patience with urself n trust in God, He will help you through what ever failure, hard time n doubt that you are experiencing.. Remember that failure is just an event, it does not define who you are.. Pain is a feeling that will go away in due time.. Doubt comes when we are lost but Jesus hv a way for us... You have the victory in you and that you are successful in God's eye when we live in His will..

Remember that Jesus loves you... No matter what.. The question is, will you love back...

My small town of Tuaran where I grew up..

My goodness how much had changed!! I cannot recognise my kindergarten wn primary school at all.. Much have changed and its almost unrecognisable!

I am very blessed.. I know that and I owe it all to Jesus, my mom, my family, my friends, my church and my youths.. They are part of my life and as I grow older, I get to relive some of my younger years by sharing my experience.. And most of the things I remembered was the good ones :) moments where I learn the most.. Where I grew the most.. Where I cried the most.. Where I reflected the most.. Where I rely on God the most.. Even the bad memories put a smile on my face now, because it is no more painful but rather a victory as it was challenges that I had overcome.. I thank God for His strength, grace n joy...

First Sunday of the year!!!

Awesome morning!! The sun is sunny and bright!! And my whole family n I are up n abound on the way to Summit Hotel for our yearly New Life churches meeting!! Woohoo!!!

One of my new year resolution is to be on time for everything!! Last year my family n I have been slacking on timing :P sorry to all that was affected by it.. I was not like tt last time I was so on time that we use to penalise those who comes in late.. Having 2 kids, work n ministry.. I need some rest..

I realised that this year will be my 10th official year that I serve in the youth ministry! It was the year tt we decided to move our youth meeting from a home base to the church hall.. Of course i was serving 1-2 years before that d lar.. But 2003 was the year huge changes was under going way.. And I also realised that at that time I hv a lot of energy in me that I use it fully for the ministry, I was involve in worship as support singer regularly, cg meetings every week without fail with Nigel or even before Nigel came to our church, then Saturday's meeting n Sunday service also never fail to attend unless the occasional trip back Kk, cny n company training trips.. Even after training finishes on a Saturday afternoon I will make it for CPY meeting in the evening.. I don't think I hv ever complain about it because I enjoyed it n I really love the youths.. I understand tt it's not easy to be a teenager trying to fit in and growing to be an adult..

Now that I have a family of my own, I dun hv that luxury of freedom anymore as I have a more important commitment to carry at this point of my life, but it doesn't mean that I have deserted the youth n take advantage of them to take on the responsibility of the ministry all on their own.. I am still there for everyone.. Am I not?

This year's church theme is called.. The year of Jubilee!!! Hurray! Celebrate the 5 R!!
Renew
Release
Restore
Rest
Rejoice

Soooo happy!!! It's just want I needed for this year!!! So timely n wonderful theme for everyone!!

Talking about wonderful, sharing some wonderful pasar mlm photo from Kk, Sabah.. The food stalls n the food was ok.. But the atmosphere n smell of the food was fantastic.. Got me so excited when I got there to buy my dinner hehehe.. It was a great trip home last year.. Jesus is really good to me despite my flaws.. If someone like me can be bless n loved by God, you are too..

Free Moo cards!!!! I love it!!!

Moo-verlous!! Hahaha very nice ler.. Cuteness in small packages.. I have some to my youths, friends n send it to my old friends.. Since we took photos using our hand phones now a days, it's not likely we can print it out in the normal 4R or 3R photo print.. It may be very blurt or pixelated.. So small prints is just nice hehe.. It's a blessing!! To have seen the promotion in time to order.. God is so good but why I am still so wimpy? Haih...

I can really eat!!!!

Hahahaha.. I had two plates of food last year!! I can have it again but not everyday lar.. Hehehe... Ah.. I love food. Dun u!! ?