Regrets....

Do you have any regrets? Things you have not done and time have just drifted away? Things you didn't get to say or do for someone? A close friend, a family member, someone special?

Been thinking of a friend lately.. her name is Flora Fung Yun Thau. A secondary school friend that i have lost contact with. We were very very close and her parents thrusted me to take good care of her everytime we go out together. (over protective i guess..) But i guess i have not really been a real friend as i didn't have the guts to share true happiness i have in Chirst when i had the chance to.

She had a difficult life, she have better grades than me, more capable and hard working than me and still she gets cheated, bullied and betrayed by other ppl when she was studying in college. Some more by our own friends.

I remember telling her not to go to Nic Wong's church becuase they pray in the Holy Spirit which was then, very creepy to us. I am so stupid! If i would have encouraged her to go and put my own misunderstanding aside i could have save her life. Now, i can't do anything. I am such a fool!

I sometimes cry for her and for myself as i truly feel that she deserve the love of Christ. I pray that she now knows our Saviour and live a great life dispite her family circumstances. I pray i could see her again as i miss her very much and if i do, i will never be a fool again.

Lord, love my friend Flora.

21x 7 Tags

[Seven Things I'm Experiencing Now]
1. God’s work in my life
2. God’s work in other people’s life
3. Loved, even with adversaries
4. Nervous as I prepare for my wedding and marriage life
5. Excited as I pray for family, frens & CPY
6. Fun as I answer these questions
7. Hungry wanna have dinner soon.

[Seven Things I'm Thinking About Now]
1. What to eat later?
2. Can go home soon.
3. What should we get for KS?
4. Planning for what to do later
5. Helping fren on their work
6. When are they going to reply their msn?
7. Should call someone later

[Seven Things I'm Worrying About]
1. Have I been a good follower of Chirst?
2. Have I been a good example and mentor to others?
3. My family & Frens who haven't receive Salvation
4. My finance
5. My Wedding day
6. Condition of CPY
7. Meeting my target for this month!

[Seven Things I'm Happy About]
1. That Jesus loves me very much
2. Jesus loves my family and friends a lot
3. I have wonderful family and friends.
4. I have a Purpose!
5. Having Nigel
6. Able to serve in Youth Ministry
7. Able to work!

[Seven People I Treasure], no limits…
1. My God (father, son and the holy spirit)
2. My family (Nigel,mom, Kenn,Ryenn,Edward, uncle Yap, Dad, Sly, Jose, Darren, my Grandparents)
3. My spiritual family (Jeacie,Kat, Sharon, Ye lane,Joanna, Michelle S,TC,Pastor Jeff, Ben, Logan, Julian,Nic, Jeff, Lit Yen)
4. My friends (Chris, Lydia.Mas Mai,Lee Lin,Yee Vun, Alice etc
5. my spiritual children (Rebecca,Steph, KS, Jenny, Abigail.,Jon, David, James,Bryan, Dexter.)
6. The Poor (reminds me of who I was and where I was from)
7. The Wise (Fear the Lord is the root of all wisdom)

[Seven Things I Always Touch or Come In Contact With]
1. my phone
2. Purse
3. Bible
4. Computer
5. Cup of tea
6. Diary & Pen
7. People

[Seven Things I Want to Improve]
1. My Prayer life
2. Singing
3. mentoring
4. God’s presence in my life
5. discipline
6. creativity
7. my skin tone

[Seven Things I'm Strong In],
1. Listening
2. Give good advise
3. Positive and cheerful
4. Passionate
5. making ppl smile
6. public speaking
7. being creative

[Seven Things I'm Weak In]
1. Studies
2. discipline
3. Saving $
4. Doing this test... so long
5.
6.
7.

[Seven Things I Adore Eating]
1. Salad
2. Fries
3. Burger King
4. Chicken wings
5. Potato Chips
6. Nuts – almond, hazel
7. Ice-cream cake

[Seven Things I Adore Drinking],
1. Hot Earl Grey Tea
2. Hot white coffee..
3. Soup
4. Hot Mint Tea
5. Hot Lemon Grass Tea
6. Water melon Juice
7.

[Seven Things I Detest]
1. People who take advantage of others
2. People who are rude and unreasonable
3. People with no manners
4. People with no compassion
5. People who thinks sinning is ok
6. People who mislead others into doing the wrong things
7. Abuser, rapist

[Seven Things I Cannot Live Without]
1. Jesus
2. Word of God
3. My Family and Friends
4. God’s help, protection and presence
5. my memories
6. my heart and soul
7. Nigel

Seven Things I Fear to Show]
1. my mistakes
2. my younger self
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

[Seven Things I'll Never Want to Talk About],
1. Gossips
2. Wrestling
3. Porns
4.
5.
6.
7.

[Seven Things I Will Want to Do]
1. Have a good rest
2. Have a vacation going for one soon yea!!!
3. Do good in everything I do
4. wash my hair
5. Learn to be dependant on God
6. Live healthy
7. Spend more time with myself, family n friends

[Seven Things I Will Never Play Around When/With]
1. Someone is sharing their problems or troubles
2. Praying with someone or to someone
3. Teach the youth
4. Scold ppl
5. Listening to my mom n Jeacie’s advise
6. Relationships
7. other people’s feelings

[Seven Things I Wonder About]
1. I wonder why I have to wonder?
2. I wonder when Jesus is coming back for us..
3. I wonder how am I going to finish this 7 tags
4. I wonder how I can have a great wedding day
5. I wonder how I can cook better
6. I wonder how can I be more like Jesus
7. I wonder why teen now a days behaving this way.

[Seven Questions I Hope My Friends Would Respond To]
1. Our friendship
2. What can I improve
3. Do you love me?
4. How did I make a difference in ur life
5. How have I been a good fren
6. What would you remember most about me
7. Would you take care of the ones I love most after I die?

[Seven Things (or People) I Would Love to See]
1. Wonders of God, His miracles
2. People’s tears of joy
3. A strong youth ministry
4. People’s smiles n laughter
5. People having fun
6. Other countries, vacation
7. New heaven and new earth

[Seven People I Wanna Tag] Dunno who lar.
1. Wai Wai lar.

Tagged by Becky..

5 MORE things you dunno about me...

1. I killed a chic (little chicken) before. It was so so cute i squeezed the fella until it have no breath and died! i think i got real scared of the incident that i erased it from my memory but my mom still remember the incident and she still laughed about it. (She tot it was cute. duh?) I remembered holding the chic but not killing it.. but i did.. :(

2. I stood up for my fren when the guy that she like didn't show up for a date. It was her birthday and she was so excited that the guy agreed to come out to meet her. She waited for a few hours and the guy didn't show up so she went home disappointed and of course cried. I can't stand it so i got his number and called him (mind you, i have never spoken to this guy b4 and i dun even really know him. He was just our Senior.) I told him tt he was a jerk by letting a girl wait for him and and never even showed up! That was unacceptable! he was of course shocked that i called and apologized to me and my fren. In the end, my fren became good frens with the guy.. hahaha all is well...

3. I was qualified and accepted to become an SIA air stewardess before. it was a great feeling! hahaha coz it wasn't easy to get the job, so many test and you can only come out top, the first, to get to the finals. Over thousands of girls they only choose about 20-25 girls. So i am very very happy i was one of the 25 girls. Didn't accept the job because i will be bonded for 5 years if i did, if 2 or 3 years I would have gone and try it out but for 5 years!? Nah, i have better things to do :)

4. I dun drink cold soya drink. I only drink hot one.. unless i'm super thirsty and no other drinks available then may be i'll consider. Weird but true..

5. One of my most memorable birthday gift(s) is from my mom. At age 7, she got me 7 little gift. Warped with news papers, each of them were my fav junk food. Was very poor so junk food is a luxury :) it was a thrill to open the gifts one by one on my old bed with my mom smiling next to me. I can still remember the joy as i unwrapped those wonderful and thoughtful gift. It was special.

Its a Wonderful Life

It’s such a wonderful life :) it comes with all the rejections, disappointments, sadness, pain, betrayal and all that. All in all, it’s a great life. I love my life, do you like yours?

Didn’t have a good family, so God gave me an awesome one; didn’t have money or wealth like everyone else, so God provided everything needed; didn’t have much friends when I was young, so God become one of my best of friends and gave me mush more later; didn’t have a much intelligence, actually I am considered the silliest girl, so God gave me proverbs; most of all, didn’t really had a father, so God assured me that He is mine. J Wonderful don’t you think?

What ever I’ve lost, God restored; what ever I don’t have, God redeemed; what ever I needed, God provided; what ever I desire (according to His will), God gives.

God gives me hope in the morning and faith at night, most of all He gave me love all through out the day..

Can’t really imagine my life without Jesus, if I could it will look pretty gloomy, dark and depressing. So I pray a prayer long time ago, “If ever I were to back slide, God please take me home before that happens because I can’t live a life without you through eternity.”

I love my life coz I love God, do you?

“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matt 6:33-34

A friend called Josephine..

This is a name i remember since i was young. A far related cousin and a good childhood friend. Actually.. My best friend ever!! I seriously dunno where to start.. it will be a long story and many will not truly understand our relationship.. we are not Les ok but we love each other very very much.. like Jonathan and David in the Bible :)

We grew up together, from the same kindergarden and primary school.. we know each other's family and we are very very close as we always visits each other. We share our thoughts and dreams;our pain and sufferings; our good times and our bad. We were like twin sisters! where ever one goes the other would be near by.. our teachers use to mixed us up! hahaha.. i'm jose nad she is Susana.. heehehee She looks pretier of course, with big dark eyes, long hair and thick rose bud lips :) a sweet girl in deed.

The most memorable moment was this one time my whole class bullied me and do not want to be friend me (areally childish k.. for very silly reason too..) but she was the only one who stood up and make a stand for me even though only 2 of us knew, i was still comforted :) she said " i will still be your friend ok?......."

we were very close, so close until i dare to scold her just becuase i do not like to be disturbed while i was doing my homework.. I only scold close friends and she was the first one :P its not fair i know, but its when i can truly be myself.. (i did explain to her and said sorry k.. i was not without manners or understanding).. The best part! she still loves me any way...

I remember when i was studying in KL in year 2000 i had a very bad dream about her and it left me without peace.. it really bothered me.. i prayed and i tried to called and write letters to her but no reply.... i was so so worried.. until i go back to Sabah and went looking for her and saw her tt she was safe and healthy, then only i have peace.. and you know what? during the time i had that bad dream about her.. she was actually facing a crisis!! wow! what a miracle! God really send His massages through dreams, if not i would not know and would not have prayed for her safety and God's protection. It didn't happend exactly i dream of (thank God it wasn't.) but it was a distress call..

So, my best friend is married now.. to a wonderful guy called Victor :) i'm sure they'll make a great family together.. Soon i'll have a family too and then may be our children will become best of friends also.. :) i love my sister Josephine Chang...

Tears to my eyes...

Was reading about a story of how a girl lost her legs and her father when a bomb struck her home in Bosnia. It brought back a sad memory tt i have read in the local news paper about a father and son.

I saw 3 pictures in the news paper that captured my eyes. 3 very heart breaking pictures i will never ever forget.

Its was about a gun flight between 2 parties and as you may have guessed the father and son was "in between" the gun flight. First Picture, Father and son hugging each other in fright; father and son crying fearing for thier life. Second Picture, Father raised his hand to plead the shotters to stop as they are in danger; pleading... begging. Third Piture, father and son's body laying dead on the same spot.

I can never forget the face of that man. His face shows deep sadness and pain; in fear of not only his own life but the life of his dear son. His tears on his face broke my heart, his eyes was red and teary.

War is real. Many people have great and wonderful lives but they throw it away for thrills and wasted thier lives on drugs, discos, alchohol and prostitution. For some having to live, just being alive is more precious than gold.

"Love is like wildflowers. Its often found in the most unlikely places." ~H. Jackson Brown, Jr

PC fair

Today is a fun and tiring day as we went to PC fair. Logan, Sharon, Wai wai, Nigel and me.. it was not a good experience as its really troublesome to go from one place to another. It was fun as Sharon and I had a short chat as we rested (when the guys went shopping.).

We had lunch with the whole gang (except Elaine as she have lunch with her family.) you know.. the usual young adult group... we met Pastor & family, Thomas & family, Mrs. Saw & family, Joon Lang & family (and a friend), not forgetiing Mr Beh & family, and Kenneth :) It looks like out church over took 3/4 of the restaurant. hahaha.. the younger children was sitted in one table and they asked me to think of a game.. sori guys.. no idea at tt moment..

Nigel is very happy to get a 4G USB drive for RM115... Got a wireless adaptor, new catridge and emthy CDs. It was a fun experience for Nigel, Logan and Wai wai.. tiring experience for Sharon and me...