4 years ago today

I remembered that I was on my way to HUKM hospital for my check up. It was a sunny n bright morning, reached hospital bout 930-10am and once we sat down for just 5-10min I was escorted to wait in a room.. We must have our baby today!! Contraction has already started but no dilation, it's dangerous if kept too long, baby will get stressed so I will need to be prep now n induced...
No food no water since morning.. Nurses prep me in the delivery room, water broke artificially by doctor Paul and water gush out! Warm :D graphic enough?? Start induce at 3pm, pain starts at 6pm, slowly but surely the pain increases and it occurred more frequent with every breath.. Contraction comes and go but Hubby stayed by me all the way.. As I was in and out trying to rest after one contraction after the other, I saw Jesus standing by me, next to hubby.. Holding my hand in silence and very assuring and safe.. I feel safe.. It's not an angel but Jesus was with me.. I am safe..
I was so thirsty I asked for some water, but I can't drink any, so the mid wife rub some water in my lips but asked me not to drink just wet the lips...
At 11pm, hubby couldn't stand the pain I am going through coz I keep asking "can I push now, can I push now." but dilation has yet reached the min length so I have to bare with waiting in pain.. So hubby asked for the epidural for me, I remembered he telling me to take it so that when I push, it will not be stressful for my back or spine. Doctor came n jap in epidural into my spine.. It did not ease the pain in time coz at mid night my doctor asked me to get ready to push.
In 4 push!!! My pretty Alexander was born on the 1st November 2008 at 00:11am :) it is such a joy to held him for the first time... If I was not so dehydrated, I would have tears, so I cried with no tears.. When I look closely towards my new born.. First thing I thought of was "wow, you sure looks like your father.."

Now I am hooked!

Haih.. Just like sushi, I use to not like it.. Until I keep trying it for the sake of my frens, I end up loving it!! What am u hooked on now?? Korean shows :O I dun like to watch tv, especially Korean shows... I really use to hate it. But after it is now part of my job and I watch a lot of shows, now I am hooked on Maaduu free Korean dramas!! Next time my blog will be talking a lot on movies geh lar... What I think you should watch if u login to Maaduu right now?? Arang and the Magistrate!!! Most popular right now :)

IMPERFECT movie premier

More than just about gangsterism, it's about how naive we can be when it comes to this issue. "brother" is so important meh? Human will always fail humans.. It's also talks about chances, not just second, not just third but as long as you admitted your wrongs (pay ur dues), repent and change, there's always hope for everyone... It's a good show.. I recommend it.. It's not super fantastic but it's a story that we can relate n learn to understand.. It is also a real social issue we face here in Malaysia.

The only thing I find it really really annoying is the annoying little sister who is so clinging and annoying.. Keep calling her brother "gor~~~ gor~~~ " and crying and the more annoying "gor~~ gor~~~" Wah!!! I cannot stand it!! It's so over ok! I understand she is trying to be cute or suppose to be cute and adorable but seriously, it's getting on my nerves... Beh tahan.

I dun think there r any good looking guys coz even though they are god looking, their character are very local and "market" feel.. Down to earth lar but not the Andy Lau, stylist kinda feel.. You know how you can be down to earth and still have that stylist feel for the characters?? No one has it here.. The best actor in my humble opinion is the bad guy, .. He is really a good actor.. The action part of the movie is quite good.. A bit bloody but all the kicking n defending looks natural... Rain end the end a bit too heavy.. I know lar, wanna make it drama..

Overall, good show.. Moral of the story is good.. Action n story line not bad.. Bad guy was ichiban!

Tea time...

Hmmm... Nice cheese cake by Happy Chef restaurant only on Mondays... No heavy cheese taste so for me, it's just nice...

I suddenly have a new resolution before the end of the year.. And a character that I want to cultivate within me that I think is truly important and that I lack.. Eh wait, I think I have two character traits I need to develope starting now.. Ggrrr.. It's going to be hard coz it's not my nature but I have done it before, well one of it, I should be able to nurture it again faster then the other one..

I am talking to myself only making sense to myself today :D good, let it be a puzzle for you hehehe...

It hurts

Have you ever been in a situation where an unfortunate person's opinion was being put aside as unimportant and you feel you were like him/her before??

When those that put ur opinions asides were your good friends? Even to be considered as family? Did that to you?

I have only 2 words for that, "it hurts".

When it happened in my youth and I sat there not sure to laugh or to cry to the deliberate joke when ones opinion, be it important to others or not, just be disregarded.. Purposefully.. Worst still I dun even know Did I do it also at the same time!!?? It troubles me.. I truly feel that I have fail that one person that needed me most at the time.. He/she may not feel it, but I do.. Later, after the joke was made obvious to me..

We do not know how vulnerable we can be when we fail someone that is counting on us to be there for them and we did not.. When I realise it, I feel it's too late.. To late to make any amends..

Should I, like last time, withdraw myself from the group of ppl that make fun of others as a habit? Coz I tell u I can be worst then them, because I observe everyone n knows them by heart, I can be very nasty if i just let my lip loose... But by doing that, i will be an out cast, unrelated and uninvolved??

Classroom ans would be just remove urself from the group lar... I am sure this will be one of the ans my youth will give. But it's not that simple.. Coz I think it has more to do with me, then with them...

Even though I lead, I dun lead well..in many ways I am very childish n sanguine.. It's my nature. Yet I do my best to do what is right.. Wisdom is not natural for me, nor do I claim I have it much.. If I have a shred of wisdom, it's all from God's grace..

A new challenge I am facing, I think everyday, oh Lord, give me Your wisdom n strength once again, this time, more.

Woke up with a head ache today

Could be because of last night, head wet by rain and straight went to bed.. Late for church now and still feeling dizzy.. When I woke up this morning.. Minnie my black n white tse tzu, woke me up with a cute face..

But my daughter was the one that made the most noise.. "mommy mommy~~~ hewp me~~ hewp me~~~" and where was she? Just on the floor, waiting for me to 'save' her.. Buat pasal only...

Time to chill

Work can be really hectic and stressed out.. You know what my boss asked me to do when it's too overwhelming? Yup!! She asked me to go buy food n eat!! :D I am gaining weight thanks to this brilliant advise.. Me gaining weight is not a bad thing, I am glad that I am but I think I need to gain it healthier.. Must do some exercise n stretching too. Discipline is key!! And I lack so much of it...

I have a good fren whose will power is very strong thus his self control n discipline is like automatic. I admire his commitment n ability to do so.. :)

I am on my way for my son's therapy session.. He is not able to speak properly n we suspect that he is a bit autistic.. Some say it's good to detect early while some say why we label our child like Tt so young? Haih.. Hard to be a parent hor.. Everyone has their opinions, even between me n my hubby, we were brought up diff n hv diff type of thinking in how to bring our children up.. To be honest, it drives me crazy!! This type of stress cannot be cured with a simple food therapy.. I need God's peace.. Coz food is jut temporary.. Like work, it will get done eventually, but life is on going.. Never the end until it ends.. So prayer n God's assurance is the only thing can get me/us through the day sane.. Nwe r all learning to enjoy life, but don't forget that our life is not that short, there's eternal life and we should focus more on that life rather then the one we are living now.. Not until we loose sight of today or this life but just enough to know that we don't belong here, eventually we belong in eternity...

Korean movie overload

For the past 5 days I hv been watching Korean movies in the office.. It's my job to know my content so I need to do home work.. I know to many it's really a great job, can watch movies n series during working hours wor!!! Wah!!! Not at all.. U know having to do something too much is actually really tiring you know.. I use to watch no tv at all during my uni time.. Very min tv as I like to read comics lol but it has been an experience watching maaduu for a week... Hope I can stop soon...

More work to come soon.. Gambateh!!! In Korea, they alway say 'Flighting'!!

My new fancy...

I love the gentle and smoothing feel after applying the toner on my face (sensitive skin) 

I feel refreshed and pretty.. I know.. how can a toner makes someone feel like tt.. haha. 

Like Kose's lotion, which is something like a toner, just not called toner.. is very mild and gentle.. Origin's toner smells like mushrooms though.. :P but it's ok.. it actually reminds me of the toner SPA center uses after a facial.. really. it does.. but it is a bit expensive.. RM140 for a med size bottle..  

Didn't want to get one but because there was a promotion and the good lady already gave me some samples.. I was tempted.. LOL.. but i got free gifts too!!! and According to the sales girl, this only happens once a year.. (I wonder if it's true?sorry for being sooo skeptical, I dun believe everything I hear. Especially in the beauty industry..)

Oh well... I am very happy with the Origin's product.. :) especially the Mushroom range for sensitive skin.. It would be my next product of choice after I have finish using the rest of my Kose products. 

I have been spending lately?? not lately.. just once a while.. :) thus all this beauty products updates and ranting.. :P

Marketing promo gone bad..

You remembered the last time I told you about this brand that the sample was so happens to have no more stock when I went to redeemed it on the 7th of last month?? This was the brand lar.. of course some of the ppl got it.. and yes, perhaps it is not a scam.. 

BUT, when your free sample have run out, I think the company have the responsibility to NOT distribute FREE VOUCHERS to ppl to go and collect free samples anymore lor.. OR at least informed your "future clients" that there is no more free sample at certain areas if you still want to give our free vouchers on your FB page?? 

Further more you never attend to our frustration when we express it in your FB site.. not even an apology!  I wanted to buy and give it a try but I am totally banning your brand for the bad customer service that your company provides.  

In memory of a great woman..

I went for a funeral today.. Auntie Lye, my previous mentor's mom passed away last night... She had breast cancer 8 yrs ago n recently the cancer cell reoccurred again in her lungs n shoulder.. She put up a good fight no doubt but most of all, she has a peaceful n calm spirit.. She did not accept fate, but rather she accept the challenges before her and I believe she was really strong.. God has alway been by her side and she knows it.. I believe God is really proud of her, as we are so proud of her too.. She never blame anyone for her misfortune.. She was indeed strong in faith.. She knew who she must focus on during these tough times.. may she smile upon her children n her grandchildren from heaven n know that because of her faith, God's blessing shall flow throughout her future generation...

My prayer that her family will be strong too... Surely she will be missed n fond memories of her shall bring tears to our eyes.. But the joy of knowing tt now she is home, truly home with the Lord is great and tt we will see her again should we too keep the faith, will some how give us peace..

Auntie Lye has been a great encourager, testimony n person.. Surely be missed but shall never be forgotten..

Oppa Gangnam Style Tee!!!

hahahahahaha.. this is cute and funny.. WOW.. this is really that popular huh?? it goes to say that you don't need to sing obscene words, curse all the way or share intimate info in a song to become popular (I dun think Gangnam Style got any of the mentioned, right?).. It could just be fun and funny! My son not only loves PSY Gangnam Style but also watched The making of Gangnam Style and another MV of PSY for Korea for the Olympics.. very semangat one PSY's songs.. 

This is selling it at Milkadeal Check it out if you are interested.. hehehe.. i love how the front looks.. but I wouldn't get it lar.. it's just not my style.. hmm... unless my whole family can wear it.. LOL.. like promoting PSY like tt... Don't think they come with kid's size though.. and my little girl loves PSY's songs too.. I personally find i very entertaining.. first time I watched it, I despise it!! but after a while.. it sort of grow on me.. :) coz it made me laugh and later it made my children laugh; My husband was already smiling when the song was out on YouTube.. 

So!! How many of you is PAY's fan?? :) Go get one for urself then.. perhaps.. may be?? ;D

Oppa Gangnam Style!! Yea!

Sales gimmick, unethical sales girl or mere coincidence?

I went to get the sample on the 2nd oct ok... Even Clarins still hv sample.. Wht brand is this that they ran out of stock on the 2nd day??? Wht?? It's ridiculous ok?!
Me was not up set but not happy lor. There was another promotion for another product that was also a flop! Many ppl in KL was not happy about it.. How I knew? They complain on their fb page.. I will take their photo n share which product.. Coz I really want to someone to explain n perhaps someone out there knows something about it.. N btw,I summit my concern but they didnt even bother to reply me or other ppl... Makes us more up set!
Cool cool stay cool... There are many good companies out there that is ethical with excellent customer service..

Origins

:D went for a mini facial using these products. Not bad.. Feels light n soothing.. Expensive though.. And because the product for sensitive skin is made out of mushroom.. I can smell mushroom on my face.. Hahaha..

After the mini facial I got 2 small sample from Origins. Nice! If you want to try it.. Go on to their fb page n pick their superstar product, fill in ur details and then you'll receive an sms bout the mini facial.. Call one of the outlet nearest to you and make an appt! I went to the Garden, mid valley branch.. It was a good n pleasant experience.. Iry Tan was very polite n nice..