4 years ago today

I remembered that I was on my way to HUKM hospital for my check up. It was a sunny n bright morning, reached hospital bout 930-10am and once we sat down for just 5-10min I was escorted to wait in a room.. We must have our baby today!! Contraction has already started but no dilation, it's dangerous if kept too long, baby will get stressed so I will need to be prep now n induced...
No food no water since morning.. Nurses prep me in the delivery room, water broke artificially by doctor Paul and water gush out! Warm :D graphic enough?? Start induce at 3pm, pain starts at 6pm, slowly but surely the pain increases and it occurred more frequent with every breath.. Contraction comes and go but Hubby stayed by me all the way.. As I was in and out trying to rest after one contraction after the other, I saw Jesus standing by me, next to hubby.. Holding my hand in silence and very assuring and safe.. I feel safe.. It's not an angel but Jesus was with me.. I am safe..
I was so thirsty I asked for some water, but I can't drink any, so the mid wife rub some water in my lips but asked me not to drink just wet the lips...
At 11pm, hubby couldn't stand the pain I am going through coz I keep asking "can I push now, can I push now." but dilation has yet reached the min length so I have to bare with waiting in pain.. So hubby asked for the epidural for me, I remembered he telling me to take it so that when I push, it will not be stressful for my back or spine. Doctor came n jap in epidural into my spine.. It did not ease the pain in time coz at mid night my doctor asked me to get ready to push.
In 4 push!!! My pretty Alexander was born on the 1st November 2008 at 00:11am :) it is such a joy to held him for the first time... If I was not so dehydrated, I would have tears, so I cried with no tears.. When I look closely towards my new born.. First thing I thought of was "wow, you sure looks like your father.."