Our little "joker".. LOL

Seriously funny... wht to do... kids mar.. sure eat like tt lar.. ok... not all kids.. just my kids i guess.. ahahaha.. I still think letting him eat like this is alright... but not all the time lar.. :P (i think i allow it all too often..)

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Alexander is no angel.. but he is the center of attention with his stunts and charm.. I hope he will be more careful as he grows and stay safe all the time..

So proud..

I wonder how many young ppl still actually read my blog? ahahah not many I suppose.. Unless I inform them on FB that I up dated it a guess... :)

This post I'd like to dedicate it to my young ppl in church.. who have worked sooooo hard and so much afford have been put into the Christmas celebration! The whole service was superb and fun! I really think they did a great job and I can't wait to see wht is in stored next year when they plan for the year's activities and studies..

Eventhough the mime was not fully understood by the older generations.. I truly believe that it has spoken to many ppl during the service.. I know the way tt young ppl do things now a days is a bit 'off key' sometimes and they need a lot of guidance and pointers and reminders.. but I also believe that sometimes, we need to just let them take the lead at certain things... (when they are ready, not everything but somethings..) Most importantly is that they are willing to put in that effort and hard work.. that commitment and focus..

Thank you guys.. it was great work!

Rejections...

Ever felt rejected before? always you say?? ya.. me too.. :(

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And you think that you'll get over it and when the next rejection come, we can handle it better.. eh.. If that is the case, I dun think I can handle rejection at all... haih...

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I had to be honest with how i feel... I will be as polite and kind as I possibly could but that is how I feel at the time and I need to express it.... feeling rejected and unwanted, not needed..

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haih.. but I know I cannot always be like this.. but I care... that is why i feel tt way.. should I not care? So I do not feel tt way? eh.. eh.. eh...? haih... perhaps I should just learn to take rejection like a man.. i mean.. like a woman.. u know.. strong and lady like :P

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I've always been the black sheep in a way... or may be that is how I myself see it? Not part of the 'group', not in the 'gang'.. loner.. I tried not to make others feel rejected, but why do I always feel tt way ler? Could be just ME.. my weakness.. my own selfishness.. is it?

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Anyway... Even if I feel hurt or rejected.. I will not allow that feeling to turn to unforgiveness or hate.. coz that will hinder God's work and all tt I hv done may just go down the drain just because of one sin.. I WILL NOT ALLOW IT!!! Devil! Dun hold me down with lies!! I will not be defeated by it.. I may feel bad and down at the time.. but I will not stay down for long.. Coz i got Jesus!!! He showed me the redemption he has for me everytime I feel tt way.. :) and It's just perfect!

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Lord, You are so awesome.. thank you for opening my eyes.. and my heart.. amen..

I am Successful :') as He said I would..

Many years ago, I remember feeling very down and confuse.. I do not know where should I go from there onwards.. Should I stay or should I go back.. I was only in my second year in uni and going into my third.. but I was really struggling about where my future would be..

I prayed and prayed and prayed.. then one day.. I heard God's voice very clearly and He said, "You will be sucessful." then I said, " What? How? What do You mean by sucessful?".... then total silence.. "God, if that was You could you repeat what You just said? I know I heard You but just to make sure You know...".......Silence...." Please???"....silence.. (ok.. so what do You mean by Sucessful? successful in what? In my career? Financial? in my marriege? Overall-what ever tt is... WHAT? by what stadard? Whose standards? God's?~~ what is God's standard on being sucessful? what?) .. In the end.. I knew without a shadow of a doubth tt that was God's voice coz I would had never thought of tt ans.. (Ans that gave me more questions than ans my prayer.. duh.. I'm not tt confused..)

I hold on to that promised and stayed on.. and no matter what happens.. even when i fail in many ways.. I remembered that promised God made to me.. I hold on to it with my dear life and I believe that it will come true... one day.. but dunno when.. dunno how... DON'T even know what success truly is... (or mean based on God's character, values and standards)..

I always tell my young ppl about this.. ahahahaha... It sounds silly, i know!.. They would be thinking, "But Susana, You are not sucessful yet right? (or you are???huh?) How can you be so sure that it is from God? and that you can be so proud to claim that GOD have promised you that you would be sucessful when you are not yet sucessful? Duh lar like tt..?" :P true.. I dun blame them (if they think tt way... I totally understand..) I was still serching for that meaning of success... the secure future.. the high class career.. the noble deeds.. the praise worthy work...

I said "was"..... you know why? :D (huge grin!!!)

I always love Christmas Eve.. It brings back loads of beautiful childhood memory... Happy birthday Jesus.. You deserve all our praise.. We love you...

Lord, here I am..

Many people struggle with this question....

When is the best time for us to serve God?

"Not me, I'm a nobody. Wait till I make it in life first?"
"Not yet, I'm too young to serve. It's too serious and hard."
"Nah, never. Not my kinda thing."
"Who me? What can I do at this old age?"
"I have better things to do lar. My exams is just around the corner."
"God don't need me, He can ask other people. I'm busy with my things."
"I'm so busy with so many things, wait lar. When I am more free. I'll think about it."
"Not now, I'm not ready. I need to do this and that first then only I qualify."
and the list goes on and on and on..

Do you know when is the RIGHT time to serve God? huh?

Broken pieces...

Where are the pieces? Have you given them all?
If u still wanna keep some, I can't help you at all..
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You know that I want to, take ur hand and rescue u;
but first you have to, give me ur all, all of u..
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I know it's hard to give up some, painful and hurtful things;
but know that I am with you, for you and in every missing links.
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You don't have love, don't have joy, don't have peace;
Coz I am your love, your Joy and yes you are right, I am your peace.
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My birthday is coming soon, may not be the actual day;
It is still meaningful to me and all who celebrate and pray.
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I do not ask for a perfect gift, eventhough that is what I deserve to receive;
I only ask for your broken heart, so I can mend, love and give you peace..

What a busy December 2010...

Loads to do!!! And I dun have enough time to do everything!!! Everything I want that is.. I'm only human right... but i do try.. I really really tried... Until i so tired d...

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Thanks to hubby who was so kind to have helped be 'close' up every night for the past few days so I can rest early... NOW! I'm more energized!!! Thanks honey.. u r so sweet! ;*

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I'm looking forward for Christmas this year because our youth is actually in charged of the whole celebration~~! a bit stress also coz if anything goes wrong.. my neck would be on the chopping board... I was sooooo looking forward for the youth camp too!!! Eventhough I couldn't make it.. I knew tt it will be a great and womderful camp for everyone!!! and it was!.. Loads of testimonies too.. awesome!.. I hope young ppl will get their ans soon from God.. but i still believe God will have His timing.. Some of us may get the ans sooner than others while some of us needs to go through certain things first before we can appreciate or learn the meaning of the the ans.. (eh.. am I making any sense?)

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Anyway... I'm praying for you guys out there who are still searching for the ans from God!!! Never give up! Always hang on!! Jesus is not too far to reach... He is just next to u.. always.. (Even though everyone knows tt for a fact, we sometimes still dun get it.. so we need to be reminded daily that He is always there, through His words...)

3 wonderful years in marriege :')

Happy Wedding Anniversary Honey :)

What a wonderful 3 years of our lives together..

May our Lord Jesus continue to be the center of our union and love..

..I love you..

To my depress fren..

I want to encourage you to be bold and courageous! I know it is hard and it is terrifying, but know that when it is in God's plan, everything will turn out fine :) I believe that you can overcome this.. And when you think you are all alone there and all ur other frens are here.. Remember that YOU are not alone.. We are always there for u, in prayer and in our thoughts.. and when you need someone to talk to.. We are here via msn or FB :D while Jesus is just a prayer away..

Do not be afraid because real love will drive out all fear so know that Jesus loves you even though this decision may be scary, but when it is done out of love.. there is no reason to fear.. (make sense kah?? LOL) I'm writing this at 1am in the morning.. a bit sleepy and blurr.. some more hv to wash the bottles before i go to bed..

but I love you oh.. Jesus loves you even MORE!!! so I must write this now to encourage you to not let this situation beat u up! (Literally!) Dun cry, dun be sad, dun feel depress... You shall overcome.. you shall be given the strength to move on and move forward.. and no matter how far u go.. you are not far from our hearts.. :') love u~~~

God is a great God...

I love my church because I know how God feels about her.. She is the apple of His eye.. She is His baby.. She is His love of His life, the bride that He is coming back for...

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And when someone makes the choice of leaving our church, no matter how unacquainted we may be, I feel a small piece of my heart goes with them... what more for good frens whom decided/decides to go? A big chunk of my heart follows them where ever they may be.. some pieces of my heart is in SG, JB, Germany, PJ, Miri, some where else and soon coming in Kuching..

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There is a saying.. "when you always give a piece of your mind to other ppl, sooner of later you'll have no brain for yourself.." (LOL.. i actually think tt it is funny and true in a way..) Likewise, when you always give a piece of your HEART to other ppl, sooner or later you'll have no heart for yourself... It means tt we CAN become so discouraged by people leaving and moving on else where and feeling left behind by them just because we care and love them so so much...

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But.. I believe in a living God :) with a living and growing heart and spirit.. Our broken hearts will be mended, not replaced; our brokenness will be acknowledged, not brushed aside; our pain is healed, not just survived..

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yes.. my heart will still go with my frens who left us, and those who soon will... but my love for them will not go away nor disappear.. I shall always miss them and keep them in my heart.. because every time they leave.. they bring a part of my heart with them... AND I shall not be discouraged for My God is greater than the miles apart, greater than the sea that separates us, greater than the heart ache of seeing you go..

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God is a great God...

It is tough..

It is tough.. Life is tough.. but nothing GREAT can be achieve through the easy way..

It is tough to rebuke.. it is tough to train someone.. it is tough to teach.. it is tough to correct someone.. :'( but that is what the bible is for.. All scripture is God-breathed and it is useful for all the above... So that man may be THOROUGHLY equipped for every good work..

If we are humble and teachable.. the sky is the limit to please God.. :') We can do all things through Him who gives us strength.. Strength to admit we are not prefect and accept other's imperfections as well; but not compromising the spirit of excellence that we have to serve our God. It is not easy to understand this statement, but by understanding what matters more to Jesus is the first step to that understanding..

Being good is tough.. going against our nature/flesh is tough.. but it is the right thing to do.. and when we know we are doing what is right.. for Jesus.. You shall have peace..isn't that what you seek?

" Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be given onto you.." Matt 6:33

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My first ever baked potatoe!!! :D anyone wanna order?? :P

Being the bride of Jesus..

I haven't read the sermon points from my fren Jane yet.. sermon notes from her church.. that emphasizes our relationship with God to more than just being the sons and daughters of God but the bride of Jesus..

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Having that intimate and close relationship with Jesus just like a bride would with her groom.. then I remembered the vision I had during the first Youth encounter camp.. Seeing Jesus beside me and in a romantic kinda way/ feel.. offer His hand and said: "Walk with me." Like my prince charming asking me to walk with Him in the Garden.. We were in the garden at tt time.. :D It was just sooooo romantic.. I know I have feel in love with God.. not the earthly way but spiritually in love with Jesus.. weird huh? and in that vision I reach out and hold His hand.. and we had our slow walk in the Garden.. :)

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I do believe that we should have that relationship with Jesus.. like one who is soooo in love with another that one must hear His voice, know His heart and understand His will.. without that intimate relationship, we can only grow so much.. We cannot go deeper in love with Him, unless we really know the meaning of being the bride of Christ..

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In the Bible it speaks of the brides that is waiting for the groom with the oil lamp.. some of them did not keep watch and stay awake (not ready) so when the groom came.. they miss out as they went to town to get oil.. It speaks about Christians who are taking things for granted, who are not prepared, those who are taking it easy and not doing God's will in their lives.. If they are not ready, they will be left behind..

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So the question is...

Are you really ready to meet Jesus now?...

Happy birthday my darling Alexander...

We went to Aquaria KL today :D to celebrate Alexander's 2 year old birthday.. We had Chilis for lunch and Nyonya food for dinner.. He is such an angel.. some times.. with horns.. but adorable and a darling as usual..

I pray that Alexander will grow up strong and healthy; wise and just; full of loving kindness and intelligence; faithful in the things tt matters most; fill with joy, peace and hope; pray that he'll not only be blessed but also be a blessing to others; May he have self-control, have fun and most of all.. love Jesus!

I hope Alexander will always know tt Jesus loves him and mommy & daddy loves him too.. I hope Alexander will understand why mommy and daddy did wht mommy daddy did.. We try to be the best parents he needs becuase we really love him very much.. and loving him doesn't always mean he can have his ways all the time.. Loving him means that we give him what he needs to grow up mature, grow up strong, with good character and growing up right in accordance to God's will..

Mommy loves you darling.. everytime mommy looks into your eyes, mommy smiles :) You of course test our patience all the time.. and we do our best to show you whose boss >;D ahehehe.. but you always brings us joy.. Alexander Toh.. You are such a darling son.. Happy 2 year old birthday..

Pee-Ka-Booooooo~~~

I TOLD YOU I GET THINGS IN MY FOOD~~

Cactus that blooms...

It's pretty amazing to see a cactus bloom :)

I use to plant them and see beautiful flowers bloom..

and normally when tt happens, something good is happening.. ahaha

as it the cactus knows how I'm feeling..

it's really a beautiful thing..
God's creation is just so wonderful...

I wish I could turn back time..

If my mom would still be alive today.. I could go back to Sabah along with my two kids and spend more time with her.. since now I'm the home maker and my hubby is the one bringing the bread home..

But when she was very sick (3 years ago) ... I had to go and work to provide for my family while my hubby is still thinking through his business ventures.. futhermore I was pregnant with Alexander when she was diagnosed with breast cancer.. I had to do what I had to do for my family.. it was so heart breaking for me then..

Now that I'm a home maker.. I'm happy but still wished that I could be a home maker sooner for my mom's sake.. but then.. if I go home.. she may not receive Christ as her savior.. she may not rely on God then and be saved.. I know she loved me and trusted me becuase some how.. we are similar.. (I would say I'm more mature than my bro ahahahaha.. just careless sometimes :P but more matured definately..) my mom and I have the same wave length... ahehehe.. may be it's just being a women that bonds us together so closely..

I wished she was here with me right now.. I wished she could feel my joy.. (eventhough she may nag at me for not going to work and let my hubby handle the money.. LOL.. I need to learn to trust my hubby.. I need to learn to trust God..)

I will always remember my mom's love for me.. may Jesus bless her soul...

Tea time lar Alexander!!!

Just a simple meal for my son for tea time :P

short sweet and simple..

anyone else can do it ahehehehe..

Its just for fun.. ahahaha... in the end.. he only ate the meat and some bread..

My son's Fav Show..

Yup! you guessed it.. It's Barney!!

I use to like Barney and then hated it coz it's really unrealistic! Who on earth would be so polite? Other ppl dun say 'your welcome','please' or even "thank you" to strangers, worst to family and friends.. so when i was young, teen actually, I hated Barney..

Until now lar.. coz my son loves Barney and Hi-5 :P Barney is polite and full of imaginations (eventhough sometimes he is a bit annoying.. ) and most of all.. entertaining..

I hope my son will learn to be as polite as Barney eventhough the world is not..

This may be too gross for you...

This is all the skin and fat found in two whole chicken!!!!

What I normally do when I get home from a grocery shopping is to clean the meat and chop it down to serving size so i can get meals ready faster when I need them..

So, for chicken.. I will definitely chop off all the excess fat and skin so it's healthier for me and my family..

LOOK AT IT!!!!

That's a lot of skin and fat ya know..

I told you this could be too gross for you... but someone have to get rid of those fats and unhealthy chicken skin!

My nice slice of pork on my plate.. hhmmm... yummy...

For this post... I'll just let the picture do all the talking.. :D

Btw.. i added some banana in the sandwich.. IT'S GOOD!!! tasted real good!!!

My tea break in the afternoon :D

Another great thing to be able to be a stay at home mom is that we get to cook or prepare nice food for our family...

(even though I wish my hubby would like salad.. which sadly he doesn't.. haih...)

Just wanna share with you what I had for tea :D after a late sandwich brunch...

It's red and yellow pepper/capsicums, almond nuts, sesame seeds, veggies and black berries.. and a dash of apple vinegar... hmmm... yummy...

Such beautiful colour hor.. i love it when my dish looks great.. makes it more delicious.. :P

tadah~~~ got 2 slice of becan... ahehehee... it was soooo juicy... hmmm...

It's not going to fill your tummy until it explode.. but it will definately satisfy your hunger for good and healthy food :)

Anyone wanna be my guest? :D

Salad party anyone??

Daisy and Minie: When they were younger...

They looked sooooo adorable.. still puppies then.. :')

This photo is funny.. hahahaha..Daisy give full coorperation for the camera.. :D

As for Minie.. she gave us a blurr and adorable look.. akekekee...

Having them in our lives have been a blessing..

Thank you Lord for doggies!!!

When we had Vietnam Food~~

So long d these photos stayed in my vid cam.. it's just for fun lar..

This is..... someone's drink?? LOL

My lovely family.. ahehehe.. all three also sooo cute...

Godfather taking photos also?

ahehehe... looking sleepy ke Ken??

Wht the 3 of you talking about ah?? so hush hush one ah>?? LOL

Carrefour's mutanted Tomatoes!!!!

I had NEVER seen a tomato sprouting from within and still look so fresh from the outside!!!

This discovery is scary for me~~ I can't believe it!! When does a seed become a tree? WHEN IT DIES AND STARTS TO SPROUT~~~ So, it was to my horror when I see Tomato seeds sprouting inside a nice, red and shiny tomato flesh...

I am being silly becuase i fail biology!? but then.. this is really the first time i see tomatoes sprouting like tt wor!!!!??? I am katak dibawah tempurung in this? pls tell me?? pls???~~

It's not just ONE of the tomatoes, mind you.. IT's ALL OF IT!!! All 6 of it in the package!!!

I will not buy tomatoes from Carrefour package ever!!~~

Can you see the sprouts!!!!

Here a closer picture.. this is nothing compared to the photo below..

This is how the pack look like...

See!!!! Mutanted tomatoes ladies and gentlemen!!! Dun buy ah.. if buy also pls check properly..

Like an alien living inside the tomatoes!!! yuks!!!

Parents vs CPY

We had a group discussion the other day in our youth group.. and some commented that parents are always (if not most of the time) very judgemental.. They will 'pour cold water' (discourage) at young dreams, inspirations and desires.. They do not listen to reason and jumps to conclusions... They don't give affirmation when it matters the most and the list goes on and on..

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I use to believe that too, but I only have a mother to rely on and wht ever she says was absolute! It was my all! It is the only truth I believed in! She is always right! She was my everything..

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Did I ever rebel? slam the door.. hard? lie? disagree? talk back? shouted? etc to my mother.. shamefully... yes.. becuase I was young and inmature.. I didn't know how to control my temper.. I tried to be the best daughter for her but I always fall short.. I seem to always disappoint her and that she always gets angry or up set with me.. It seems so hard to meet her requirements.. why is it so hard to please her and why my brother doesn't have to do tt to gain her love and trust but I need to... I just dun understand..

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BUT.. as I grew older.. I understood that my mother love me differently from my brother.. and not in an unfair way.. it's just different... she may be strict with me and demanded a lot from me.. but that made me a better person inside out.. Not that I'm a better person than my brother.. no, it's not tt.. I'm just a better person than I was before, and no matter what my mom had done for my brother, I believe.. he is also a better person than he was before.. and eventhough life may be unfair then (coz i do most of the hard work at home.), I think life is fair now :D (with all the joy in my heart!)

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So young ppl, don't be discouraged if our parents disagree with us.. Don't be sad if they disappoint us.. Don't be angry if they step on our toes.. Don't be.. No matter what.. they are family; respect them as they deserved to be respected; honor them for they have sacrificed for us all; love them for they have loved us with what ever means they know how..

Wht if we have a Rose tree?

Wht if we have a rose tree? A big one! we will probably be seeing wht Thumbelina sees..

A different world..

Have you ever look at a tree in awe before?

May be we should slow down for a while and look at a tree (or trees)..

...enjoy God's creation and marvelled at His glory..

Our mid autumn fest dinner ;D (last month)

This is our feast!!! Only had Han Then over coz she doesn't have family to celebrate with her..

so we celebrate with her lar.. My bro is a bit too far to go and visit for tt day :P dunno he celebrate it or not also akekeke

"Tai Thong" Mooncakes!! yummy...

Wakakakakaak..this is my wedding tea pot!!! i can take out the stickers geh.. but malas ler.. ahahaha so we just use it as it is lar.. :P

Like wedding on a fullmoon... so romantic.. akekekeke..

cheeky little Alexander was curious... this is the first time he encounter a mooncake.. LOL

New stuff i just got.... FOR FREE!!!!! =D

I got this for free from buying something for my hubby :D where? dun wanna tell you coz later my hubby will know wht i got for him for Christmas!!!.. ahahaha I know right, so early meh... yes lor.. I'm the kind tt do things early.. sometime too fast.. :P

This Powder form foundation is really nice and smooth... Gonna put it into action soon.. wahahahaha.... and you know wht is the retail price for this? RM 89!!!! expensive ler.. and I got it for free!!! yippie!!! muahahahaha...

I thank God for all the things I have.. and things tt I get for free!!! wheeee~~~~ ;)

Introducing veggies to my son..

How do you encourage young children to like veggies when it taste so disgusting to them? :P by blending it in with the food that they like to eat :D ahehehehe.. smart ler.. wahahahaha..

I wouldn't say that I've succeeded..but at the theory is workable :P and my son does eat some veggie in the process.. the key is to NOT GIVE UP! Keep putting the veggies in and be consistent in encouraging them to eat it up..

My son of course know tt the veggies got this weird taste and it's not as nice.. but slowly but surely, he will learn to appreciate it.. I'm positive!! I just need to keep at it!!! My goal is to teach my son healthy eating.. (as much as we can lar.. coz we sometimes have unhealthy food also geh.. wht to do.. living in this modern world of fast food.. not easy to rid of it geh...)

As for toilet training him :) i'm doing it on and off... but i think i really need to be focus on it... when i'm not cooking anything lar.. may be :P coz cooking take a while to prepare... ahahaha..

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I hope my post will encourage all moms to feed their kids healthy food as much as possible.. You'll enjoy preparing the food for them... but dun be too disappointed when they dun finish or dun eat it.. it will take some time.. :) just keep at it!!! yea!!!

Yumm yummm.. See.. he is enjoying his food.. and he actually finish them all!!!! Hurray!!!