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Rebecca, Nic, Wai wai, Michelle Paulsen, Michelle Phoon and Jenny.... Aiyoyoyoyoyo.. so many ppl....(who else??? please tell me so i can say something about u..)

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :
1) Jesus is coming to town!!!
2) Our (Nigel & me) love ones know Jesus personally
3) CPY to grow more like Jesus each and everyday
4) See more of God's Miracles being revealed
5) More of God in our (Nigel & me) lives

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU IS :Rebecca W, Nic, Michelle & Jenny
YOUr 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER :

Rebecca W
1) She is Jesus's little girl and she is my girl too
2) She has a lot of potential but doesn't know how to use it yet
3) She is faithful, trustworthy, kind and caring friend
4) She loves her family very much but love God much more
5) Can go very far in life with God by her side

Nic:
1) He is Farny guy!!! Bold and courageous... street smart.. and at times.. goes NUTZ!!
2) He is fun to be with, full of ideas of how to pass the time.
3) He can be a very good Friend to anyone, thoughtful, sensitive and caring..
4) He loves God berry berry muchy.. more then u may think...
5) He has a good, kind and young at heart... (even though we all know he is not 19..)aheeheeee

Wai wai: Where do I start!!!
1) He is very, absolutely have some sort of patience,especially when some of the guys at times make fun of him. he can still laugh with them. So wonderful!
2) He is crazy about having a relationship, but hope he knows tt the best relationship he can have is with our God, Jesus.
3) He has the biggest heart and willingness to help, serve and do something for CPY and the church.
4) He is very emotional at times and needs a guy to toughen him a bit.. any takers??
5) He is very good in making new friends!!! Everyone tt visits CPY the first time will definately remember Wai wai as the friendliest guy..

Michelle Paulsen:
1) She is mature for her age
2) She cries a lot.. especially when ppl say something very sad, or touching..
3) She loved Korean movies..
4) She loves God, her family and her friends very much
5) Very confident and full of God's given potential!!

Michelle Phoon:
1) She is very sweet looking, knows how to make up and look like a doll at times
2) She is confuse at times.. blurr blurr looking ahahah
3) She has talent that has not been discovered yet
4) She can be very friendly and nice but first you have to open yourself up to her :)
5) Faithful and loyal.. always willing to help and learn..

Jenny:
1) She is very smart, hard working and STRONG!!!!(dun play play) pretty girl also.. ahahaha runs in the family coz she is my girl too...
2) She can be sweet and gentle too..
3) She is full of good character and loves God, her family and friends a lot..
4) She full of life, energy & fun!! Very down to earth...
5) Have a great heart to serve, to do what is right and to know the dept of God's love.

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU:
Rebecca, let me into her life as a mentor and friend
Nic, becoming our parthner in crime in the Youth ministry
Wai wai, being very so willing to help n be available
Michelle Paulsen, her long chats, openess and friendship
Michelle Phoon, her respect and her willingness to learn
Jenny, she ah.. aiyo.. her willingness to serve lar.. her kindness lar.. her friendship lar.. and also willing to make me her Mentor and Friend also lar.. (sound like her hor.. :P haha

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU:
Rebecca, "You are already very great to me.."
Nic, I remember his action more than his words :) most actions tt is memorable are farny ones..
Wai wai, " Thank you ah Susana.."
Michelle Paulsen, "I will miss you too."
Michelle Phoon, ".. but you are not like them..."
Jenny, "I love you! Susana!!!!"

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL:
Rebecca, love her as Christ would have love her.. with all my life...
Nic, he ah?? cannot lar.. its like "fire planet hit the earth" like tt.. no survivors.. all die..
Wai wai, aiyoyo..
Michelle Paulsen, i will tell her tt i will wait for her until she turns 21 :P
Michelle Phoon, i will tell her tt i will wait for her until she finds her trueself and also turns 21 :D
Jenny, i will take her out for a date!!! she so pretty now! (jangan perasan...)

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE:
Rebeccca, Enemy? not possible.. :) she so patient
Nic, dun think possible also..
Wai wai, i.. i... i... i dunno lar...
Michelle Paulsen, cause by some Korean movie lar!! sure one..
Michelle Phoon, i took all her make up set and use it on Nic Wong? (Horror!!!) :P
Jenny, she ah.. also not possible ler.... unless.. i cut her new hair stay into "no hair" style?? ooo she will hate me for life..

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:
1) Nigel Toh (u can write at your facebook :P)
2) Rebecca W
3) Jericca
4) Michelle Paulsen
5) Jin Ing
6) Wai wai
7) Jenny Yap
8) Stephanie
9) Pastor Jeffrey (ahahah, u can join facebook if you like :)
10) Su Jane!!!

1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
I have no idea, I think she's still single

2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
ahaha.. Besides Jaecie, his wife.. another person would be.... jeng jeng jeng... Jesus lor!!! Who else???

3. IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING ?
Er... No..

4. WHAT ABOUT NO.1 AND NO.5 ?
Nah.. No1 is taken :) by me.. ahahaha

5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING ?
Studying in Seconday school

6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WIT NO.6 ?
Last night...

7.DOES NO.4 WORK ?
nah

8. HAS ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL ?
dunno??? got ah Michelle??

9. WILL U BE WITH NO.10?
She is my friend

10.HOW ABOUT NO.5 ?
She is my friend too

11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS ?
Yes

12. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4 ?
No 2 She Join our church and CPY
No 4 is from our church pre teen lor

13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT ?
With me in KL

14. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW NO.8 ?
CPY

15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD ?
SHe can be ahahaha.. Sexy is an attitude and charm, not about dressing :)

~ THe End~~~

Give you all chance to get to know me more :P

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE
name: Susana Mayong AKA Mrs. Toh :P
birth date: 23/5/1978
eye colour: Hitam
hair colour: Ogirinal = super Black
right or left: right

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE
my heritage: half Kadazan half Chinese = Sino-kadazan
my fears: certain insects
my weaknesses: perfectionist
my perfect pizza: peperonni... nyum....

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
my thoughts 1st waking up: aaw so cute.. Minie and Daisy slept with me tonight..
my bedtime: 12-1 a.m
my most-missed-memory: Childhood memories :)

LAYER 4: MY PICK
pepsi or coke: coke
single or grouped dates: grouped dates..
Addidas or Nike: none
tea or nestea: tea
chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE!!
cappucino or coffee: coffee

LAYER 5: DO YOU...
smoke: Nah
curse: Super seldom..
take a shower: yes
have a crush: now? yes.. my husband
think u've been in love: ahahaha i dun think i need to ans this.. :)
go 2 skul: in the pass.. yes.. love it too...
wanna get married: Just got married
believe urself: of course
think ur a health freak: not really

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST
drank alcohol: guilty
gone to da mall: yup.. love to shop!!
been on stage: since a kid
eaten sushi: oooo... love it!!
dyed ur hair: ahahaha many times with diff colors :)

LAYER 7: HAVE U EVER...
played a stripping game: yes!! ahaha with a bunch of crazy nut case girls...
changed who u were to fit in: huh... nope!!! NEVER!!!

LAYER 8: AGE UR HOPING...
to b married: 29
to ride a motorbike: i know how to ride liao.. no practice only..

LAYER 9: IN A GUY...
best eye colour: black
best hair colour: black
best hair style: anything best suits him
short or long hair: no difference

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE U DOING....
a minute ago: working
hour ago: working
4-5 hours ago: working
1 month ago: working
year ago: working

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
i love: God's Creation
i feel like: going home soon.
i hate: The Devil!!
i hide: My temper
i miss: my grandparents, parents, family and frens far far a way....
i need: to go home now

LAYER 12: TAG 5 PPL!
>>> Nic
>>> Jerrica
>>> Jon
>>> Jenny Yap
>>> Jenny Yap (yes you.. must do :P

Listen to this!!!!

“I can hear the roar from Zion”

Good news or bad news? When we hear the roar from Zion is it good news or bad news??

Good News: - Joel 3:16
“The Lord will roar from Zion & thunder from Jerusalem; the earth & the sky will tremble. But the Lord will be a refuge for His people, a stronghold for the people of Israel.”

Bad news: - Amos 1:2
“The Lord roars from Zion & thunders from Jerusalem; the pastures of the shepherds dry up and the top of Carmel withers.”

The book of Joel and Amos talks about God’s anger towads Judah & Jerusalem. Talks about what He will do to get them back. So they would know who the mighty one is.

When we really hear the roar from Zion, what do we expect to happen to us? Would we get a welcome? A kiss and a hug? A smile and a pat? Or be scolded? Wrath? Punishment? Lord, have mercy on us…

As it is fasting period, let us also fast.. for our country, for nations, for family & friends, for churches all over the world, for our church and most of all.. for God’s Kingdom to reign!!!

Evan Almighty

“So did God force him to build the Ark?” Rebecca ask.. (what do you think?) Hhhmmm..

If you have watched the movie, it seems like Evan was indirectly forced.. (lets not talk about Noah as he was not in the movie :P) So yes, he was forced. Is it good or bad? I thougth God dun force one??

Let’s read Amos 4:6-11
God caused so many famine to happen in hope that His people will turn back to Him but the Israelites was a bunch of stubborn donkeys and because they did not turn back to God, they suffered more..

Yes, Evan was indirectly forced by the circumstances that fall upon him but in the end he submits to God!! Even when everyone, including his family, thinks his nuts!!! So compared to people who did not turn back to God, Evan made the right choice in obeying God and what happen after that? Made a difference in the community and most importantly, showed what God can really do when people walk by faith.

Should God even bother to scold us, force us if he doesn’t care enough for us to trouble Himself like that? To be heart broken every time some of us reject him? Put him aside?

We are chosen, Evan was chosen, so when God caused circumstances to happen in hope we’ll turn back to Him, or even for the good of His people, we should be glad He force it..

Cutie babies...

Aren't they the cutest!!!! I dunno have I missed out any cutie pie but if i had do let me know :) They are so lovable at this age.. can't wait for them to grow up and put some spices into their parents lives.. hahaha

Salute to the parents!! Who are doing such a great job having babies... and of course taking care, nuturing and growing them into the future man and women God wants them to be :) Thank God for you guys!!! Let's pray for parents today :) yours and those that you know who are in need of great help in raising their children in this cruel world...

chris tomlin - how great is our god

chris tomlin - how great is our god

A wonderful song :) hope it would inspire you and encourage you, as it had encouraged me.. Its all about God's greatness, nothing else.. God is great and wonderful God. No one can compare.. I hope to those who love to learn how to play better guitar.. this video will share a bit of light and know, great songs doesn't need to be complicated... its from the heart, from the spirit, from truth itself...

Wanna keep it short...

I am so long winded :P What to do... talkative mah..

Well, since picture speaks louder than words.. perhaps i should just share my recent photos .. interesting ones etc.. (To my frens whose faces are in this blog, no model release, pls do not sue me, coz i have no money.. hahaha..MYR 1.00 fine i can still pay lar.. ok?)

Isn't he cute!!! He is by nephew :) I keep wondering that he knows i exist or not :( I didn't took this photo :) my bro did... wanna see my bro???

Handsome le? He got very pretty eyes :) wanna show you my sis in laws pic.. perhaps next time ok? :) She is a "Leng Ma" also :) Ta

Yeah right...

Who are you kidding?? Getting into a relationship when you are still young at age is cool? hahahaha

It wouldn't be so cool when you get dumped for another guy or girl eh?

Wouldn't be so cool when your precious ones decided to use all your money eh? (hey, pak tor is expensive ok? Especially for the guys coz you should always be a gentlemen.)

Wouldn't be so cool when your time that should be spent on your responsibilities was spent doing unnecessary activities eh?

In the long run, it wouldn't benefit anyone. We may benefit from learning what to do or what not to do during the courtship but that is IF we learn. If we don't, waste time, waste money, waste energy, waste our youth, waste our emotion, wasted every bit of ourselves.

Well, its hard to fight LOVE eh.. the spirit is willing but the body is weak.. too weak to resist being loved and to be loved in return.. It is hard, i know especially when you met your match (or you just think you have met your match.) So a few advise from a person who is also has a willing spirit but weak flesh..

Always threat each other with respect, as if you would like some one to threat your sister/mother. Share values and convictions of your life and discover do you see eye to eye. Understand each other from a friendship point of view before going into any deeper relationship. Get to know do you both see the same future together...

Are you ready for commitments, responsibilities, financial providence, tolerance, unconditional love & acceptance, being selfless? your answer may be yes.. so another question would be.. Do you think God would approve? Pray about it before you go into any relationship, the only peace we may have in any relationship is getting the approval from our Heavenly Father.. Don't get into it when its not time yet..

"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." ~ Song of Songs 2:7~

Why ah??

Why we shouldn't skip church meetings or CG meetings?

Would like to ask.. would you consider skipping school a good practice or a bad one?

Of course you would say a bad one lar.. Don't kid yourself by saying other wise. You wouldn't advise your children to skip school for no apparent reason.

So why we can skip church? We go to school to learn and develop our brain, so we may learn how to think logically and practically. We go to Church to learn to live, to learn to listen and understand the word of God. So i ask you, which one is more important? To think or to live? Both??? good.. then why is skipping church because of some unreasonable reason should be reasonable? Lazy lar, cannot wake up on time lar, too tired lar.. A school would expel you for giving such excuses..

We study 5 days a week!! Monday to Friday.. and church service is only Sunday, do the maths.. We burn the mid night oil (just to pass an exam.).. but its so hard to spend just 5 min of our time to pray and read the word of God.. We learn Mathematics and Physics but we do not know how to handle relationships... So, I ask you.. Why is skipping school is unacceptable but skipping church is??

To the ones that is smart and capable in many ways, do you even know why you are so gifted? What can you do with all those gifts?? If you know God enough, you will know the answer, for those who doesn't.. please find out and how to do that?

DON'T SKIP CLASSES...

"The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The word I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life." ~ John 6:63~

Celebrate Life...

There are so much we can be glad about in life :)

Be glad for we have a family who love us, even if we took a wrong turn.
They love us for who we are and no matter what we have done.Family look out for each other. Family encourages each other. Family work together. Family listen to each other. Family (or at least tries to) understand each other. Family support, trust, reply on each other and faithful to each other. But a family with a Father, a son and a Holy Spirit would be the best family anyone would want.

Be glad for we have friends who cares for us, even if we make mistakes.
Good friends are hard to find. A friend who listens at all times and cares for you are like precious gems. Friends who shower you with kind words are like rain on a summer day. Friends who helps at all times are like food when you are hungry. Friends who gives wise advise are like a candle in the dark. But a friend who dies for you on the cross is one who deserves all you have.

Be glad for life which we live in, even if its not perfect.
Life is full of beauty and wonders. Life would be full of laughter if only we laugh with others more. Life would be more enjoyable if only we enjoy it meaningfully. Life would be brighter if you just turn on the light! Why live in the dark? heehee.. Life would be brighter if you live not just for yourself, but for others around you, those you love, those you care most, those who needs your love. Life would be great when you know the Almighty God....

....who is your family, your friend and your life...

Life is so cruel at times

Being in love should be a wonderful experience, yet for some its agonizing. Especially if you are going out with someone who is self-centered, unreliable, unfaithful and lawless.

People who are not afraid of anyone, not accountable to anyone, who doesn't need to answer their actions to anyone would mostly fall into this category. I once ask a friend who he fear most and being a normal guy, he said his dad :) "So,you mean if you did something wrong or disrespectful you will fear getting a scolding from him? or even fear you will disappoint him?" "Yes". Ok, at least he fear his dad,so he is accountable to his dad. But what if one day your dad is no more around? Who are you going to answer to? Who are you going to be accountable to? Or are you going to live your life like there is no accountability?

We should all be accountable to God, we should all fear God, fear not because He punishes but fear that we would disappoint Him, hurt Him by our action because we love Him.

If you are going out with someone who doesn't fear anyone, be very afraid, be very very afraid. For he/she doesn't need to answer to anyone for his/her action. He/she is the law in him or herself? No one is above him/her? No one can be more authoritative than him/her? People who fear no one is dangerous for they do not listen to reason for the reason they listen to are their own.

Even if they fear their parents or someone like their bosses etc, be afraid also. For they are easily influenced by their mentor's suggestions, ideas, way of life and actions. Man's heart is very deceitful so be very aware of your situations, I could be talking about you. Yes you!

So who do you fear most? Your mom? your dad? your siblings? your friends? your boss? your mentor?

I can tell you now, the only person you should be afraid to disappoint is God, Jesus.

Responsibilities & Commitments

In our busy time schedule, do we neglect to do the things that meant a lot to us? Like our responsibilities and commitment to one another as family,as friends and as members of Chirst? To our love ones, company and society?

All in all we have tones and tones of responsibilities and comitments.. All these responsibilities defines who we are, what we live for, who we doing it for, according to a speaker who came to share in our church one of our sundays... And I do think its true that if we do not have responsibilities or commitments, then what are we doing most of the time would be, not important enought to make any commitments or take any responsibilities.. not important enought to hang on to it, to stay with it, to grow in it.

Some of us do not want any (none, zero!) responsibilities. Its such a scary word!!! What if we are responsible for the failure? what if we are cannot make the right choice? What if we change our mind? How do we get out of it later? There is no turning back on responsinilities and commitments!!! aaaaAAAHhhhhHHHhh !!!!! HELP!!!!!

If we say we are busy doing this busy doing that.. but never once commit or be responsible for it.. then we can just leave it and let is be.. which means its not important to you.. which means you can change your mind and go and do other things you feel like doing.. and leave when ever you feel like it.. without feeling guilty or responsible..

Without being responsible or commited, can we achieve anything in live?

People who have done great things and have achived much, define their lives on those responsibilities and commitment they have made.. sometimes sustaining them through all the thick and thin of life itself. Jesus, Mother Terresa, Gandhi, Martin Luther King etc.. have took up much responsibilities in their lives to achieve what they have achieved..

When they took up the responsibility, the calling, the purpose of their being, they focus on it, build on it, stay with it and love it. With God our Father's grace, help & care, they are living it and living it to the fullest!!! So question is...

What responsibilities are you taking up now that defines who you are? If you don't have any, may be you should search inside yourself and find out.. better still ask the one who have created you-God.

Responsibilities and Commitments defines who you are; Convictions and Faith defines what you are made of.. until the next chapter :) Tata..

Simple act of love

Everyone are destined for something great. It’s just that will we take the opportunity or not. Sometimes that opportunity comes by force, some by chance, yet most by choice.

When we have an opportunity to make someone happy just by doing something so simply as a hug, a prayer or even a chat, don’t miss it. When you have the opportunity to help the needy, to encourage, to comfort and to listen, to give and to share, remember Jesus could be among them. When you have the opportunity to take charge, to lead, to serve, to guide and to mentor, do it for you hold their hands so they don’t go the wrong direction. When you have the opportunity to love, to care, to understand, to grow, to laugh and to forgive, hold on to it.

All these opportunities may seem small and insignificant but it builds character because it takes a lot to not only learn, but to experience it, go though it, discovering it and living it. It’s all the small things that make someone big and strong. All things start from a small act of Love and Faith. Love enough to act, having Faith enough to see that God is in all of it.

Even small things would become great when it is touched by a great heart.

God have a great plan for you and it always starts from somewhere small… from your heart…

“If you keep yourself pure, you will be a utensil God can use for his purpose. Your life will be clean, and you will be ready for the Master to use you for every good work.” 2 Tim 2:21

Crush Tag???

Rules: For those who have been tagged, you are required to write a story about one of your crush, be it a current or previous crush. To be exactly different from the common tags, there is no questions imposed this time. All you have to do is to write a story about him/her. Also, five persons will need to be tagged at the end of the post. This tag is originated from Rachael Ong. You must post up these rules before you start writing.
A crush?? huh?? need some time to really think ler..

crush crush crush.... huh?? susah lar.. aiyo..

ok lar.. i like this guys b4 and he is of course very cute, tall and smart.Very cool and quite. Feels he is a bit snobbish and thinks he is too "leng chai" for anyone- i'm sure you know the kind of attitute I am talking about. At the time yes he was leng chai lar, but when i met him again in a reunion almost after 6 years later. I'm glad i didn't end up with him :P not that he bad looking or what,actually he looks the same!!! That's the problem, I feel that I have changed and he have not. And so He is definately not my type anymore :) THE END...

Tagg: Rebecca, Jenny, Kevin,Jericca, Jeremy, Jin Ing, who else ah???

Bangkok Patience

Went for a Bangkok trip recently and one I have learn beside never go to Bankok in May or June coz its very HOT!! Is being patient..

Working and living in KL have made me think fast, do fast and walk fast… fast fast fast!!!!! It good for career and it’s an efficient way to deal with things and situations, especially when dealing with problem solving.

In this trip, I learn that being patient and wait is an attitude that shows love. So can you guess how I need to be patient??

When you get older, your parents gets older too and as your brain starts to get smarter, guess what.. theirs gets deteriorated. Their actions and thinking ability becomes very slow and you can actually anticipate what’s their next move as they move in slow motion.. WAHhhh you cannot imagine how frustrated I was when this happens!!!

But you know what? I love my parents and no matter how slow they get. Respect and honor comes b4 my self-righteous ways. My frens, a word of advice, NEVER DISRESPECT YOUR PARENTS. You are a fool to do so! We will never be able to repay the good they have done in our lives, even though I only knew my step father for a few years, he and his children have treated me as a family and that kindness is priceless. What more your own flesh and blood???

Every time I wanted to explode during the trip!! I keep reminding myself that they are older now, not like it used to be and more I need to cherish every moment we have together..

We don’t regret what we have done better; we regret what we have not done better.

So remember to love and honor your parents for it is also expected from us. No matter how difficult it may seem.. Love your parents…

Tagged by Rebecca.. as she is thinking OF me too..

5 things found in my bag (same as Rebecca ler.. Ooi Rebecca, you went through my bag eh?)
- Bible - Organiser- Our Daily Bread booklet- Keys- Purse

5 things found in my wallet - money - Identity card- Maybank card- Photos of Nigel n me..(jangan muntah! hahaha) - A list of things to buy in Bangkok.. (nothing in there for you :P)

5 favourite things in my room- Photos of Nigel, my mom & family, frens and CPY- Books..- My creative box.. (contains all my art stuffs) -radio (Nigel give one ah...) - Daily verses (card)

5 things I've always wanted to do... - travel around the world - continue to lay the foundation of Love in CPY - to teach and be good at it - continue to share my life with those God love -continue to do God's will

5 things I am currently into - wedding preparation - Bangkok Trip - CPY next schedule - meeting target - reading and prayer

5 person that I tagged- Nic - Jin Ing - Jeremy - Sandra - dunno liao...

Recently...

Hi Ladies and Gentlemen!! Sorry for not up dating my blog recently. Much have happened for the pass couple of weeks :) good things and it have kept me busy for a while.

I had a visitor lately, stayed in my room. Siew Wee :) an English teacher from Sarawak. She is very friendly and from what I know, she have changed a lot.. became a better person! We chatted, share views, laughted and had breakfast when ever we can. hahah

Invited some frens over for dinner too.. ;) Praise God the food was ok (ya.. i cooked) . Lydia was there (a very good cook! She cook great food!!) Tien Ching and Michelle..

Worship leading again,I am so nervous i forgot how to start a song! hahaha.. If were not for God's Grace, I don't think I can continue to lead in worship.. i mean, i am not good at LEADING worship.. i just know how to be a good support singer! I dun know the key, how to play (any intsruments), what's the right tempo, how to teach others to sing or do better in worship.. No.. useless.. :( I have to teach CPY worship leaders to worship lead and here i am doing terribly.. Despite all this, God never stop from doing what he wants to do for his people, for his church.

God doesn't look at our ability and skills to show His wonders, He only needs a willing heart. So I would like to encourage who ever that is out there who feels they cannot do anything right, cannot make anything work or cannot do anything great. You are wrong.. with God on your side, He will cause you to be able to move mountains, no matter how bad you think you did, with Him there, you can be assured that He will take care and be there for you.

What do you want more from Worship? i want more of Jesus in my life. How bout you?

Move it! Move it!

"Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps if you're not willing to move your feet."

Read this from Joon Lang’s email the other day and this phase really captured my attention.

We are at times very silly ler.. Dun you think so? We ask for this we ask for that but then we are not willing to suffer for it? Expect other ppl to suffer for the blessings we want for ourselves.

Eg: Lord bless me financially! (yet you expect to do everything the same and get an increase in you allowances.)
Lord give me good health! (yet you drink, smoke and take drugs.)

We request for God to move and yet we do all things the same? We sometimes even promise God that we would change (so bless us first) but never did so even after God answered our prayer. Why did God even put up with us? Alamak.. Thank God we are not God.. coz when we put ourselves in His shoe.. We dun want to forgive ourselves!.. Human beings are so… so… disappointing! Susah susah sakit kepala..

Some of us even pray for blessing and increase in Faith yet do not want to go through it ourselves. How can we experience God like that? Would you ask your mom to prepare orange juice and then ur brother drink it and you can say “oh the orange is sweet lar!”. Even if you can say it because your brother testify to it, how would you really know how sweet is sweet? What does it taste like? Is it different from the sweetness from an apple? How sweet is sweet??? YOU DUN KNOW..

So experience it yourself.

God is so gracious and full of love. We can’t imagine how much He put up with our stubbornness and spoiled attitude. He is so patient and full of mercy we can’t imagine! We always disappoint him and yet He still embraced us with arms open wide and with a heart full of love.

So don’t take things for granted! When we ask for God’s guidance, move it!

How much we owe Him?

How much do you think we owe our parents? A lot? How much is a lot? Too much..

So how much do you think we owe God? Too much! Infinity! Yet many feel that we don’t owe God anything…

According to Luke 7:40-50, a person who owe God the most would have the highest gratitude. So how much you think you owe God?

Are there people that owe God less? How about those who do all things in righteousness and in the name of the Lord? So does it mean those people like Rev, Pastors or leaders of the church owe God less? What do you think? Do you think the Pharisee owe God less?

We all owe God, no matter how big or small you think we owe God, we all owe God. It’s the gratitude of our hearts that makes the difference. If you think you owe God nothing, think again. You owe every good deed to him. Every good name that you have gain from doing well and right we owe it to Him because He was the one who taught us to be good and what is good in the first place. All the love we were able to give and receive is also from God, and should we not thank Him for all the greatness from his love? We wouldn’t understand the dept of the word “love” if were not of his death on the cross for us sinners.

Every sunny and rainy mornings that we woke up with; every breeze that blew upon our face; every beauty that was created for us; every good thing that ever happened to us; every wonder that occurred; we owe it to God.

If you have no problem or troubles in life, no request or prayer or need to ask, no fear no insecurity no doubts no worries. Everything is well, good and dandy. Everything is ok, not too bad, just like every other day. Every day is full, packed, fun and cool. We all owe God all the good things in life.

So give thanks today for His goodness and His forgiveness. We all need to.

Profound expression...

I’m sure you have recently watched Spiderman right? Some say it’s a good one some say its not.. but to me Spiderman’s last word to sandman was very profound. Do you remember what he said?

“I forgive you.”

It’s really an awesome feeling to be forgiven. And to forgive someone, is even better. Many people in the world don’t know that all of us need to hear those words. Either from our love ones, family, friends even sometimes enemies. We need to hear those words being spoken to us.

There are so many regrets in our lives that we never realize how much we yearn to be forgiven. Mistakes and silly decisions we made perhaps long time ago or even recently. The guilt will always be there, haunting us while we make every single step in our lives.

To forgive someone is even more precious and special, as there is a total release from your part. Freedom to move on and live life to it fullest, to look forward to life and not looking back in pain, to see what the future holds and not tramped in the past. That is what forgiving is all about… Freedom.

So no matter we are the one uttering these words or the one receiving them, we are all blessed. So what are you waiting for? Tell someone you forgive them, they need to know as much as you need to know.

Imagine God, who we owe our very lives to, whisper these words to you… “ I forgive you.. no matter what… I forgive you…” well.. imagine no more… Coz He died for you on the cross and forgave you.

Some Encouragements

Dear CPY and YCA,

We will have a visitor this sunday result from the comic distribution. She is from Sarawak and she is a college student. She will be studying here for 3 years but she is searching for a church and hope we will be able to help her fit in.

Good job everyone. I'm sure more is to come from our labour :)

You show me love. Part II

Do you appreciate the one you love? Do you tell that person how much she means to you? What have you done lately that made her proud of you? You know who I'm talking bout, your mom! of course :)

I remember the first time on Sunday i heard ppel talked about Mothers' day. I was very curious and wanted to know more about it. My sunday school teacher told me tt it a day for Children to show special appreciation to their mom on that sunday. (second sunday of May) So i went home thinking about what to do for my mom on that special sunday.

I tot about making her breakfast but i dunno how? i could burn the whole house down just trying to fry en egg... (hei! i was just a kid k... dunno how to operate the stove yet...) so, i clean the house on that special Sunday and gave her my hand made card from Sunday School :) It put a huge smile on my mom's face, (even though she never kept my card.. sigh..) she loved my effort and she noticed the house was so much cleaner on that day!.. (no womder i love to clean...)

My first gift for my mom was a small mirror. (its not to ask my mom please look at the mirror coz you look ugly.. my mom is very pretty k.. even though i'm not... hahaha) Her small mirror in her car was broken and i tot of giving her something useful. Small, isn't worst anything but useful and its really the tot that counts. Who would have remembered a small mirror but me :)

It feels good to appreciate your mom like that doesn't it?? It makes her feel good and it makes you feel good too. So, why don't we do that everyday? How? One thing we can do is to live our life right. Make her proud of you not just becuase of your achievements but becuase you care, becuase you are kind, becuase you are full of her love. That's why you have grown into the person that you are now.

I know i know some mothers have high expectation and sometimes its really unreasonable. Its ok, no one is prefect right? :) but know that even if our mom is a nag, they are still our mother and we should always respect them. That's one of God's commandments!

So how to make a difficult mom happy? pray for them so that they can be happy and so that they can find true joy. Pray also that you will understand why she is so difficult to get a long with. You'll never know, you may find something beautiful. Like the truth, understanding and love...

Do you really know Jesus?

Do you know who Jesus is? Who He is to you? what He means to you? really?

If you can't answer the question above with conviction and not just head knowledge then we need to really think about this important question, don't we?

Does he change my life? Does His death means anything to me? Does His love means anything to me? Is it just another story character from the story book called " The Holy Bible"? Does He existance made a difference in my life? Does His blessing really have blessed me? Do I really know this person called Jesus?

Think about it? If you get the right answer, your life could be complete. Completely changed!

Don't belive me? Ask Nic :P

Remembering the little ones

We had a special speaker visiting us today. His name is Dr. Benjamin George. He does a lot of ministry in our society and he has a clinic in KL. He spoke of little children today, the young people. How wonderful that they have Chrst as thier Lord and savior. They could have their whole life with Jesus, if they stay close with Him. But becuase some have gone astray and into the world, they missed God's presence and love.

These young ones are in danger because of worldly influences that could lead them away from Christ, if they are not careful they are easily traped and deceived. Jesus loves little ones.. no matter how old you think you have grown, no matter how mature you think you are, no matter how much you have achieved. You will always loved by Jesus as His own children, like a little child.

Activities doesn't make you grow spiritually, it only helps you see God's work through you, you can see how God blesses you and others, to know that He is there for you in yout time of needs, but it doesn't make your relationship grow deeper with God, with Jesus.

So what does? How do we grow deeper spiritually?

We need to spend time with Jesus ALONE.... Just you and Jesus. no music, no books, no food.. nothing.. Just you and Jesus, through prayer and just listen closely.. listen intensely.. expecting something awesome, wonderful and personal from Jesus alone.. anyday, everyday...

My friends, its good to know that Jesus still loves me as if i was a child, becuase only in child like form i could come to God. Only with child like faith i could remember i have nothing but Him. Only with child like faith I realize I cannot do anything unless He comes and help me. Only with child like faith I know that I am no one, a nobody, until He said "I am your Father, and you are mine."

Like a child calling out for his father to help him, the same way we can call out to God. He is not distant, He is very close by. He was never absents from you, He is always there beside you. God does not have hearing problem, He hears your prayers, every single word of it (even the grammer mistakes). He never misunderstood you, He knows the very hair on your head.

My friends, someone really loves you and His name is Messiah, Emanual, Jesus.

Mark 10:13 One day some parents brought their children to Jesus so he could touch them and bless them, but the disciples told them not to bother him.

Mark 10:14
But when Jesus saw what was happening, he was very displeased with his disciples. He said to them, "Let the children come to me. Don't stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these.

Mark 10:15 I assure you, anyone who doesn't have their kind of faith will never get into the Kingdom of God."

Mark 10:16
Then he took the children into his arms and placed his hands on their heads and blessed them.

For the past few days

Was so busy even though i got 2 days holiday :)

1st May: Went to the youth gathering with Abigail! Held in PJ, it was really good. It challenge me to kneel down and pray... in fromt of my office door.. and i did it!! Just today!!! I am am so excited that I am expecting God to do great things in my office :)

It was actually a challege given by Tom (the special Speaker) to the young generation. He sae an awesome vision!! He saw Fireballs from Heaven fall upon the children of the world.. but to the younger ones like from pre-teen and below and the fire ball exploded!!! KABBOOMM!!!

Fire Balls fell from heaven to the Youth also, but some how the fire went out even b4 they reach the youth.. but He also saw that some fireballs fell on some youth and that the fireball exploded and tranfered to other youth and it became HUGE Explosion!!

He mention that Faith must go with Desperation and with desperation, action. Faith without Action is DEAD!! So i am so challedged by this. Hope you are too!! During the talk, He played an audia of a child (about 7 to 9 years old) praying.

It was so INTENSED, i can't believe its only coming from a child.. the pray about the one they don't know to not going to Hell (yes they use the word Hell.), they pray and cry with such conviction and compassion to people of the world!! they pray about little children to be saved and help those who are in morning! As i listen to her praying, I suddenly want that kind of prayer... i want that kind of intensity, passion for God and compassion for the people.

Its an awesome challege...

Regrets....

Do you have any regrets? Things you have not done and time have just drifted away? Things you didn't get to say or do for someone? A close friend, a family member, someone special?

Been thinking of a friend lately.. her name is Flora Fung Yun Thau. A secondary school friend that i have lost contact with. We were very very close and her parents thrusted me to take good care of her everytime we go out together. (over protective i guess..) But i guess i have not really been a real friend as i didn't have the guts to share true happiness i have in Chirst when i had the chance to.

She had a difficult life, she have better grades than me, more capable and hard working than me and still she gets cheated, bullied and betrayed by other ppl when she was studying in college. Some more by our own friends.

I remember telling her not to go to Nic Wong's church becuase they pray in the Holy Spirit which was then, very creepy to us. I am so stupid! If i would have encouraged her to go and put my own misunderstanding aside i could have save her life. Now, i can't do anything. I am such a fool!

I sometimes cry for her and for myself as i truly feel that she deserve the love of Christ. I pray that she now knows our Saviour and live a great life dispite her family circumstances. I pray i could see her again as i miss her very much and if i do, i will never be a fool again.

Lord, love my friend Flora.

21x 7 Tags

[Seven Things I'm Experiencing Now]
1. God’s work in my life
2. God’s work in other people’s life
3. Loved, even with adversaries
4. Nervous as I prepare for my wedding and marriage life
5. Excited as I pray for family, frens & CPY
6. Fun as I answer these questions
7. Hungry wanna have dinner soon.

[Seven Things I'm Thinking About Now]
1. What to eat later?
2. Can go home soon.
3. What should we get for KS?
4. Planning for what to do later
5. Helping fren on their work
6. When are they going to reply their msn?
7. Should call someone later

[Seven Things I'm Worrying About]
1. Have I been a good follower of Chirst?
2. Have I been a good example and mentor to others?
3. My family & Frens who haven't receive Salvation
4. My finance
5. My Wedding day
6. Condition of CPY
7. Meeting my target for this month!

[Seven Things I'm Happy About]
1. That Jesus loves me very much
2. Jesus loves my family and friends a lot
3. I have wonderful family and friends.
4. I have a Purpose!
5. Having Nigel
6. Able to serve in Youth Ministry
7. Able to work!

[Seven People I Treasure], no limits…
1. My God (father, son and the holy spirit)
2. My family (Nigel,mom, Kenn,Ryenn,Edward, uncle Yap, Dad, Sly, Jose, Darren, my Grandparents)
3. My spiritual family (Jeacie,Kat, Sharon, Ye lane,Joanna, Michelle S,TC,Pastor Jeff, Ben, Logan, Julian,Nic, Jeff, Lit Yen)
4. My friends (Chris, Lydia.Mas Mai,Lee Lin,Yee Vun, Alice etc
5. my spiritual children (Rebecca,Steph, KS, Jenny, Abigail.,Jon, David, James,Bryan, Dexter.)
6. The Poor (reminds me of who I was and where I was from)
7. The Wise (Fear the Lord is the root of all wisdom)

[Seven Things I Always Touch or Come In Contact With]
1. my phone
2. Purse
3. Bible
4. Computer
5. Cup of tea
6. Diary & Pen
7. People

[Seven Things I Want to Improve]
1. My Prayer life
2. Singing
3. mentoring
4. God’s presence in my life
5. discipline
6. creativity
7. my skin tone

[Seven Things I'm Strong In],
1. Listening
2. Give good advise
3. Positive and cheerful
4. Passionate
5. making ppl smile
6. public speaking
7. being creative

[Seven Things I'm Weak In]
1. Studies
2. discipline
3. Saving $
4. Doing this test... so long
5.
6.
7.

[Seven Things I Adore Eating]
1. Salad
2. Fries
3. Burger King
4. Chicken wings
5. Potato Chips
6. Nuts – almond, hazel
7. Ice-cream cake

[Seven Things I Adore Drinking],
1. Hot Earl Grey Tea
2. Hot white coffee..
3. Soup
4. Hot Mint Tea
5. Hot Lemon Grass Tea
6. Water melon Juice
7.

[Seven Things I Detest]
1. People who take advantage of others
2. People who are rude and unreasonable
3. People with no manners
4. People with no compassion
5. People who thinks sinning is ok
6. People who mislead others into doing the wrong things
7. Abuser, rapist

[Seven Things I Cannot Live Without]
1. Jesus
2. Word of God
3. My Family and Friends
4. God’s help, protection and presence
5. my memories
6. my heart and soul
7. Nigel

Seven Things I Fear to Show]
1. my mistakes
2. my younger self
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

[Seven Things I'll Never Want to Talk About],
1. Gossips
2. Wrestling
3. Porns
4.
5.
6.
7.

[Seven Things I Will Want to Do]
1. Have a good rest
2. Have a vacation going for one soon yea!!!
3. Do good in everything I do
4. wash my hair
5. Learn to be dependant on God
6. Live healthy
7. Spend more time with myself, family n friends

[Seven Things I Will Never Play Around When/With]
1. Someone is sharing their problems or troubles
2. Praying with someone or to someone
3. Teach the youth
4. Scold ppl
5. Listening to my mom n Jeacie’s advise
6. Relationships
7. other people’s feelings

[Seven Things I Wonder About]
1. I wonder why I have to wonder?
2. I wonder when Jesus is coming back for us..
3. I wonder how am I going to finish this 7 tags
4. I wonder how I can have a great wedding day
5. I wonder how I can cook better
6. I wonder how can I be more like Jesus
7. I wonder why teen now a days behaving this way.

[Seven Questions I Hope My Friends Would Respond To]
1. Our friendship
2. What can I improve
3. Do you love me?
4. How did I make a difference in ur life
5. How have I been a good fren
6. What would you remember most about me
7. Would you take care of the ones I love most after I die?

[Seven Things (or People) I Would Love to See]
1. Wonders of God, His miracles
2. People’s tears of joy
3. A strong youth ministry
4. People’s smiles n laughter
5. People having fun
6. Other countries, vacation
7. New heaven and new earth

[Seven People I Wanna Tag] Dunno who lar.
1. Wai Wai lar.

Tagged by Becky..

5 MORE things you dunno about me...

1. I killed a chic (little chicken) before. It was so so cute i squeezed the fella until it have no breath and died! i think i got real scared of the incident that i erased it from my memory but my mom still remember the incident and she still laughed about it. (She tot it was cute. duh?) I remembered holding the chic but not killing it.. but i did.. :(

2. I stood up for my fren when the guy that she like didn't show up for a date. It was her birthday and she was so excited that the guy agreed to come out to meet her. She waited for a few hours and the guy didn't show up so she went home disappointed and of course cried. I can't stand it so i got his number and called him (mind you, i have never spoken to this guy b4 and i dun even really know him. He was just our Senior.) I told him tt he was a jerk by letting a girl wait for him and and never even showed up! That was unacceptable! he was of course shocked that i called and apologized to me and my fren. In the end, my fren became good frens with the guy.. hahaha all is well...

3. I was qualified and accepted to become an SIA air stewardess before. it was a great feeling! hahaha coz it wasn't easy to get the job, so many test and you can only come out top, the first, to get to the finals. Over thousands of girls they only choose about 20-25 girls. So i am very very happy i was one of the 25 girls. Didn't accept the job because i will be bonded for 5 years if i did, if 2 or 3 years I would have gone and try it out but for 5 years!? Nah, i have better things to do :)

4. I dun drink cold soya drink. I only drink hot one.. unless i'm super thirsty and no other drinks available then may be i'll consider. Weird but true..

5. One of my most memorable birthday gift(s) is from my mom. At age 7, she got me 7 little gift. Warped with news papers, each of them were my fav junk food. Was very poor so junk food is a luxury :) it was a thrill to open the gifts one by one on my old bed with my mom smiling next to me. I can still remember the joy as i unwrapped those wonderful and thoughtful gift. It was special.

Its a Wonderful Life

It’s such a wonderful life :) it comes with all the rejections, disappointments, sadness, pain, betrayal and all that. All in all, it’s a great life. I love my life, do you like yours?

Didn’t have a good family, so God gave me an awesome one; didn’t have money or wealth like everyone else, so God provided everything needed; didn’t have much friends when I was young, so God become one of my best of friends and gave me mush more later; didn’t have a much intelligence, actually I am considered the silliest girl, so God gave me proverbs; most of all, didn’t really had a father, so God assured me that He is mine. J Wonderful don’t you think?

What ever I’ve lost, God restored; what ever I don’t have, God redeemed; what ever I needed, God provided; what ever I desire (according to His will), God gives.

God gives me hope in the morning and faith at night, most of all He gave me love all through out the day..

Can’t really imagine my life without Jesus, if I could it will look pretty gloomy, dark and depressing. So I pray a prayer long time ago, “If ever I were to back slide, God please take me home before that happens because I can’t live a life without you through eternity.”

I love my life coz I love God, do you?

“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matt 6:33-34

A friend called Josephine..

This is a name i remember since i was young. A far related cousin and a good childhood friend. Actually.. My best friend ever!! I seriously dunno where to start.. it will be a long story and many will not truly understand our relationship.. we are not Les ok but we love each other very very much.. like Jonathan and David in the Bible :)

We grew up together, from the same kindergarden and primary school.. we know each other's family and we are very very close as we always visits each other. We share our thoughts and dreams;our pain and sufferings; our good times and our bad. We were like twin sisters! where ever one goes the other would be near by.. our teachers use to mixed us up! hahaha.. i'm jose nad she is Susana.. heehehee She looks pretier of course, with big dark eyes, long hair and thick rose bud lips :) a sweet girl in deed.

The most memorable moment was this one time my whole class bullied me and do not want to be friend me (areally childish k.. for very silly reason too..) but she was the only one who stood up and make a stand for me even though only 2 of us knew, i was still comforted :) she said " i will still be your friend ok?......."

we were very close, so close until i dare to scold her just becuase i do not like to be disturbed while i was doing my homework.. I only scold close friends and she was the first one :P its not fair i know, but its when i can truly be myself.. (i did explain to her and said sorry k.. i was not without manners or understanding).. The best part! she still loves me any way...

I remember when i was studying in KL in year 2000 i had a very bad dream about her and it left me without peace.. it really bothered me.. i prayed and i tried to called and write letters to her but no reply.... i was so so worried.. until i go back to Sabah and went looking for her and saw her tt she was safe and healthy, then only i have peace.. and you know what? during the time i had that bad dream about her.. she was actually facing a crisis!! wow! what a miracle! God really send His massages through dreams, if not i would not know and would not have prayed for her safety and God's protection. It didn't happend exactly i dream of (thank God it wasn't.) but it was a distress call..

So, my best friend is married now.. to a wonderful guy called Victor :) i'm sure they'll make a great family together.. Soon i'll have a family too and then may be our children will become best of friends also.. :) i love my sister Josephine Chang...

Tears to my eyes...

Was reading about a story of how a girl lost her legs and her father when a bomb struck her home in Bosnia. It brought back a sad memory tt i have read in the local news paper about a father and son.

I saw 3 pictures in the news paper that captured my eyes. 3 very heart breaking pictures i will never ever forget.

Its was about a gun flight between 2 parties and as you may have guessed the father and son was "in between" the gun flight. First Picture, Father and son hugging each other in fright; father and son crying fearing for thier life. Second Picture, Father raised his hand to plead the shotters to stop as they are in danger; pleading... begging. Third Piture, father and son's body laying dead on the same spot.

I can never forget the face of that man. His face shows deep sadness and pain; in fear of not only his own life but the life of his dear son. His tears on his face broke my heart, his eyes was red and teary.

War is real. Many people have great and wonderful lives but they throw it away for thrills and wasted thier lives on drugs, discos, alchohol and prostitution. For some having to live, just being alive is more precious than gold.

"Love is like wildflowers. Its often found in the most unlikely places." ~H. Jackson Brown, Jr

PC fair

Today is a fun and tiring day as we went to PC fair. Logan, Sharon, Wai wai, Nigel and me.. it was not a good experience as its really troublesome to go from one place to another. It was fun as Sharon and I had a short chat as we rested (when the guys went shopping.).

We had lunch with the whole gang (except Elaine as she have lunch with her family.) you know.. the usual young adult group... we met Pastor & family, Thomas & family, Mrs. Saw & family, Joon Lang & family (and a friend), not forgetiing Mr Beh & family, and Kenneth :) It looks like out church over took 3/4 of the restaurant. hahaha.. the younger children was sitted in one table and they asked me to think of a game.. sori guys.. no idea at tt moment..

Nigel is very happy to get a 4G USB drive for RM115... Got a wireless adaptor, new catridge and emthy CDs. It was a fun experience for Nigel, Logan and Wai wai.. tiring experience for Sharon and me...

For the youth by the youth

Today we have a new speaker! Jon! Yea!.. He shared about why young people should come to our youth group.. Its small but we got God and the intimacy (relationship)... hahhaa.. spiritual and emotional k.. not physical... Its good, relaxed and enjoyable...

Worship was good too.. Jin Ing played drum today.. not bad.. can play d oh.. James, good as usual but Nic gave some pointers so it's actually better.. hahaha Stephanie wasn't on duty but Nic feels we needed the piano/organ so she was willing to help.. Charles handled the games and the whole meeting pretty well too. Everyone enjoyed the game.

The whole team did great today... It feels like the first time "For the youth, By the youth, Through the youth." its good... God is well pleased.. one thing though.. we forgot Jeremy was suppose to be in CPY group d.. hahaha Sorry Jeremy.. we will remember to remind you tt you are no more in Pre-teens.. you have been up graded! heeheehee... Oh, Jeremy also support sing today! :)

All Pre-teens will be up graded as they grow older.. its part of growing up and its a good thing.. i hope they are looking forward to it as all of us need to grow to the next stage. We dun wan to be "terbantut" right? That would include growing in numbers too! We want to grow!!!

Our goal is still have that personal touch with God, among all the members and grow to a group of 60 this year!... 30 gals 30 guys.. Let us do our best and let God do the rest.. Amen!!!

On Joseph's B-day

We are at Joseph's house now!! hahaha today is Joseph's Birthday! Happy B-day Bro!!! Its his 19th bird-day! Guess who is here now??

Nigel, James, Bryan, David and me... (We came to surprise Joseph with a Chocolate cake and LOTS of Junk Food!!!) Sorry for those we didn't invite as transport is a factor.. Next time k?

Each one of us prayed for Joseph for great blessing from God. These bunch of young people really can eat!! after eating 3/4 of the cake, they ate all the junk food! (we bought about RM37.50 of junk food and soft drinks) then RICE!!!! RICE??? crazy lar.. dunno where all those food went..

Hope you had a great time Joseph!!! We all love you !!! Since Bryan and James dun read long long stories.. ok lar.. stop here then...

Just Love..

When you love something enough, it will reveal its secrets to you.
Have you ever love something deeply? some of us have and i'm sure for the things that you love many do not know about how wonderful it is.. only you know about it becuase the secret was only reviewed to you :) as you go deeper and deeper....

So just love..

The measure of a man's heart is not how much his faith is, but is how much his love is.
Man, as in human beings, may lack faith but even we have all faith, all wisdom, all knowledge and not love... We have nothing.

So just love..

Sad Sad Story...

Yesterday my mom told me a very very sad story, its terrible. My young cousin sister is getting married, suddenly! So i hope i dun need to lilaborate what happened lar.

The really sad part is, her father is a Pastor in their church! She is in the children church ministry... I know "tepuk air dalam telega, kena muka sendiri." but i just wanted to highlight that this is a serious matter and i am heart broken by it. If she was in front of me, i would scold her like no body's business which i think many have done that.

What was she thinking!!!!??? She have not only ruin her good name but her father's name and not to mentioned God's. I know we are all human and we make mistakes but how can this happened? Where goes the discipline and self-control?

I also know that Ministers' and Pastors' children & family will always be the target for the Devil to attact. They need to be extra extra careful and be alert!! For the lion is ever ready to kill and steal! I understand that its not easy for my cousin sister to face this now, but i hope that she will repent and rise up. I hope she will face the fact that she made a huge mistake and confess that its a sin. That she have tarnished his father's name as well as the name of her Heavenly Father. I hope she realize that.

All in all, her father and her Heavenly Father will forgive her. I know they will. I also hope that she will not let the shame and guilt pull her down. I hope she will grow wiser through this pain and continue to trust in the Lord. She is so loved! She must know that and no matter what she have done, no matter what happens , we (her father, Heavenly Father and me) will NEVER disown her, stop loving her or forsake her.. We love her very very much... and we are there to support her faith (not her sin), her spirit and love her with all our heart.

Some mistakes are irreversable and it doesn't only cost YOU, it cost your family, your friends and those you love. Some people think "Its MY problem and i'm the only one baring it. So what's your worry? it doesn' t hurt anyone else." Not in most cases, your action will cause pain to those around you.

Yes, God will love us no matter what happens, no matter what we did and no matter how many time we did it. (All we need to do is to confess our sin & repent, and all is forgiven.) But He also hope that you do not need to go through hell to know that He really loves you, you know what i'm sayin?

So think twice before you act.

Wat R U thinking...

Young people now a days dun like to read long long stories, but good stories dun come in short paragraphs. Same with wanting to live a good life, there is no short cuts to it. Hard work, perseverance and determinations plays an important role. Without the right values (from Jesus) and the right help (from Jesus) we'll never make it in life.

You dun wan 2 study, wan 2 work; You wan 2 start dating at a young age; You wan 2 start drinking alcohol; You wan 2 try smoking; You wan 2 go Disco/clubs; You wan 2 get layed ETC..

YOU cannot handle it!!! Your brain is not mature or develop enough to think or to differentiate what is right and what is wrong, Number 1; Number 2, Your character have not been develop to its fullest potential, as you will change and grow consistently; Number 3, start thinking and acting like a true mature, responsible and wise adult then see if you will do these things at your age now.

You dun wan 2 study, wan 2 work: "If you are thinking for your family, i understand. Being poor and need to help the family is a noble cause but do get some form of education to improve oneself later. But if you are just thinking for yourself, you better think twice! Education is not everything, yes! but it will help. Don't just because 'i don't want to study' then you don't study and start to work without thinking about your future."

You wan 2 start dating at a young age: "Hello? Do you know who you are Really dating? Do You even know who you Really are? what you want in life? Who you really want to be for the rest of your life? If you can't even answer these questions, please don't ruin other people's life or break other people's heart. It could you being heart broken."

You wan 2 start drinking alcohol: "Even if your parents allow you to drink alcohol know that it doesn't mean you can drink like there is no tomorrow Or its cool to drink at your age. Have you met people with Liver cancer? Liver failure? A bad drinking problem and start hitting their family and young children? Drinking is not the way to relieve, its way to destruction!Remember that.Don't be proud that you know how to drink, its nothing great about it."

You wan 2 try to smoke: "Ai-se-men! Not only you wan to kill yourself but you wan to kill the ones close to you! i know some gentlemen who doesn't smoke in front of non-smokers.(thank you) but its not easy to quit smoking and it kills your lungs and you'll have bad breaths and deceases wil visit you sooner than you think. Don't start young, it will kill your youth."

You wan 2 go Disco/clubs: "1st question, why do you want to go there anyway? Nothing better to do ah? Most of the people that goes there either facing problem at home or they are really wild. I advise that don't start getting addicted to hanging out in those places. Its not healthy and it only give you a temp "happy" feeling. I know you just want to try 'been there done that' kinda thing, just don't get addicted. I know people at their forties and they still love to go disco/pubs. please lar, grow up!"

You wan 2 get layed: " Come here, come nearer and I'll give you a slap on the face! Don't laugh buddy! This is the worst thought some of you teenagers think about! (ok, killing, stealing, burning other people's house, hurting people, rape etc is worst lar) Why would you wan to give a way your virginity to someone who is not faithful, who will not marry you, who will not take care of you when you are ill, who will dump you for a better person, who will walk out on you anytime, who flirts around, who is a jerk, who doesn't respect you, who never commits etc.... I know, you didn't know that the person is going to walk out, going to dump you, not committed etc.. then if you are not sure? why give away something so important??????????? stupid right??? (please forgive me for my language, but its really STUPID!!!!)

i am not so bad in person, but when i really cannot tahan and you are very close to me, this is what i will say to you. (To those who have tasted my scolding, i'm sorry. I love you too much to ignore the things that will destroy your life in the future.)

I know we all make mistakes but don't do it for the sake of doing it. The consequences is sometimes long term and devastating. I have seen people going "been here done that" and they are not happy with their lives, and now for those who have "been there done that" i know one person, only one person can help you.... that's Jesus. (Don't worry, He is nicer than me :)

Tagged

i can actually ignore the tagging thingy, but well it sounds fun so i'll give it a try. 5 things you dunno bout me.... huh? a bit hard lar.. coz a lot things also many people know also... ok here goes.

1) I can remember things tt happen since i was as young as 3 years old. I have see dejavu in my memory and tot it was just a dream until i see pictures of the same incident and it happened when i was still as young as 2 to 3 years old. i even remember the things my bro said to me before our family first (and last) family portrait. Also tot it was just a cute dream but it wasn't, it actually happened and what he said to me was real.. and sweet :)

2) I join youth meeting when i was 10 years old and worship lead at 11 in a small church in Tuaran, Sabah. Normally starts at 7pm to 9pm every Saturday. After meeting, they will have a choir practice for sunday's service (they sings only hymns). In the beginning it was so boring tt me and my fren hide in the TOILET for an hour to stay undetected for about... a few months... then.. they found us... yea in the toilet...

3) I fell from a branch before and my heart actually stop beating for a while. After i fell i can hear my own heart beating very fast and was trying to breath but suddenly as i was looking up to my friend it was slowly turning blur and dark and i think i pass out after tt. The next thing i know was my big cousin sister forcing water into my mouth and i was chocking. Thank God for a miracle! I could have died! and its no joke.

4) I love to sleep on my star fruit tree when i was young. i would climb to the middle of the tree where the branches was the most and sleep there and enjoy the breeze. (you should try it, its really relaxing and cool.)

5) I use to be very very close with my elder brother. We share a lot of things including food and drinks. Until one day,i was having a can of either coke and Sarsi and he keeps drinking it and i lie saying tt i spit into the drink (i'm so terrible, feel bad about it now). He was so angry and never take my drinks or eat my stuff again.. so no sharing after that day .. so sad.. Now we share, i think he forgot about it d.. hahaha

I want to tag NIC WONG!!!!! tell another 5 things we dunno about you!!!

One of the Devil's Plan

Do you ever notice how the Devil tries to make your life miserable? Do you relize his sharp teeth when you are traped in his plan? Telling you lies and put doubts, anger, and confusing into your minds?

I hate that, i sometimes feels that and have come across many undefeated battles with the Devil. I failed and i failed badly. How to show others love, how to care for others, how to be a good steward, how to be a better mentor, how to be a loving and supporting gf, how to be a "hou soon" daughter, how to grow the ministry etc.. i have failed many many times.. so many oppositions and trials. How to tahan??? So many complaints, so many discouragements, so many heart aches.

At times i feel very weak and powerless, especially when things didn't go as well at times... hai.... I take it upon myself that its my responsibility and yes i am as i am a part of a very complicated calling. Demanding request pulling for my attenttion as i need to balance doing the right thing and doing it with love..

I sometimes feel i am such a bad influence when things didn't go the right way.... yet i remember that i do not need to be perfect but i will strive for excellence. " But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect." (Mt 5:48) doesn't mean we are perfect.. "to be" here is an on going action, a work in progress, doing. The scripture didn't say "You are prefect for your Father in Heaven is perfect"!?? nah ah!! So don't be afraid to feel the least among many and perhaps the weakest among the giants.. we can be a dove and still touch many just always be willing & ready to let God take control. Greatness sometimes comes in small packages. Don't you agree? :)

So don't be down and stay down? That is just want the Devil want you to do!? he will discourage you and destroy,crush and break your spirit but count on the Lord for He will renew our strenght and we will soar on wings of eagles.

"But those who wait on the LORD will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." Isa 40:31

So proud.....

So proud of the young people in our church today, just because they attended Ps. Jeremiah's special meeting this afternoon. Two of CPY leaders could not be there (Rebecca and Joseph, got to work oh) but i'm still proud of the whole team :) coz each one of them represent each other and they are a part of a whole team. One praised all are priased! (one kena scolding, the whole team also kena lar..) "Yao fook tong hiong, yao lan tong dong."

The young people in our church have come a long way. From childishness to maturity; from taking to giving; from no commitment to more commitment; from unwilling to willing (didn't give in easily though) hahaha.. Nevertheless, this bunch of young people have really come a long way..

I personally know each one of them and they surprizes me all the time. yes of course they are not prefect in many ways but the good thing is.............. i'm very forgetful so i dun really remember the imperfectionssssss.... So that's why i'll always have room to be surprized!!! heehee

One day i'll be gone, and death is sometimes very sudden. Besides wishing that my love ones will take good care of themselves and always remember that i am with the Lord, i also wish that after i am no longer able to share the passion Jesus has for the young generation, someone else will and CPY will carry on the legacy of Christ's love: For The Lord and For The People. Luke 10:27 "Love the Lord with all your heart and all your soul and will your strenght and all your mind." and "Love your neighbor as yourself."

When i die i will want to be remembered as someone who have loved as how Christ loved me. If i can summarise my life purpose in one action, that would be to love. I am still learning but that would be my ultimate goal becuase "we love because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19 if someone doesn't know how to love, its becuase no one have showned him/her how love looks like. Do you know how love looks like? :)

i hope the young generation will know that God our Father really really loves them. I cannot imagine a world without God in their lives. The source of love, care and joy all comes from one and only source... Jesus. Young people may not think they need Jesus now, but eventually everyone of us need Jesus. For those young people who are already in the light always be ready, be prepared for you'll never know when your good friend, your buddy, your pals will one day need that love, that care and that joy only Jesus can offer.

The young people in our church is so wonderful that they themselves doesn't even know it.. They are so gifted, talented and blessed! I'm sure God is humbling them and also bringing them up to a life of greatness. They will need to wait and see patiently as God's plan unfolds... bit... by... bit........

You show me love I

I knew of this person ever since i was born. Since primary school i wil go & visit him every year 4 my holiday. In the beginning, i never seem 2 remember him at all. Who he was & why i hv 2 come 2 Tawau every year? May b because i was 2 young 2 remember or it could b tt i only concentrate on the action & fun of my holiday than the ppl around me.

Can you guess who he is?

He is a loving man. He loved me & my brother very much. He'll do anything 4 me & my bro becuase we were so precious 2 him. i make him proud by being bold & daring! Obedient & treat him with respect! He brings me around wit my other cousin sister 2 sing 2 his frens. (sing children songs.) In front of his frens family & friends. I can see through his smiles tt he was so proud of me.

1 fine day, I saw how he execute a squirrel. (Becuase He hv a lot of fruit tree, a squirrel is not considered as a pet. Its a PEST!) The squirrel r caught in a cage & the cage (made out of steel wires) is only as big as a shoe box. Wit the squirrel stil inside the cage, they put the whole cage into the water. The cage sank into the bottom as the squirrel was strugging for air! it was a cruel & slow death. i cried so hard after tt incident tt i keep asking why must we kill it tt way.

The next day, we caught another squirrel & i begged him not to kill it. i promised i will take gd care of it & feed it EVERYDAY. He looked into my teary eyes & said "ok". Yea!!! i have a pet squirrel!! so happy! So began my first day of squirrel raring. Its not as fun as i thought ok >:( the squirrel is not tamed & it bites! After 2 days i hate the cute furry animal. so i left it there & totally forgot about it.

After a few days, as i was jumping down the stairs i suddenly stop as i couldn't believe my eyes!!He didn't see me standing behind and He was feeding the squirrel not to mention showering it with water (giving it a bath i guess.)
i was stund by his love 4 me. He took care of the squirrel just becuase i wanted the squirrel, even though he hates the little furr ball & normally kills it. He spend his time cleaning the cage, getting food 4 it & bathing the fella because of me. He didn't want me 2 feel sad or cry if the squirrel die.

I stood there for a while, looking at him from behind, i got tears in my eyes. Hv any1 been so kind? Someone who loved you so much that they will put thier own interest and agenda a side just2make u happy, just 2 c tt smile on ur face & tt twinkle in ur eyes? This is the first time i feel a love that was so pure, true & noble.

A love only a grandfather can give...
It has been over 20 years & i still remember that day... the day I was touched by an angel.

Crazy Xxxx Xxxx!!!!! >:P

This happened when i was only about 8/9 years old. I normally visit my grandfather in Tawau in the end of the year to spent my one month holiday there.

So on this particular year and day, my cousin bro and i decided to go on our usual daily adventure into the oil palm and rubber estate. We decided to go a bit further to see what we can discover..

As we were happily walking and chatting, laughing and jumping.. we heard some noise from the bushes.. we look at each other and ... there was the sound again!.. What do you think it is?.. my cousin bro gave me a "i dunno" sign. it was consistent and it just near by.. we could have walk out of it but our adventurous side took over and we walked slowly into the bushes to have a look... As we turn the branches and leaves trying to get a better look, we step on a branch and made a loud "crack" sound.

Just then we saw what had made the noise and we could see that she was with her little Xxxx Xxxxs, then the Crazy Xxxx Xxxx saw us! She charged at us!!!! RUNNNNNN !!!!!! screaming our heads out! Running with no turning back nor looking back, we run for our lives!!! (Run Forrest Run!!) I ran until my shoes almost flew off! I ran until i can hear my heart pounding and felt like it was running in front of me! Aiya! huhhhh... Thank God We are alive!! Thank God for our faithful Doggie Petrol that was following us from far behind. they chased the Crazy Xxxx Xxxx away!

Went home, told my mom and grandparents about what happened, and they laugh until they need some air to breath. Hey! what so funny!? We were almost Xxxx Xxxx dinner!.. :(

Can you guess what Xxxx Xxxx is?

I wonder.....

I remember the first time i went looking for her. As I walk slowly in tears trying to find her, i almost stumbled, then there she was.. washing plates. Smiling at me like it was nothing wrong she gave me a hug and carried me to comfort me.

That was the earliest memory i have about her. i don't know how old i was then but i was definitely still too young to walk properly. Hope you already know who am i talking about? my mom!

We had a hard life. My dad walk out on us when i was only 4/5 years old. (i think? about there lar..) my mom had to work as a maid to support our daily living. She washes other people's clothes, clean their houses, cook for them etc... once a while i would follow her on her daily job. i would help her wash some of the clothes so she she wouldn't be too tired. Helped her wipe the windows and clean the dishes.

On Sundays, she would go to the morning market and sell flowers. She is a great Gardener! The flowers that she planted always blooms so beautifully. No one in the flower market have the bloom like my mom's flowers. Every Sunday morning at about 4am, we'll wake up and get ready to go to the market. we'll reach there about 530 to get a good place. then we will sit there until about noon for less people were around.

I wouldn't say i'll miss those times. hahaha coz those were pretty hard times for us. But i learn to appreciate the hardship and perseverance my mom and other people have to endure. Especially single mothers. its so hard raising up a family alone, sometimes not only other people accuse you, your own flesh and blood rejects you. Its depress to be in this situation. But it didn't get to us.

We have a great life! We lack somethings in life but we never lack love and care. Sometimes people say nasty things about my mom but even at my young age, i was fierce!!! i will not sit there and listen to people who have no heart criticizing my mom or anyone else bout their lowly occupation or situations. I will speak my mind! Respectfully.. of course. They are my elders and i will not show any disrespect and bring my mom shame. I simply said that want she is doing isn't a sin, (i go to Sunday school then) and she never hurt anyone. She do her work well and her employees liked her very much. So there! (not much, but what can u expect for a 7,8 year old?)

God says: " Honour your farther and mother...." No matter in what situations you are in with your parents; no matter how lowly you think your parents' job is; no matter how other parents seems to have it all; no matter how your parents doesn't have anything. They are your parents, you represent them. How you act and carry yourselves will determine how you bring them pride or shame, not the other way around. Got that!?

Happy Everyday Mom!